Stop all this at once!!! Stop lying to me... stop stop stop... I dunno why I began to worry about my money problems.... not that I dun worry in the past.. but this problem getting more and more closer to me and it is not getting out of my brain... I really tired... is it because of all the walking and going out that I was exhausted... or the money that made me exhausted...
I need money.... money for my monthly stupid thingy... money for my future... my university fees... I'm thinking of getting of scholarhip but looking at my result... you think I can get it... fat hope... money for the house... I don't want to say it... but my parents say they have money for the house... ya rite... as if... as to calm me down, just to make me less worry... not working... I'm not a small kid anymore... stop lying to me... I know from your worried and stressed expression, I know the truth right away... stop saying it is the adult business... Am I even part of the family? Am I? I know you don't want to make me worry, I know. but I don't know... I really don't know what to do sometimes...
the only thing I feel calm now and easy is uncle ah peng... I dunno... I can feel easy and calm with him... I can really be myself... I don't need to hide myself... I don't know why... don't ask me... he treats me like his granddaughter...
I don't why I recently feel a strong repulsion towards my homework... It had became mount everest already... and I'm still have no mood in clearng it... when work has to be done, it has to be done... you can do it! jia u! go go go! =)
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