Neoprints

My these few days...

tt day... deepvali...went to aunt's hse to tutor her son... one hour!!! haiz... actually is two hours... haiz... invited by Raja to her house... saw rachel, she became prettier! raja gave us nice food! yummy... i love the curry... haha... =) stay at her room for 2 to 3 hours??? dunno... den finally came out of her house... her house quite big, two houses combine tgt... den her house gt swing leh... so cool... thanks raja! =)

sunday... what i do ar? i can't rmb... i think i went swiming... can't remember liao... haha...

monday... ytd rite... oh... games day... biz sale... tired... went tutor an an also... wah... real tired out... haiz...

today... do maths tutorial... do till vomit blood... do n slp at the same time... den went swimming... 20laps!!!!! yeah!!!! target for the year: 30 laps... jia u... hee... 20 laps within one hour... that is pretty slow rite... haiz...

gt op rehearsal tml... jia u lor... watching death note after chinese exam... jia u... haha! =) tired... better go slp now... or else gt eye bags liao... buai! =)

Neoprints

Birthday!

Happy Belated Birthday Yvonne! =)

Happy Birthday Shang Yi ! =)

SY's bd celebration

specially choose yellow-orange as SY like it... morning... rain... nice one... quite big... at the bus stop, an NY girl asked me, " need umbrella? i can lend u, we can share..." i rejected cos i gt one... but she is so sweet in offering me... hee...

den was shocked cos nobody was at the bench... cos our usual meeting place... nobody there... scare me... haiz..

den go hall... den say something hindu can go home earlier... den yc say" m hindu"... i actually wanted to say u not dark enough but dunno why i ended up saying... u too fat... wah lao... feel liks scolding my big fat mouth... what the hell wrong lor... nice one... yc is not fat lor... wah lao... what the hell m doing... i also dunno... nvm... haiz...

presention... wah... last group... nice one... so boring... and tired... and scary... but it is all over...i was rapping... i think i can go join jay chou... haha... treat as learning point! jia u! =)

haha... great sy's celebration ytd!!! u know what i do? waste my energy to give shang's the bd present... haha... thanks joanne for accompanying me... haha... den she said, " still early what?" den i act blur, " huh? tml (her bd is on 21/10) m not meeting u what? Happy Birthday! " haha... this idea suggested by lou... not bad ar...

den meeting... meet lou at bishan j8 to buy cake... nice cake at bread talk... haha.. =) den at the mrt... huiyi joker lor... she called lou, " asking her how? she wanted to see shang and pass her the present... " den lou dunno... den she asked me... den i also v blur... den huiyi say, " kk, nvm, i call sam n ask her how..." b4 lou can reply... she alr hang off... den my phone was ringing... haha... nice one... hui yi... i was with lou all along... haha...

so the plan... i go buy the tickets as scare no tickets... den lou go meet huiyi n bring huiyi to meet with shang n sl at dauby ghaut mrt... shang dunno huiyi is coming...

wah feel like an idiot... waiting..holding so many stuffs- cake, popcorn,drinks, tickets.. but nvm... it is worth it... hee... den finally... see shang's surprised look... when she sees me... cos she dunno i will be there...but sad thing is huiyi gtta leave as our movie has started alr... huiyi can't join us as she still gt cca in sch.. sad...

roob-b-hood rocks! so funny... the baby is so cute!!! =) nice nice! worth it! although gt the shit thingy... abit disgusting... haha... the baby is so cute... oh... it is touching also... wah... got cheated at the last part... not bad alr... although m tired but still can concentrate on watching movie... so u think leh... it is a great movie! good... although a bit in front la... but still not as bad....

next plan... pauline came... i acted like m rushing to meet my friends... but main reason is that to meet pauline... den cake at lou's hand... so i told lou to act like go toilet and ask shang to accompany... den pass the cake to us... meet at the pasta( dunno how to spell)... den she finally came... we t0ok photos and sang songs... haha... food is nice... haha... cheesy... great!!!

den we went to take neoprint... haha.. so funny... sl took a shuai pic... not bad ar...

den mad came... cos her tuition was near PS... haha.... not bad ar...but nvm... gt come can alr... haha... shang so easily gt cheated? haha... so funny... yappz... great celebration... hee... =)

Stupid

wah... nice one... i feel so stupid lor... you know why? cos i tot thursday which is ytd is taking the main result ma... den i go tell my mum... den i was like a bit worry for whole day... wah... waste my time worrying... cos next thurs den take... so next wk then worry... for now... can't wait for shang's bd celebration... haha... photos and more photos...

my mum is so sweet! =)

haiz... worry for nth... stupid la... haiz... nvm... m gg slp... still haven watch teeth even... but m hungry leh... how ar? haiz... tml den eat la... tired... go slp... still got 3 ed left lor... sian... haiz...

Haiz

wah... so sad... dunno why so sad... dunno why bro so bad to me today... keep complaining me to mother... i alr feel so sad alr.. haiz.. nvm... i dun care alr... feel like crying... but i dun wan... sian... how i wish... dun worry... everything will have a solution... there is a will, there is a way... jia u! dun worry! =)

The Dream of A Seagull

The Dream of A Seagull

My foot does not separate from the ground.
I'm simply afraid.
I'm afraid to fly to the sky.
Because I'm used to the ground, the sky is an unfamilar place.
Don't I have the wings?
Don't I have the dream of before?

Promo result...

haiz... i think m pretty happy with the promo result... not that i can promote or something... just that i know i alr done my best... i have no regret... and i got improve... even if i die... i die with pride... ya... thanks for all the friends who cared for me... i'm well and strong... so what even retain... even qwen got the courage to retain... still she is still as happy... why can't i? ya... still cheerful always! =) anyway, the main result has not come not... y worry? yeah! i think m braver than i think than i am... why? cos i didn't cry... am i acting? i dunno... i guess so... still smiling... still laughing... acting as if nothing had happened... many times... i wanted to tell my mum... "Ma, I think I can't make it..." but i just can't say out... cos i dun wan to make her worry... i dun wan her to feel sad... maybe i shall wait till the real result come out...i think she wanted to ask too... but just can't bring out as well...i'm really sorry... but i have to confirm 1st den i shall tell her...why whenever m sad i feel like writing story? let's see....

He waited for her for 4 hours near her house.
Jasmine: Jason?
Jason smiled at him. He raised his arms up for her to hug him.
Jason: I'm all yours.
He went over to hug her.
Jasmine: I dun wan to cry.
Jason: It will feel better. It is only me and you. don't try to act tough in front of me. It willl only hurt me...
She cried.
Jas: How you know?
Jason: How i dunno? if you are happy with your result, you will surely sms me. if not... whatever the result, i will always be by your side...
Jas: thanks for accompanying me whenever i need you.
Jason: my goal in life is to protect you and to make you smile...
Jasmine felt safe and secure in his strong and muscular arms...She is not afraid of moving forward as she knows whatever decision she made, he will always be there for her to encourage her and to protect her...
*the end*

haiz... now i reflect back.. i quite like my chinese compo leh... haha... at least i pass my chinese compo lor... 1st time in history since jc... ok la... gotta pack my feelings liao... jia u! =)

princess hours

nice one... did i miss the ghost story? haiz... nvm... tml...

another song from goong...
I miss you again, just like it was yesterday.
My desire to see you just won't disappear.
You just keep appearing in my mind.
The more I comfort myself, the more i cry.
Even if I rub away those tears secretly.
The memories are spreading to other memories.
Making me cry eith a painful heart.
I regret that I have only received.
Will you forget me because I haven't you anything.
I love you..I... I love you...
This is what I learned from you.
Out of all the words and phrases in the world.
This has become my favourite phrase.
I mutter it to myself, as if I were stupid.
I'm really sorry... I'm really sorry...
I'm sorry for these words that are too late.
I wait for you with no shame.
Will you return tomorrow by chance?

nice huh?

