Sick in the head

I really think I'm sick in the head... who the hell where got people play games late at night and till 5am some more... so late! what the hell! really sick in the head... no wonder... games can addict... Is it the same as drug addiction? or maybe much worst...

woke up 9am this morning... 4hours of sleep... really made me a zombie... you know why I woke up so early? you may ask 9am is early ar? haha... on monday, which is yesterday, I still till 12pm because nobody woke me up. today my mum woke me up because my grandma's leg pain... so I gotta bring my cousin,boy boy, to school... gotta rush man... haiz... didn't even have time to wear my contact lens... nvm about that...

when we reached the community centre, boy boy cried... I have no tissue... what the hell... I was scared... haiz... maybe h worried about popo...haiz... An old uncle, if I'm not wrong, I think he is mad's grandpa... mad, if you are reading this, do give me a reply if I'm right if he is your grandpa... he gave me a tissue... haha... thanks! =) thanks to those who console him... thanks the teacher who can calm him down... i left to buy myself breakfast... and some sweet for him... the way back home was a rather calm one... he was happy... maybe he enjoyed the lesson. or maybe of the sweet i bought him... he drew a christmas tree as well... haha... he is way too aborable already...

the fear inside me appeared when I hear no response in popo's house. We knocked and shouted... I really fear... I was screaming inside... I tried not to think of it... I don't want it to happen... not at this point... I really don't want it to happen... I really don't... I was scared... what if... I called the house... finally got response... that was the point, I felt safe... maybe for a while, that I know popo is safe... =) I asked her to go and see a doctor... but she insisted that she was okay already... so stubborn... grandpa came back home... he asked me to leave since boy boy wanted to take afternoon nap liao... I was tired too... I fell asleep on the sofa...

On my way home, the bag I like still there... shall I buy it... maybe they are waiting for me to buy.... maybe next time... I don't know... I passed by S&K... Saw a pretty fair guy, average height, wearing nike shoe... wore a white spect... maybe that is the guy that yc saw... my taste not that bad one... not one of the 3 guys i saw that day.. haha... =)

A boy approahed me for donation... selling a pen(50cent can buy alr) for $5... i was like huh? Not that I don't want to help but how much of this donation really goes to the needy... I went to such a company to work before... and I really hate it... We were given like 10percent comission or more... if we sold more, we get to celebrate and party... what kind of joke... If we want to help people, we do it voluntery and not like this... I think it is better to approach the needy ourselves than through someone esle... you never know how much of the money donated really goes to them or goes to the pocket of the company... knowing that it was a pit... I still went in... I don't know why? Maybe I just don't know how to say no to people... haiz... I have to learn to say no... even if I know it is a pit I still went in... just to make the person guilty, just to make the person came to sense in the nick of time... but I was too silly to believe that... even till now... I was way too silly... that is my weakness... I don't know how to say no to the ones who approached me for help... is it good or bad? I don't know... people say I'm kind... but sometimes, I think I'm too silly... because like this people will take advantages of your weaknesses... but maybe that is my character... I rather give than to accept... haiz... I don't know why... I think I really sick in the head already...

sick in the head... real tired... My homework still didn't touch... I can't find the concentration to do hwk at home... I will sleep when I opened my notes or book... haha... sleepy head...