Haiz

Mad asked me to update, but I'm way too lazy to update... but anyway... today is Christmas! So..

Merry Christmas Everyone! =)

hee... update you more on my life... anyway, i wrote these crap also nobody will read, just for the fun of it... Mad will be reading I guess, and I think Wan Hui ba... you know that Wan Hui secretly reads my blog one, so my, so cunning... but she reads once in a while, so she might not read this post one... haha...

okay, went to Malaysia this Saturday, see my grandfather (father side) and other relatives... as normal... haiz... just heard abit bad things about daughter-in-law thingy... as close one ear and one eye... i dunno anything... haiz... does females always like gossipping? i dunno... if I dun like that person, I will straight away show it, I won't put on a fake smile... just because I'm a straightforward person, I like means I like, I don't like I would say it I won't say "oh, it is nice."when the fact is that it is terribly horrible... I know people will bu shuang me, but do I care? I don't. People say I have to change my attitude, but I don't find anything wrong with it. I don't understand why people like fake things so much? Isn't it the truth is better? is it because the truth is always ugly de?

See so many things I wanted to buy... but what is the use? like the accesseries, haiz... so ex... they say me spending money like water... do I?maybe... because I bought another bag again... my desired bag... hee... yap, get scolding from mum... letting people seeing the spendthrift of me... I dun understand... haiz... I normally not the materialistic girl, when did I like to spend money so much? haiz... dunno how to earn money, then spend so much money already. that is really bad. being poor is not a sine, but being poor and spending lots of money is a sine... haiz... man, I have to save up my university fees... and my 1st year still not there lor... and no hope in getting a car liscense already... so ex... why everything is so expensive... people see me the way I spend money, must be thinking, I need a partner who knows how to earn lots of money for me to spend and must know how to be thrifty... haha... why girls like to be on diet? I really don't understand as well. When there is food. you eat, maybe eat sufficient so that you won't get gastric. I'm pretty fortunate as I have food to eat, clothes to wear... why people don't eat when there is food and when there people out there seeking for food source... is it being skinny is good? Is being skinny is all beauty? I think having the right figure can already... have the what is that call? BMI... yap, right BMI can already... even you are above the number, just eat less and exercise more, there is no need to diet, oh please. and in the mean time, just hide the part that you want to hide. thanks auntie for the noodles, really nice... haha... =) she is a real cook man, she is the 1st great cook, my mum is second... oppss... haha... if I have money, I can invest in her lor... she had really great brain but simply lack of the opportunity and the right people and many other factors...

next week school reopen. and I don't want that day to come... so many things to do within this week... there is homework to be done and I merely quarter finish... I'm in died meat... still have math, econ, GP, physics.... I didn't touch my homework as you can see... nvm about that... I'm already half dead... I simply didn't learn my lesson... who do I blame in the end? All is my own fault... I dunno why I changed so much in terms of my character and attitude... is it good or bad?

I always want freedom... I also dunno why I have choosen the path to JC... do I made the right choice? I always ponder on this qns... but what is the use now? I already on my way to second year and is going to take my "A" level soon and very soon... To tell the truth, I don't know what is coming for me and I simply don't feel right about it... All I know is that, I wanted to go University. That is my goal since I was young... Maybe that is why I have choosen JC instead of poly. Why am I keep thinking about unnecessary stuffs? sian... going to temple then go shop... gotta control these time... because these time is in orchard, the stuffs are way to ex... haiz... still got my debts and fees... and all the best to my hwk as well... haha... see ya then! =)