Sick

feel so sad today... cos i feel so sick... but i had agreed my aunt to teach his son at 12pm... but really really tired although i had enough of rest... still i drag my feet up and dressed up and walked to her house... i dun think i look ill i guess... cos i always had red rosy cheeks... rmb ytd... that Hafiz call me "blushing girl"... haha... maybe i shy? headache and sneeze for so many days liao... why? stupid haze... make me so sick... didn't went to tutor yang zheng ppl also... haiz...

tutoring Ben... make me want to vomit blood... the whole 2h was a torture... he dun sit properly... talk back to me... anger me... pls... i feel so sick... i really do not have the energy alr... i realised i lose my temper easily... but still... i think he is smart... but he is lazy... that's all... i do hope he will change as exam is nearing... haiz... exam... result coming on monday... dun feel like gg sch on monday... feel so sick...

fortune teller says that i had a gd name... cos i can make a success... but my health will be affected everytime i succeed... how i wish this is true... cos result is coming... how i wish i can promote... i dun mind to sneeze for another two days... i dun wan to waste my one year...

came back home... fell asleep... really... really really tired... and it is so warm... haiz... head fell so heavy... dunno how i walked home also... miricle... haha... gotta do my pw liao... den i watch goong... oh, today gt ghost story... yeah! =)

wah... sian... read a book... starting... pretty nice... but in the middle... so boring... dunno i can finish the whole book or not... haiz... the cover page looked nice... cos got one gd looking guy at the cover page ma... haha... =)

Facilitors

haha... great day ytd.... although it is 13th 0ct fri... which is the black fri... but i have a great day... haha... morning... gt pw... sian...den went to eat... den went to smu...

really reall excited to go smu... haha... a bit scare at the same time as well as i do not what is coming up for me... and do not know what kind of people i am going to face.so initially when i met these ppl who are at risk, i was a bit frightened... but after some time, i found that they are really friendly and outing... and humourous too...haha... den i was assigned to a guy call hafiz... a hyperactive guy... 18yr old... sim min ite... he v sway... 1st time buy a plasma tv worth $6000 alr... haha... den dunno y my table like earn v little money also... pretty tough... like keep paying money like that... but still pretty fun! haha! gd try! =) great! =) yeah!

when i reached home... real tired... some more sick... hiaz... so i fell asleep while watching tv... haiz... didn't watch my liao zai... nvm... now watch goong... haha.... ed 11... yeah! den go slp le... really ned plenty of rest huh... yeah... go go go! =)

Goong

goong! nice nice nice! haha... today only mention to watch 2 eds... haiz... nice one... but nvm... sick liao... haiz... sneeze... today open hse... 2pn to 5pm... won't be in sch anyway... haiz... nice one... going smu... haha.... become facil... so excited... haha... jia u! but i scare tml no voice liao... haiz... =) jia u! =)

here is the meaning of the other song... in u tube... v meaningful also... haha...

I was stupid.
I was an idiot.
It's too late for me to regret it, I know that I can't turn back the hands of time.
I won't be able to see you anymore...
I know that...
It's my fault. I am really sorry...
I couldn't tell u then but I am really sorry.
So now I come to beg you for forgiveness.
You and I are stupid. Because of my pride.
I am destroying myself with the cigrettes and beer.
You and I are stupid.
Because you still love me.
You are crying everyday.
We are both idiots...

this song was played when ed 11... he gave him ai de wen nuan... so xin fu... haha... so romantic lor... haha! =) hope tml will feel better... hope my sneeze will disappear... haha! =)

pain

wah... pain... tong ku... haiz... sleepy... go slp le... so sian...

goong

omg! it is really really v nice! goong! nice nice nice! haha... yul is so shuai... omg om.... haha! haiz... crazy alr... haiz... so tired... n addicted liao... haiz... biz is quite fun ytd... tot it will be boring... but it is fun... play game n learn new stuff... yeah... nice one...haha... ! =) faster start on studying chinese gal! and tidy ur table! haiz... kk... will do it er... tml.... haha... but goong put at 1st place... haha.....

song from goong... the meaning...from you tube video... =)

i dun rmb when it was that i started to keep thinking about u...
the thought would appear in abt twice...
they keep expanding and i felt abit surprised...
i kept thinking to myself that it was nth,
but it was awkward when i talked to u.
is it love? if u're thinking the same thing, then is it a start for us?
my heart keeps loving u...
it's screaming for the whole world to hear...
why is it that i hear it now?
i've found love now that i have found u...
even if i try to explain to my heart,
the only thing i want u to know that u had my heart...
i'm already inside u...
Just how u're in my heart...
we might alr be inside each other's heart....

i think this is what the princess felt... wow... so touching lor... and romantic... wow... nice nice... haha... so sweet... so meaningful... haha... =) k... gotta slp soon... buai... =)

busy day...

tired myself out... but not a bit tired at all... i dunno... m really confused... hiaz... tell u what i did ytd since it is alr past 12am...

morning... went sch... do pw.... nice one... m 1st to reach... then tl... den ch... den wj... gk was more den 1h late... nice one... tl told me abt goong... the whole story... haha... so shiok...

yc came... we went com lab to watch goong... wow... really shuai... female lead actress also pretty... hee... nice one... waited for wj to send the doc for 2h in com lab... still didn't send... sian... nvm... watch 2ed of goong... haha...

then went bishan lib with yc... borrowed 2bks... rebecca came.... sham actually is meeting me one... cos i pei-ing her study ma... haha... but den she said she is tired... haiz... my lunch: garic bread and milk... haha...

went rebecca hse to do pw... cos my hse com no mircosoft office... actually gt la... but can't use... sian lor... do the whole afternoon... till 6.30pm den i left without even sending to my email... cos m gg to be late for my cousin tuition... tml she gt exam man....

wah sian... how come my com so lag???

aunt: how to pronounce this in mandarin...
me: inhale den i explain means breathing in...
aunt: den this?
me: exhale mean breathing out...
an an(my cousin): mummy wanna jian fei( burn off fat)... cos she is fat...
i was like dotss...den it is ok... den she continues...
an an: u also need to jian fei so fat fat...
i was like ya... i know... haiz... so sad... ppl alr so sad liao... still chi ji me... haiz... sian...

went home late... eat my dinner at around 11pm lor... sian... haiz... life sux... but i have to be strong... jus like what eugene tell me this afternoon... think positive and think happy! =) haha! =)

haiz

really really tired... headache.... i want to travel the world... really really tired...headache... y i wan these suffering... m tired... i need a break... i hate jc life? stupid and torturing... really feel like dying right now... dun wan to do anything... haiz... but life has to go on...

feel like becoming a writer... den i do not have to face the reality... haiz...
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girl is 17 yrs old... boy is 20 years old....
at the beach...
boy: when i earn enough money, i will marry u...
girl: haha... who wanna marry u... i still gotta finish my studies 1st k...and u have to finish urs too
boy: ya... m top student... cos of u... u better study hard also... i teach u till i vomit blood one...
girl: what vomit blood... m very smart one k!
boy: k.. whatever... wanna lie ur head on my shoulder and take a rest...
the girl lie on his shoulder, he hugged her hard... he wanted to protect her all his life... but he knew he can't...

the day they met...4 years ago... girl was 13 and boy was 16...
the girl was walking pass a street, with her two guards close beehind... the boy was beaten badly by a group of guys... the girl ordered the guards to check out what happen... she saved the boy... that is how they met... the boy was drunk and badly hurt... the boy came from a broken family... he got no love and no hope... when he was being cared for... he felt warmth inside... at the same time, he felt fear, as he was scared that the same thing will happen to him again, will disappear into the thin air... so he is cruel to the girl at 1st... but later... he knew... he fell in love with her... he was so much misery... he did not know what to do...
one day, the girl told him her feelings about him: i love u... i know u hate me... but i jus wanted to tell u... i love u from the day i saved u... i dunno y... i jus can't stop thinking abt u...
the boy did not reply....the girl walked off....
the boy hugged her from the back: no.... i love u... i can't stop thinking about u... but i fear... once i have u... i will lose u...
the girl turned back: i won't... i will stay by ur side forever...
they kissed... their 1st kiss...

the boy quit drinking cos of her... he picked up drinking cos he wanna get away from reality and to numb himself...
recently, the boy found out that he got liver cancer and his liver can't work anymore due to excessive alcohol...

boy: professer, i think i can't finish my research... can let my gf to complete? pls... i know she will do it...
professor: but where r u going?
boy: away from the earth...
the boy told him about his health problem... the professor was v sad to hear this as another talent guy is lost in the research industries... haiz...

boy went to look for his gf's crush...
boy: hey! u like jessica rite?
chris: i er... i er...
boy: jus tell me the truth la... i won't beat u up...
chris: ya... i love her...
boy: good... can u take good care of her for me pls...
chris: i tot u r doing a gd job?
boy: m gg somewhere... jus take care of her for me k... thanks...

he rote a letter for her...
on 13 june... which is her bd... he played a game with her... tt is to find the letter... he passed away on her bd... the letter rote:

dearest jessica,

you are the most beautiful person i ever met... with the most pure heart and a kind so... u will go all out to help ppl... that is how i got save... but now... you can't save me... but u gave me a wonderful memories... thank u so much.... i left the earth with no regrets.... thanks... really thanks.... may u live ur life to the fullest... m sorry i can't fulfil the promise i made... i can't accompany u to travel the world... i hope i can fulfil that in our next life....

love,
brooklyn

the girl cried... why u dun let me see u the last time... why... why u push me to other guy who i dun like... i will help u complete ur research i promise....the end...

haiz

so sian.. why is it so sian one? nice one... can't use liao... need to go aunt hse do pw??? haiz...

"wherever u r... wherever u go... i will be right here waiting for u... " this line... so touching... if only...

sian... go play a bit of game 1st den slp ba...

my mum tell me go slp... sian... haiz...

mid autum festival

wow... over le... mid autum festival... after i left sch... still didn't see him... i saw my friends-shang paul seow... outside lt4... having biz meetin ba... haha.... heard no open hse...
nice one... tue gt the smu thingy... dunno what... my whole day gone like that... no rest... haiz...

after leaving sch... went bugis with yc... eat teriyaki chicken... so full... saw a bunch of immatured children... haha... i think i ate v slow... haha... cos too full liao... haiz... keep eating these few days... haiz... esp after promos... let's see... immediately after promos... ate long john... den the next day ate the bee hoon.... den the next day... eat the chicken...

bought rebecca a necklace... haha... v funny thing happen... yc knocked onto the glass cupboard cos an assistence was opening the door... den i think she didn't see... dunno thinking of who... haha... she bamped.... there... her "balugu"... haha... haiz... he saw le sure will heartpain... haiz... thanks yc for accompanying me... haha... anyway i waited for her for 2hr leh in com lab... haiz...
in the train...me n yc discussing... i tell yc...
me: if u find a bf rite, same sch same cls... nt gd... diff sch not gd also cos later tt guy two timing u also dunno... same sch n diff cls the best...
yc: no wonder u like fabian...
i was like huh? nice link... get me clear... i dun like fabian... only friend... yapz...

went back home... den went granny hse... fireworks n latern... eat.... my mum's almond jelly... mooncake... chocolate cake... haiz... gain dunno how many kg... nice one... the choc cake abit bitter... china mooncake nt bad...but oily ar.. haha...

when boy boy need to change diper...
boy boy: ah ji bu yao kan wo hor! (means telling me not to peek at him)
so funny i was laughing lor...

when we are playing with candles and fire...
uncle was trying to play with boy boy... he throw him into the air and caught him...
Uncle: hao bu hao wan? hao bu hao wan? hao wan rite? ( mean fun or not fun?)
boy boy: bu hao wan...
uncle was lost for word... we was like smiling there la...
i murmured... nice one ar boy... haha....boy is so cool... so funny... haha...

glad tt necklace fit rebecca...

granny so sweet... haha...know i wan tt... haha...

noisy...so many kids around at the house... haiz... play shout scream... cry... complain... debate... baby language... haha...

happy ending... the 9pm show... haiz...

when m i gg to tidy my table... whole day nt at home... haiz... nice one...

food for thoughts: would u rather like a guy who make u xin tiao when u r with him... when u heard his name?? or the guy u feel comfortable to be with and u r happy when u r with him???

first time blogging in sch...

in com lab now... so sian... waiting for yc and stella to finish pw... haiz... got consultation in the morning... waking up early in the morning... dun say alr... have a bad morning...

went to buy something that my mum asked for... i asked the provision shop asistance, he say dun have... later my mum went to buy... she bought it... nice one... sian... spoilt my mood...

actually in the morn wanna go jogging one with mad paul n cam... planned alr ytd... haiz...

waste my time... waited in sch for like more than half an hour... cos someone is late... nice one... lucky desmond entertain me...haha... j2 i dun think gt sch today lor... den mayb he is nt in sch... haiz...

what's wrong with my wearing earrings? haiz... later got date ma... haha... but i think m gg to change the earring if can find a more suitable one...

better take care teik ling.... haiz... that someone nv take care of her properly... haha... need to complete pw by sun...mon gt meeting... me the healthy one in the grp... haha...

ytd... went kovan... ate that mee hoon v nice... haha... i told my mum... v nice got add milk one...so nice...next time bring her n granny go eat... haha... went ps... bought someone present... tml gg to do lor i think... walk here and there... raja came for awhile... we took neoprint... opps... can't wait to take tt neoprint n keep it in my collection...haha... gt one shop so cool... so creative... love it! but the things there too ex liao...

still need to buy my cousin bd... today she is celebrating... can't wait to eat mooncake... haha... wanna change blogskin...so many things to do...

later need to buy present and go granny hse...

tml need to do the present... go jogging... go teach ben... do pw... haiz... nice one... k... when can i tidy my table... in a mess... haiz...

so painful... y is it painful? haiz... when u r in a bad mood... still need to act u r happy... haiz... y? so that ppl won't ask " are u okay?" dun wan ppl to worry... haiz... sian... k la... think it is a long post.... cos to kill time one.... haha... =) see ya! =)

sian

really really sian... dislike the me i'm now... how could this happen to me? i tot... but i dunno love can be replace so easily... one moment u r heatbroken... den the other moment u r with another person...

does true love ever exit? maybe... but died off easily... can it last forever? i dunno... i wonder how many married couples really like each other... i have met... my granny... divorce two time... the 3rd one nt much better... quarrel blah blah blah... over time., love really faded? i dunno leh... haiz...

wanna change blogskin but no time... haiz... sian...

haiz

loving ppl is painful when the person dun like u...
being loved is also painful when the person is not whom u like...
so... being in loved with each other is hard... so teasure it... =)

haiz

wanted to change skin one... but ajust here and there still can't... too dumb with come alr... haiz... it is like that one... haiz.. change other time ba... sian... i change song... haha! =)

wah really really sian leh... keep thinking how to earn money.... cos m broke! need to buy so many bd presents! wanna y so many babies born at this month...nice one... haiz... should be happy gal... that means u have lots of friends to care for...

wah... seem like a really busy day tml... go out with beattians gang... den at nite go teach... nice one... tired myself out only... hee... but i think tml take my salary liao... can't wait... haha... gtta rmb to bring my aunt bag and the el stuff... gtta rmb.... oh... still gtta help my mum make the amond jelly... so busy....

friday... mid autum festival... the yam spoil liao lor... haiz... so wasted... can't wait! wanna eat mooncake and play with fire! haha! play with fire! why like this yr like past so fast... so wasted leh... my one yr... so wasted... haiz... nvm... next yr a lvl alr! jia u! =) gotta go early help my granny... ya... hope is nt yue bang yue mang...

sat... go teach ben... den should be free ba... oh need to teach an also? wonder yangzheng gt teaching or nt... haha... haiz...

sun- family day... swimming day... =) yeah! finally can go swimming le cos promos finish alr! wahaha! man... sun go swimming... alot of shuai ge one... hehe! =) maybe all the ah bei bei... haha.... diao... dotss...

plans for the rest of the year:
tidy my table
*Chinese a lvl! mus get Ace! =)
pw
work on creela if possible?
find work
earn money
play game
change hp
buy camera
prepare for next yr
go hols?
slack...
lose 5 kg by the end of this year
read books...
write stories?
watch tv
movies
guitar

seemed like wanted to do so many things... haha... but what i really want is... to learn piano... if only gt time... haiz... dun worry... will have chance! =)

yeah!

haiz... so sian... so sian.... so bored... y m i feeling so empty? dunno... my mum agreed to buy jay chou or stephanie sun ablum if i can promote... haha... i think i should get her buy jay chou one... den i buy stephanie sun one... haha... yi ju liang de... so happy for what... as if u can promote like that... haha... but dunno leh... haha... hope can promote lor... hee... =) hope can promote den can see the clone jy... haha... dotss... =)

feel like writing love or friendship leh... haha...but no inspiration alr... haiz... brain died... =) sian...

Promos over!

yeah! promos over le! so happy! haha... although today physics damn hard... but i dun care alr... so sian... hope i can promote lor... haiz.... just hope so... haiz.... sian.... k... all the best for the ppl who still gt exam!!! jia u! =) i think it is time to tidy my table... so messy... haha! =)

physics and econ

physics... lost 10 marks.... econ write till my hand very "sour"... dun wan to say more... feel like writing love story leh... long time nv write narrative and story le... haha... somehow gt the urge... my 1st love in the way dunno go way alr... haha... k la... v tired... see u! all the best for my chem and physics on wed and tt is it for promos! jia u! go go go! =) he wore red today... haha...

yeah

yeah! i found my moltivator( not a person an object!) muhaha... whole day so no mood to study... haiz... try to focus but... at night... see something.... haha... thanks dad and mum... haha... they dunno what happen anyway.... haha... muhaha... jia u! go go go! still gt one more day to Physics! jia u! =) all the best to me! yeah! =)

what a nice day ar?

hate myself for letting myself to make careless mistake again... wth? i mean really... m always a careful person( dun believe ask my friends who are close to me)... bloody hell... rarely make careless mistake in doing maths b4... now dunno what the hell wrong with me... this is the 3rd time alr... why do i allow such thing happened to me? some more that qns is mr poh set one... haiz... disappoint him... my 8 marks... i think i haven't been strict with myself? so that is why such thing happen? nice one...

chem didn't have time to finish cos there is no time for u to time... last half an hour i was still at q3... i still got 3 more qns to go... nice one... forget it ....... also alot dunno how to do... but i think maths is much better den chem i guess... every paper like fighting a battle like that... every battle drain my energy away... m so tired...

sleepless night... the whole night i didn't slp....... the most i slp 2h... i dunno why... too jin zhang le ba... thinking of formula... i hate memorising... haiz... i dunno why studying need memorising... is to test ur understanding for the topics... like that memorise, what do we understand? i also dun understand y i study chem... it is not as if i wanna become chemist what... although i got a passiion for chem since secondary sch... but i think the passion alr died... cos dunno... it is totally different... how i miss mrs singh...

i hope for the bettter........ for now i prepare for the worsst but still hopping i can promote... still gotta think positive... yeah! ya... at most i go poly or retain... even the sky falls on me m not afraid..... ya... jia u lor... come on... go go go! dun let down the pppl who have confidence on u! yeah! thanks for the ppl who encourage me... hehe... esp my mum( always complaining to her)... always make her worry for me... haiz... there is life... there is hope... i still believe in miricle and miricle is we make ourselves... with our own hands! =) go go go! =)

haiz

sian..... no matter how i study... it seemed like nth goes into my brain... haiz... so sad lor... i think my way of studying wrong... sian... i really hope i can pass my promos... please la... why like that... gggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! so angry and sad.... and stress.............. ggggggggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a way to destress............. nice one................ suddenly miss JJ so much... haha... haiz............. k nice one.............. dun wan to talk abt it liao............ haiz... everyone mugging............ me still slacking............. how to concentrate ??????????? mr boo: the word is "focus" den u can do everything........... ya.......... the thing is how??????? haiz........... sian.......... nice one.......... jia u lor......... sian........... =)

haiz

sian... nth gone well today... nvm... concentrate on the next 4 subjects! jia u! =)

haiz

my way of destress... blog and eat... haha... haiz... sian.... stressed= desserts... no wonder ppl will grow fat when they are stressed.... haha...

keep filling myself with positive thoughts... keep thinking tt what the future will be install for me... going oversea... travel around the world... having a big house with swimming pools and garden and garage with lots of cars and maybe motorcars( my dad dun allow me to bike, haiz... he said is dangerous) haiz... and library with lots of books... 1st place i wanna go is Spain! =) yeah... haha... so study and earn lots of money! then can travel around the world alr! jia u! go go go!

all the best ppl for promos! =)

sian

sian man... whole day stayed at home again... at home means eat and study lor... haiz... no wonder... haiz...

whole day... so waste time... study only one chem notes... sian man... then i only read thru the Science and tech gp notes... euthanisia and cloning... GM food... haven memorise leh... sian.... why GP need to memorise... i dun understand lor... no wonder need to memborise.... cos my GP always borderline one... haha... haiz.. today actually wanna wake up early do my eom one... but lazy de me... sleep till 9.30am... den slack.... sian lor... 5 more chem notes to go.... physics haven start yet lor... haiz... sian... maths? erm.... left memorise the formula... and graphing and differentiation ba... haha... =) not too sure also.. but did alot maths alr... hope can pass ba... yeah! must give mr poh a gd impression... he is leaving soon... so sad... haiz... such a great teacher....

econs... also haven start... maybe... read mkt failure can alr... haha... macro? erm... see gt time den read ba...haiz... what else? chinese and gp tml... scary... haiz... jia u! =) go go go! =)

no mood...

no mood... to study.... no mood to do eom... haiz... sian... no no no! can't think this way! go go go! jia u! haiz... feel so sad after seeing RQ's friendster... haiz... haha... nvm... time will heal the wound... "shi jian ke yi cong tan yi qie"... haha... dotss... he is my idol only la... tt time o lvl is jesse mccartney... his pic still above the com table... haha... look at him gt mood to study le at tt time... now no mood leh... haiz... thanks Louisa for giving me tt poster... haha... help me past the diff time in studying... haha! =) tt pic really moltivate to study lor at tt time... still tt pic dunno why feel better alr... haha... den continue study....

wah... eom still dunno how to do... feel tired liao... haiz... better go slp ba... tml den continue... buai... dun miss me... haiz... tml morning wake up early n do... yupz... tml study gp and chinese! go go go! =) not tml... is today.... after my sleep... haha! =) see u! =)

Promos

haha! jus read KKJ blog... post by RQ! i think this time the gig is he organise one... haha... but this time is 15 bucks leh... somemore at 15sep... my exam still haven finish... he gt say sp supporters... i wonder does he mean us... wahaha... recently he so enthus in blog... dunno why leh... haha... =) he is so shuai... haiz...

today ar... erm... not really production lor... sleep... eat... tired... haiz... now come online to do my eom... sian... haiz... how i wish m smart... although m smart alr la... but i wan a little bit more... haha! =) hee... m greedy... hee...

do maths... den read chem lor... left 6 more sets of chem to read... didn't study gp... sian... haiz... k la... i wish i can promote lor... that is all.... haha... =) for now... studies also on my mind... haha... but haiz... nvm... hee... =) go go go!!

after promos i wan go swimming! haiz... my new swim suit haven wear lor... sian... miss yangzheng pri sch tutees... haha... wish can go back teaching... haha... den they gt psle... ya... haha... =)

jia u all the ppl! jia u for promos! go go go! =) yeah!

Happy Birthday Soon Heng! =)

5 more days

Happy Birthday, Collin! =) stay shuai forever! anyway, i doubt he will read my blog... just to let li ming see... haha... i add a testi for him alr... haha... =)

haiz.... tired of my life.... but thinking the many disapponted faces i have to face after failing or retaining.... i have to move on... but can i take a break... i can feel myself really out of breath alr... haiz... tired...

but life has to go on... yar... no matter what the result is... i already tired my best... let my god decide for me.... he/she knows me the best... let me clearify... m not a christrian... m buddhist... i pray.... yap... no matter what the result is... i think i will learn lesson thru it... yap... for every step i move i learnt and changed.... used to be a mischief gal... i cheat... i lied... i steal... but now... a totally different person who put myself in other ppl's shoes.... bad memories are erased... good membories are always kept...

yeah... life has to move on... go go go! stay positive... u can do it! jia u lor! yeah! go go go! =) 5 more days... 4 more days...

Haiz

wah... just finish my i n r... tired... printing it now... after finishing it... just realise got sample... haiz... what the... haiz... den all my formating wrong... cos i copy from the layout one... den m so hungry now... cos didn't have dinner... should not have yan cheng told mum i had dinner... wah... nice one... nvm... sleepy... but still got physics and chem... sian... haiz...

oh man... miss my show... oh my... haiz... sad...

Sian

So sian... i stayed at home the whole day! micrale ar? sunday leh... i stayed at home to do hwk! what the hell lor... actually planned to go job with sham this morn... again... can't wake up... lala... how i wish can take out the sleepy and lazy genes in my body or not ar... so tired and sleepy although i slp for dunno how long...

woke up at 11am lor... den i continue sleeping till lunch... den i start to read gp lecture notes-sports... den after that do econ assignments... finally, just now do finish alr... yeah! =) den now i have to do my I&R which is due tml! and i dunno how to write man! sian... den i still got chem promos papers to do... and the physics tys mcq... nice one... haiz.... all due tml... how many more hours to go... haiz... sian... still haven start revision lor... sian... haiz... tired... how i wish... haha... nvm... go go go! =)

repeat after me pauline: I LOVE STUDYING! I LOVE MUGGING! MUGGING ROCKS! then u will wan to study le k... y always i online dun see u online... den u online i not online one... haiz... no fate... haiz... so sad... haha... jia u! go go go! =)

9 more days...

haha... i rather post a blog den to do my eom... really dunno how to edit... still gt I&R... and... what ar... chem also... econ also... physics also... how to finish in one day... haiz... stupid me... go do inequalities for what... but i finished alr... haha... hope ok lor... haiz...

today morn, went to sch for maths... AMK ger... pauline's clsmate... we like so cold no topic.. but... she is so blur... dunno the place and time for her bio... haha... she quite sweet... haha... i dunno her name leh... gtta ask pauline... haha...when i reached the fountain, my heartbeat suddenly skip a beat... dunno why... like the guy i like in sch like that... but no lor... haiz.... who is the guy tt look like tl? i wondered... haha... =)

went to tutor ben... wah.... he is really weak... ned lots of practise... fractions... and timestable... not tt shu... haiz.... and he is quite lazy also... haiz... if only he starts early, want me to tutor him earlier... maybe he would benefit more... for now, i learnt to be a more professional tutor alr... haha... i'm wanted to tutor yz students... haha... =)

ya... that is all for my day... yeah... kk... tml is a long time tt i need to rush... haiz...
I&R
chem promos papers
physics tys mcq
econs
eom
i hope i can finish these tml... den i hope i can start on my revision also... 9 more days... go go go! =)

Haiz...

Haiz... raining... why lao ren jia de words always so true... my mum told me to bring an umbrella.. might rain.... but i didn't cos i was angry at her for nagging at me the whole morning while i was preparing to go sch... now i have to walk in the rain to reach home... nvm... just hope won't fall ill... hee... exams are coming.... 10 more days.. scary...

haiz... today Hsin-Yi's bd today... nv reply me.... i so gd rmb her bd yet she nv rmb mine for the past 4yrs... haiz... nvm... Happy Birthday, Hsin-yi! =)

i have been lost in the forest for the last few months... now that i found my directions...but I'm too tired to move on... too tired... i just want to stay where I am... but I can't... i have to move to survive... I have... I tried to stay positive whenever I met with problems and ostractions... ya positive... as if it is very easy... but I survived anyway... test exam flunk all the way... i have become strong as I have learnt to think positive... I nv cried... i didn't cry...

I know u have high expectations for me... i know... but the higher it is... the more stressful and the more I wanna avoid... I'm afraid to bring u disappointment... i dun want to see the disappointment in ur face... when I did something right... i saw the joy in ur face... the glory that u wanna spread to others... you r proud of me... I know... but I'm afraid of bringing glory to u, as then I will have to move to higher level... but then... i have learnt... life has to move on... we can't stay stationary... no one is to wait for u... i know... i have learnt that afraid is natural... just be strong... and u can do it... thanks for the encouragements and hope and advice for me all these years... i know you are hurt when u see me suffer... but you can't do anything to help me... i know... just a little bit more and i survive my year... just a little more... i know i can... have to do it... but I think i alr reached my max... i have been lost in the forest for so long... i should go on since now i have found my way... just do ur best... the best is up to fate and my God to decide whether if m worth it or not...

jia you... go go go! =)

Sian

sian... tired... really tired... how i wish i can sleep a little longer every morning... sian... being woke up at 5am something is not what i really want k... haiz... force out of my bed... i slp at 1am every night... for dunno why.. time seemed to fly so fast... it had been 10 yrs since i knew him... haha.... ya... confused abt my love life... so dun ask... m confused...

slp my whole chinese lesson... chen lao shi woke me up twice... haiz... sorry... really tired.... although the passage seemed interesting... main thing learnt "focus"... mrs lim said de... went for her consultation... felt so demoralised... but i like her... cos she is straightforward... ya... and tell me what m wrong... thanks... i really do hope i can pass my gp as i depend on gp... haha... =)

sorry li ming... can't celebrate with u... love u always... =) we are not les... pls... Happy Birthday girl! =)

things to do now:
revision and clear all the tutorials...
be prepared for promos..
earn $?==> try to cancel as my mum says... haiz...

after promos:
help my cousins with their exam...
pw...
chinese "A" lvl!

during hols:
looking for a job?
prepared for a lvl

ytd zx and ss... hee... zx: i want to turn u into thumbellia and put u into my pocket and take u to US with me...
SS: i want to change u into scarf to wrap around my neck so that you can't go anywhere else....
i like this part where they hug... haha... so sweet and romantic... the third time when zx broke the date.... he looked so shuai with his hair down.. yeah! =)

11 more days to promos... go go go... tml staying for night study i guess... den... er... what i wanna say ar? can't rmb... nvm... told u i got stm... haiz... nvm... go back to my gp paper alr... go go go... =)

Haiz...

Tired... and tired... and sleepy... not thinking much just wanna promote... haey! go go go! =)

J8

Yeah! feel so great... cos... hee... went to J8... haha... =) with yc pc wh stella and shirley in the morning... hee... didn't see shuai ge... nvm, my task for tt time not to see shuai ge la... haha... anyway, i not concentrating on seeing shuai ge... haha... =) task completed... great... but didn't take neoprint... hope got next time... hee... =)

physics... haha... we entertained ourselves so that cls won't be tt dry... haha... ring... so funny.... muhahaha... haha... i think yc will read... u know rite??? muhaha... =) monday rmb to bring hor... =) with card inside... need plastic bag ma? hee...

after cls... gave present to LK....
Happy 17th Birthday, Lun Kuang!
the way he took the present from wh is so funny... haha... =)
after one week... i think i missed my cls alot... haha... =) hope we all can promote to J2 tgt! jia u! go go go! =)

den at night i went to the cc near my hse to do my hwk... i done gp summaries alr... yeah... 2qns on econs... erm... ok la... quite productive? haha... dunno... 17 more days to promos i think if m not wrong... jia u lor! yeah! =)

go go go! =)

My Thursday

Crazy bro... he can touch the celling... he was happy like mad(not madeline) alr... haiz... k...
tired... and not productive... sian...

today went sch... had pair study with tl... nt productive one lor... haiz... gp after that... had a heart attract... really spoilt my mood... not that my mood v gd... haiz... fail my gp lor... what else... what more can be more worst? failing my promos? touch wood... haiz.. now even my last bet is gone...

after gp... went doing the maths again... i love maths... but doing the qns not getting ans and not knowing how to do make me fed up with myself... so demoralised... haiz... did the MI... so many qns dunno... jus skip lor.. what else can i do... still got econs lor... way way way behind my scheldue and gt gp hwK!!! oh my tian... hiaz...

i dun think i really like him... maybe just other short crush... haha... k show start... buai... tml still gt sch... jia u for me... hee.... =)

Hee...

yoz... hee... erm... ya... my love life... how i wish i have the courage as well( a reply to yc)... pauline once say that i dunno how to handle my love relationship or something like that.... well... kind of agree i guess... haha...

i hurt a guy once... a few days ago i think i saw him... but... i dun dare to say hi... he was my pri sch fren.... a guy who bullies me... who took my seat... who put my hair... who critised what i eat... who disturb me... he pissed me off... irriated me... haiz... den finally... i scold him a dog... "hao gou bu dan lu"===> a gd dog dun block the way... i saw the hurt in his eyes... tears almost fall alr... i wanted to apologise... but being the stubborn and with lots of pride one... i walked off... i felt so guilty after that... we nv talk after that... haiz... from tt day onwards... i nv say tt phrase again to anyone... or nv used it....

thereafter... lots of crushes here and there... then finally... psle... i broke off from my many crushes... sec sch... crushes here and there again... but... there is one particular guy... hurt me man... dun wan to talk abt it... haiz... those who are gd pals in sec sch should know... hee... he is such a jerk... how in the world will i fall for him in the 1st place... bad taste... sian... vulgar... rude... not a gentleman... haiz... come to think of it... he is not that shuai as i used to think he is... haha...

now in jc... erm.... kind of true that the horoscope say that my two years will have guys around me... ya... of cos gt guys around me la... 14 guys and 9 gals... 1st time ever that i entered a cls with more guys then girls... haiz... now that i have no mood to think about my love life alr la... promos la... ai yo... i like my cls... fun loving.... haha... esp with my frenz around... what else could be more fun then that... but i do hope that everyone could be truthful to one another.... =) 0617 rocks! =)

man... m addicted to blogging alr... haha... how i wish i have a cam... mum still blame me for losing the camera... m sorry... truthfully... still saving for it man... but i hope i can get a hp with cam... haha... den i can take photos wherever i wan.... cos... memories are short term... photos are long term... haha... erm... ya... oh ya... www.ephraim.blogspot.com .... a blog by minister... do check out... haha...

heard from mum... she read from newspaper... a snake in Malaysia... ate a dead goat, who got killed by a car... a big fat goat... man... den the snake was damn full... can't move... and kanna catch... what is the lesson learnt? dun be greedy... and dun eat too much when u dun have such a big stomach... u will end up suffering... maybe gt fat or dietable( duno how to spell)... high cholestrol... blah blah...

went study at tp lib today... 2nd floor... pauline came joined me after that... done apgp and summation with lots of circles and blanks... haha... know what i mean rite... ya... lots of qns dunno how to do... not really productive... den come home only watch tv... haiz... behind scheldue!!!! haiz... still have lots to catch up!!! oh my tian... !!! haiz...

zhen xian so shuai.. the korean show... <> ... so cute... funny... haha... zx so shuai... so sweet... so caring... somemore... rich... smart... a perfect guy... haha.. but in reality got such guy or not? hee... dunno... still searching... haha...

k la... crap so much alr... really addicted to blogging... sodoku now v HOT ar... not bad... set my brain to think... gotta go pack bag le... buai... hee... =)

My day

my day... my day... haiz... doing tutorials...grp study... at bishan... with sham, lou and paul... completed chem tutorials... oh ya... tired... haiz... gtta slp early today...
stop teasing me with desmond alr... cos i dun like him and he dun like me... tt is final... i dun understand y guys n gals can't have pure friendship? i think can... i believe can... haha... =)

i hate smoking... dun understand y ppl smoke... i dun blame them for being addicted to smoking... but y do they have to smoke in the first place??? haiz... 1st it stinks.... 2nd unhealthy... 3rd pollute the environment... haiz...

oh man... m behind scheldue... doing wk too slow alr... haiz...
feel so sad after reading my fren's blog... i can't say who i guess... haha... i hope she will forget abt the past... what;s done is done... can't undo it... just threasure what u have now... yes, i treasure what i have now... as i think m v fortunate to have frens and family that really care abt me... haha... sorry guys for always complaining n being late... haiz... mayb my resolutions for next yr is not to be late again... haha... n eye washing guys is one of my fav pastime... haha... sorry for that if i comment too much on guys... haha... =) but for now... i think RQ, JY, JJ, and him most shuai one ba... my dad also not bad in my heart...not forgeting my bro as well...haha... =)

k la... guess... tml group study again? as my bro bringing frenz home again... n i can't stay home to concentrate on my studies... promos is very important to me... sorry for the ppl who i have no time to care for... will compensate after my promos... provided i can get promoted... m sure i can as i have put my best! =) hope nth cropped up during the promos ba... haha... =)

i think my like for him not that strong ba... if so, y m not thinking of him ar... while yc kept thinking hers... haha... a few days ago, i told myself to have courage to love... but for now, i think i will have to put that aside... as promos is much more important for anything else... all the best for all jc1 for promos and jc2 for a lvls exams... for sec sch ppl who r taking o lvl... jia u! =)

Hee

wah... long time nv blog alr... broke record... haha.... kk.. start with what ar...
friday... is teacher's day rite? ya.. i went group study with pauline, lou, sham... i saw mr chan at tp lib... ya... DC... direct current... haha... =) we went mac as lib no place alr... came too late... thanks dc for ur offer... haha... den we stayed at mac... like not productive... but nvm... haiz... watched a show while me n sham walking... "sorry, teacher" by li ping... so touching... i cried in public... oh my!!! so embarrassing... the guy dunno own or the assistance kept looking at me lor... haiz... the teacher died in the end cos she met with accident when she tried to save her student... also she gt liver cancer... i predict she died la... cos i think they gt cut some parts...

saturday... what i did ar... can't rmb... stm again... i think i slept all day if m not wrong... hee... so my sat is slack one...

sunday... busy... morning... group study... only do the maths lecture corrections... afternoon... go temple with my family... pray for my promos and stuffs... hee... den shop at orchard lor... bought necklaces... hee... some details... cut cut cut... haha... =)
den go granny's hse... durians... yummy... so qiao... lucky they haven ate finish... haha... =) hee... left one fruit... not bad ar... hee... nice... =) den boy boy is so gd today... so cute... he called me "ah ji"==> means sis... haha... so cute... gt dimple somemore... bonus... haha... grow up sure is a shuai guy... haha...
dinner... eat out... duck rice... at jin shan leng... not bad la... although m nt tt hungry... i like the soup... hee...
granny gave me a pink hello kitty bag... although m nt v fond of pink color... but the bag is nt bad... nice... useful alr... although striking... haha... i used it ytd....

monday...
moring... went tp lib to study... wah... a table also need to snatch... haiz... sorry desmond and sham for not booking a seat... cos... really can't... haiz... quite productive i guess... finished motion in circle tutorial... a few qns i dunno lor... haha... =) eletrode 1 left one qns... haiz... dun feel like doing...make a fren call Deviana... sweet... cute... cheerful... =)
went jogging in the rain with sham... completed 4 rounds... too bad no shuai ges... lucky dun have... see me in this state... they ran away... haha... =)

bad news...
CAIRNS, Australia - Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and conservationist known as the "Crocodile Hunter," was killed Monday by a stingray while filming off the Great Barrier Reef. He was 44.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060904/ap_on_en_tv/obit_irwin
sad... daring, and interesting... informative shows dun have alr... haiz... talent and daring guy...

KKJ

Yoz guys... gotta check this out...

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Happy Teacher's Day

Happy Teacher's Day to all the teachers who had taught me b4... haha... my JCs teachers.... mr poh... chen lao shi( didn't see him today so i didn't wish him... haiz)... this year i was like blur blur smoke thru my life like that...

Aces day... do the dance so funny...today the performance v nice... haha... great! teachers singing so great! oh my! so sweet! =)

mr foo performed! so shuai! haha! getting too high... too shuai alr... haha... den that huang lao shi walked past, i tell yc and shouted her name... so evil of us... she blushed... no choice... she is too shy today... haiz... too high alr... hahaha.... =) thanks tl for ur twisty... hee...

den... went back to sec sch... see so many faces... changed so much... haha... =) ms tuan still the same... still so pretty and young and sweet... and friendly... and thin... haiz... haha... =) mrs singh not in sch... haiz... so sad... she went on course... best chem teacher ever... yah... mr chan still as blur as ever.... still wear the "child-like" tee... haha... so cute... haha... =) mrs hairedess... chen lao shi... still so sweet... wear pink... haha... still so modern... haha.... =) my best chinese teacher ever... haha... chen mei li also there... haha... still so pretty... haha... mrs lu... mr amos... didn't see ms james... hmm... sad... saw mr thumb... get alot of new teachers... haha... tt is good... mr boo is looking good...

after that we went to eat... act wanna eat pizzas... but full of ppl... haha... so we go fork and spoon... talk... hui yi looking good... dark... she joined kick boxing... haha... mircle... haha... 9 gals...fingers... nazeeya, kat, sl, susanna... den hui yi went home... pauline also... later me also... cos m really tired... fell asleep waiting for lousia(almost)... haha... =)

den watched halfway the legally blonde... cos fell asleep watching halfway.... haha... =)
catch this... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DbJROd3wNsU

Social worker?

i think i can be consellor alr... have been hearing probz from my friends... but can't say i dun want to hear... i mean really... ppl alr so sad alr.. den u say, " can u stop it? i dun wan to hear it!" i think it is rude... but nvm... social worker... maybe typical pieces... hearing frenz' prob affect me so much... oh man... how i wish... i had studied pshychology... so interesting... maybe i should and i have... promos... been distracted so much... oh my... gtta start study and focus alr... haiz... haiz... see how ba... today biz gt pinic...haiz... tired... really need to focus... dun let these things affect u k... jia u! go go go! =)

hee

dunno what to write... just feeling confused over something... haha.... finally the Gp project work is over! great job guys! oh yeah! =)
confused confused... everytime i see him, i feel sad lor... sian... how come?
wonder y yc likes him lor... so evil... haiz... tell him ba yc... haiz... stop torturing yourself alr... haha... =)

Man

Life sux... everything sux... i jus wan myself back to normal... the cheerful and happy me... sorry mum for worrying for me... sorry everyone tt has worried for me... sorry everyone who i had disappointed... sorry for the hurtful things i had said or not not done... sorry for not being a gd fren... i just want my life back to normal... i mean... this is not me... i just want myself back... if i have to achieve this... if i have to hurt anyone... m sorry... sorry for being selfish... i just want my life back... n m gg to mug like hell... which i have not been doing... i really admire muggers... agree with pauline... dunno where they can get the energy... from the solar panar ar... haha... lame... k la... 28 more days to go... if m not wrong... n i have been slacking for so many days alr... slack... so many hwk not done... gtta do! hurry! =)

Hee... complain queen! =)

i think i have become complain queen alr... haha! =) complain all abt my sch wk... promos... 29 more days ba i guess... haha... =)
although i have been sleeping for the past two days i still feel very sleepy... haiz... tired also... that is why i didn't go see him lor on sat... so sad... m really tired... can't even get up from my sofa... sleepy... oh man... but now ok la... still tired and gt headache... haha... but still gt lots of stffs to do... gp and eom...just finish editting wr... nice one... jia u! =)
sorry es for cutting off the phone short cos my phone bill will get v high one... haha...
yc u can call me to crap abt him... although m v busy la... but frens are more important, more important den bf?? nt like yc so zhong se qing you... haiz... tell him ba... =) haha! =)
man, i can't go teach tution again tml.. cos tml gt gp! what the... haiz... den should i stay for night study? i dunno... things are gtting so cramped up! haiz... 3 wks alr... i didn't go teach tution... mum asked me to stop since i gt no time to cope alr... haiz... ya... time... hw i wish m a robbot... den i no need to sleep.... even robbot need rest girl... haiz... really girl, things will get better... just wish that everything will get well soon and... my promos... now that i know who is in his heart... need time to heal i guess... haha... rq gt gf alr... heard from li ming.... is it a gd thing that i didn't go on sat to tpc? so that i won't see rq and the girl? i dunno... haiz... nvm la... time will heal my wounds de... haha... cos m cold hearted one... haiz... all the best girl! =)
gogogo! =)

oh my!

tired and more tired of my life... oh man... tired... study and so many hwk! and so many things to study... 30 more days to promos...
ytd was a terrible day... took back maths paper in the morning... feel like killing myself for copying wrong qns... nice one.... not one but 2 qns wrongly... so u can see i failed terribly... nice one... haiz... so unlucky huh? took back physics paper... fail also... gt study also fail... nice one... took back gp paper... failed again... need consultation... haiz... see... one day 3 heart attrack... haiz... nice one... terrible and tired... stayed for night study... do 8 qns of differentation... slept in i-space...
congrats the two love birds.... haha...
thanks all my friends for caring for me... m fine man... haha... =) i'm strong and tough... won't die or faint so easily... haha! =)
thanks for letting me know who is really in ur heart... i understand...
now i gotta chiong chiong chiong for promos... but like you xin wu li like that... haha... gotta jia u! stay strong and happy always girl...
a word of advice to yc that i code from Mrs Lim: dun let anyone control u, have control over urself... tell him k? jia u lor! =)
everybody jia u for promos! =)

tons of things...

oh my tian... haiz... so many stuffs! gotta do powerpioint thingy for gp... gotta do gp hwk... gotta count the surveys... oh my tian... haiz... kk... nvm... jia u lor... haiz... hee.... go go go! =) haiz... tired and busy... erm... man, my ming yu sweeping floor alr today... what else can be more wrong... cls and guitar, my mingyu... oh my.... haiz... no reputation alr... haiz... my life... kk better go do my work alr... but i really want to slack leh... how? haiz... jia u ! =) hehe! =)

Tired of life...

tired tired! sian... tired... lots of stuffs on hand... that i wanna clear all at once... haiz... tired... tutorial vectors... been doing it for very long alr... but still unclear and trying to figure out the problems... haiz... so tired... gp project wk... revision has to be done! cos no time!!! how many days left??? 32 days!!! oh my tian... haiz... pw also... homework also so much... everyday come home alr so tired and late... oh my tian... as if m a machine like that... haiz... biz proposal also... now dec gt a camp... haha... 6 to 8 dec... one more person... wanna who will wanna join... yups... for testimonal and cash... wahaha... =) jia u for promos! =)

gogogo!

haha! i think i have past the most productive weekend... why? let me see... sat morn... i go teach yzps kid... hee... den i go pair study with pauline... guess what? i finished the maths tutorial 10! yeah man... den evening i went aunt's hse for nong nong's bd party... gt potato salad... yummy... chocolate cake... muhaha... =) gt doggie also call bobby... haha... kids are so adorable... love them.... so ke ai! =) that is how i past my sat...
sunday... went pair study with shang... did the thermal tutorial... yeah man... haha... not bad huh? i still left... econs tutorial wksh5 n maths t8c.... n what ar? study econ test.... do the pw wksh which i dun feel like doing... study spa which i dun feel like studying also... haiz... feel so lazy now... haiz... haha... just took a nap... tired... haiz... kk... go back to my econ alr... dun slack alr... haha! working hard n smart towards promo! way to go! jia u! yeah! =)

Promo coming

ytd went night study with yc... haha... like v time consuming... but nvm... at least gt do some wk... haha... at home is watch tv one... that jin shan shun... v nice... haha... jia u lor... 37 days more to promo... go go go... i gotta mug like i nv mug b4... u can do it de! jia u! go go go! =)

Maths test...

tml gt maths test...and GP test... today physics test die alr.. haiz... really gotta study hard alr! jia u! 39 more days to promos! =) jia u! hee! =)

Promo

40 days to promos! jia u! go go go! haiz... still gt gp and maths hwk... tml gt Chem SPA and physics test! fri gt maths and gp test! nice one... sian... haiz... jia u lor! yeah! =) i finally know who is tt person alr... haha... yeah... and m rite... yeah! jia u lor! haha! =)

LoVe

Love is not a toy... not for u to play and joke about... pls be serious about it... hope they know it.... haiz...
going to see him i mean them soon??? next sat... i hope so... yeah! =) tired... will endure... 41 days to promos... jia u... may lady luck will be with me... yeah... not late for sch ytd... haha... =) hee... go go go! =)

My life

My life consists of so many things and so many ppl...
- my friends...
-my family...
-my school work--worry on how to promote, how to buck up my scores...
-tutoring
-an's tutoring
-Biz Club
-Guitar
-KKJ
-Interact Club? i still miss it leh...
-Beatty... i still miss this sch... no matter how big the chances is...
Worries:
-Promoting.... haiz...

Life is so much pain...

Headache headache and more headache... haiz...

Strategy

I shall not complain abt my sch wk.
why?
cos m fortunate to be able to have an education.
yes. many want an education but due to some reasons...
many envious other ppl for what they have.
but why can't they realise that they are also v fortunate n xin fu?
ya... so i have come out with...
DOs n DON'T!
1) sleep early
2) no online for me unless nesscessary
3) no going out unless nesscessary but kkj performance???
4) no tv???
5) revise!!!
6) tys!!!
7) tutorials!!!
8) listen attentively!!! no snoring in lectures!!! haha!!!
9) drink enough water everyday
man... gotta do it! will i? perverservance... determination... blah blah blah... haiz... jus do it... nike... haha... kk... gotta do it! yeah! buai! =)

Tutoring

Muhaha... today was a ... erm... tiring and headache day at yangzheng pri sch i guess... when i was walking up the stairs... i alr heard noises... i thought... why so noisy? is it the tutoring cls? i looked in... unfamilar faces... 3 guys and 1 girl... and many kids... really nosiy... running around and playing a fool... talking... man... so messy...
we tried to shut them up by giving them homework... haha... but that did not really work... keith and kai yang got came... haha... felt so sorry for keith as i can't tutor him alone today... oh man... i didn't get the wksh he did... he said he wanted me to mark... i wonder did he take it back? i only gt vanessa and kai yang ones... oh man... nice one... where did i put it? or he took it back? haiz...
although it was really tiring... it was like having a battle... but it was quite fun... haha... in a world of innocent kids... what more to think of, rite? haha... i dunno... i felt that... no bordery... no more stress... i just feel relax... so weird... haha...
man... i did the work energy power... sian... i struck at q3... sian... sian... i really dun feel like doing hwk... do hwk can... but ... it is like u do alr den dunno... den dun feel like doing alr... ok... gotta try to do... really need to buck up... pull up my socks alr... or else i can't even promote... haiz... jia u lor! =)

Feeling pain...

Why am i always the one suffering in silence? why do i miss u so much? this is so painful... i tried my best to keep myself busy... but does nt seem to be working... i will try harder... i believe i can do... i know i do... yes i do... i will live my new life again! yes! =)

My dream...

I believe in refining... so matter how bad it is... i still believe there is hope... and i will do it till my last breath... no matter how bad is the diamond... it still have its value... i think i will be the one to increase its value... hee... i will do my best... i believe i can... may u will help me too... =)

Tickle test...

Sam, your flavor is Groovy Grapefruit
With a laidback style and anything-goes outlook, your groove is mellow yellow. People enjoy hanging out with you for your calming vibe and unique perspective on life. That's probably because you aren't one to let everyday stress get you down. In fact, your pals would say they've rarely seen your feathers ruffled. But as much as you enjoy the company of your compadres, you're just as happy to spend time solo. Why follow the crowd when you can chill down your own path?
Chances are, traditional success has never been a huge priority for you. With your groovy outlook, we'd guess you're more interested in the journey than the destination. This type of thoughtfulness extends beyond your inner circle to the world at large. Whether lending a helping hand to others or getting the word out about social causes, your caring nature is punctuated with a zing that never fails to get people's attention.

Nation Day to Malaysia

Man... i missed it... haiz... ya... i went to Malaysia during National Day... haha... =) went with my uncle aunt mum 2 cousins... bro can't go cos his passport overdue alr... sad man... haha...
went to find the place they ate last time where they think it is nice... it is near the sea... den the 1st place where we were heading is the rite... but we jus missed it... so we wasted one hr going round the region to find that place... haha... in life is like tt... i think it is ok... cos den we would be able to rmb the road and rmb the memories tt we had in the car trying to find the place den we will have common topic... haha...
haha... that place is really desserted... but the thing is near the sea... kumpong like... haha... man... what's the name of the restoran? i forget... haha... blur sotong... food... erm... is ok... cos it is nt the restoran they ate last time... is the one beside it... haha... but nvm... memories will last forever... the houses there are really nice... on construction... maybe next time we go, the houses alr finished.... haha.... so nice lor... haha... =) we saw horses on the way too! =)
after that we went to perling mall near the seafood restoran one... to shop... i think is uncle fren is wking there... hairdresser... den she hire a guy... that guy kept staring at me... i know m pretty... no need to stare at me this way! haiz... i bought 2 pairs of slippers n one nike shoe... n one bag... billabong de... haha... i regretted not buying tt bag... haiz... tt billabong bag... i should have buy it... haiz... nvm...
after shopping, uncle want to eat again i was like what... ur digestion real quick... we went to ... what is the restoran again? i forget again... haha... i kept preventing uncle from ordering too much... haha... after that we bought durians! my fav! =) and mangos! yummy! =) guavas... haha... rambutans... haha... =) den we went home... tired...
Happy Belated National Day! =)

National Day Eve

Haha... nice day... walk so long... doing CIP... blah blah blah... zi high... zi entertain.... haha... =) great one... go Little India... where the memories will last... haha... =) den went back to sch for performance by Indonesia frenx... thanks guys.... haha... gt one guy playing piano and one guy singing... oh man... the guy sings so well... haha... almost touches my head... i say almost... haha...den we sang singapore songs- Home and Stand Up For Singapore! =) after that went out to eat with cls... haha... at the nearby coffee shop... so full man! haha....
den i met louisa and fren at J8 to catch a movie... The Lake House... nice movie tt will nv happened in real life... haiz... the rite time the rite guy... so fantasy... haiz... but jus for entertainment... i think it is ok... haha... the girl saved the guy... will two diff timing person meet? cos there is no diff timing... haha... 2004... 2006... haha... nice one... i jus feel tt the house v nice... haha... cos the house make out of glass! =) my dream house... some more near the water... so cool! they commuicate thru writting... thru a mailbox near the lake hse... so cool... haha... but den again... due to my tiressness or what so ever... fell asleep on some parts... some parts too boring... i think... but.... quite a nice story line... interesting... haha... kk... tired... going bathe... buai... =) happy national day eve! =)

National Day Eve

Haha... since it's national day... so what's up? haha... i took the last train last night... cos i was at auntie's house.... haha... doing arts for her daughter for today national celerabation... i dun feel like sleeping man... cos when i'm done... she seemed so happy... haha... nice one... although nt v nice... i mean the craftwork... it had been long since i did my arts... i rmb when i was in pri sch it was aunt who help me do my art piece... now it was my turn to repay back... haha... diao... tml... haha... dunno... sound like fun i guess and i hope... go go go! jia you! =)

Neoprint taken! after seeing KKJ! =)

Miserable week is over!

This week is really tough man.... haiz... monday... gt physics tutorial but i didn't do... why i didn't do... i forget the reason alr... tuesday.. got econ test... i crap all my way thru...i didn't study... cos no time... gotta tutor my cousin... haiz... tired.. wednesday... erm.. went up to take cert... afternoon gt biz... tired... got maths test also... sian... the 4 marks qns i dunno hw to do... sian... thurs... gt chinese compo test... warm and tired we do the test... nice one...haiz... and gt chem test and restart and got guitar... tired and lack of slp... friday spa and gp paper 1... finally it is all over.... gotta rest a while and wk for next week! jia u...
things needed to do for next week:
study chem test which is on monday
Physics tutorial forces
chem tutorial kinetic equalism
GP skill package 2
Lucky next week is a slacking week... cos gt 3 days of hols... it is national day! yeah! hehe! =)

KKJ

Photos taken at IMM! KKJ rocks! =)

Tickle test result...

Sam, your strongest sense is Humor

Always good for a laugh — that's most likely how friends describe you. With your quick wit, you can easily bring a welcome smile to someone's face or lighten a situation with some much-needed comic relief. You've got an ability to laugh at yourself and help others not take things too seriously. Your instincts tell you that nothing does a body good quite like a hearty laugh. That's why having fun is your number one priority when it comes to parties, vacations, and even the daily grind. Injecting a little humor into each day keeps you and everyone around you smiling. Nice job!

Tired

Could I just lay on ur shoulder for 5 more min... how i wish... i could see ur face... but i couldn't... i could not see ur face... could not lay on ur shoulder... cos when i woke up, it is all gone... u r just a dream... a fanstasy... not reality... but u seemed so real... why is this so? i really dun understand... i just hope i dun see u again in my dream... cos my heart will ache when i woke up...
Now i understand y guys r not perfect... cos only guys in dreams is perfect... i suddenly saw all the ugly side of guys... stingy, pretty, not sensitive, nt caring, not gentleman.... but my dad is the best... although he is nt perfect... but still he is caring... dun smoke... dun drink... care abt the family... responsible...
i really lack of sleep alr... take the result slip... i really feel like dying... i dunno hw to show it to my mum... haiz... hw wonderful... hw i wish... genui will come n save me... haha... too fantasy alr... m a imagative gal ba.... cos of my horoscope i guess... cos m a typical "piecesian"...
pe tired... maths okay... econs lect slacking and day dreaming...econ test crap all the way... hope can crap some marks lor.... haiz...
i dunno y i not in the mood to anything... told u i dun like this week alr... haiz... oh sunday... haha... let talk abt sunday to cheer me up...
Sunday...
woke up... excited... dressed up... hee... ok la... put little make up only ok... earrings n necklace... meet sham n liming... go to IMM... excited.. luckly didn't miss their performance... haha... KKJ u rocks! and got their signatures! =) but RQ didn't talk to us... but he waved gd bye to me... =) wahaha... colin is so nice! =) haha... oh man... i can really feel myself brushing i guess... now i understand y the fans go so crazy over their idols alr... haha... used to think tt they are crazy, they r only humans jus like us y go crazy over them... nth better else to do is it... but nw... no more... cos the feeling is totally different... when u like them... u will support them all the way...hehe...
after tt we went to National lib in Bugis to study... but really no mood and got chased out cos anyhow sat on the floor... then we went to take neoprint at Bugis junction... shopping... took a great deal of effort persuading liming to take... haha.... but not bad la... i have been obsessed with taking np alr... haha...
Moday....
Man... yc... go spread my rumours... but it is not true... so dun even bother abt it... haha... dun worry... cheers! =)
Today(Tuesday)
Hope YC is okay.... haiz... dun bother over stupid comments... guys r childish... okay some guys r childish... i can't generalise... cos... u know... gp.... haiz... n hope she dun b so pms also... haha... stop beating me also... haiz... Now i know tt our principal is so sweet... so friendly... haha... suddenly changed my opinions on him... hee... dun feel heartbroken over wrong guys... haiz... oh... np... if gt time den put up... haha... i hope next wk can come soon... cos gt 3 days of slacking day... =) hee... man... dunno how to show my result slip to mum... later she screams at me... man... what an unlucky day... haiz... no wonder my heart feel so weird... haiz... better go back to my study alr... buai...