haiz

loving ppl is painful when the person dun like u...
being loved is also painful when the person is not whom u like...
so... being in loved with each other is hard... so teasure it... =)

haiz

wanted to change skin one... but ajust here and there still can't... too dumb with come alr... haiz... it is like that one... haiz.. change other time ba... sian... i change song... haha! =)

wah really really sian leh... keep thinking how to earn money.... cos m broke! need to buy so many bd presents! wanna y so many babies born at this month...nice one... haiz... should be happy gal... that means u have lots of friends to care for...

wah... seem like a really busy day tml... go out with beattians gang... den at nite go teach... nice one... tired myself out only... hee... but i think tml take my salary liao... can't wait... haha... gtta rmb to bring my aunt bag and the el stuff... gtta rmb.... oh... still gtta help my mum make the amond jelly... so busy....

friday... mid autum festival... the yam spoil liao lor... haiz... so wasted... can't wait! wanna eat mooncake and play with fire! haha! play with fire! why like this yr like past so fast... so wasted leh... my one yr... so wasted... haiz... nvm... next yr a lvl alr! jia u! =) gotta go early help my granny... ya... hope is nt yue bang yue mang...

sat... go teach ben... den should be free ba... oh need to teach an also? wonder yangzheng gt teaching or nt... haha... haiz...

sun- family day... swimming day... =) yeah! finally can go swimming le cos promos finish alr! wahaha! man... sun go swimming... alot of shuai ge one... hehe! =) maybe all the ah bei bei... haha.... diao... dotss...

plans for the rest of the year:
tidy my table
*Chinese a lvl! mus get Ace! =)
pw
work on creela if possible?
find work
earn money
play game
change hp
buy camera
prepare for next yr
go hols?
slack...
lose 5 kg by the end of this year
read books...
write stories?
watch tv
movies
guitar

seemed like wanted to do so many things... haha... but what i really want is... to learn piano... if only gt time... haiz... dun worry... will have chance! =)

yeah!

haiz... so sian... so sian.... so bored... y m i feeling so empty? dunno... my mum agreed to buy jay chou or stephanie sun ablum if i can promote... haha... i think i should get her buy jay chou one... den i buy stephanie sun one... haha... yi ju liang de... so happy for what... as if u can promote like that... haha... but dunno leh... haha... hope can promote lor... hee... =) hope can promote den can see the clone jy... haha... dotss... =)

feel like writing love or friendship leh... haha...but no inspiration alr... haiz... brain died... =) sian...

Promos over!

yeah! promos over le! so happy! haha... although today physics damn hard... but i dun care alr... so sian... hope i can promote lor... haiz.... just hope so... haiz.... sian.... k... all the best for the ppl who still gt exam!!! jia u! =) i think it is time to tidy my table... so messy... haha! =)

physics and econ

physics... lost 10 marks.... econ write till my hand very "sour"... dun wan to say more... feel like writing love story leh... long time nv write narrative and story le... haha... somehow gt the urge... my 1st love in the way dunno go way alr... haha... k la... v tired... see u! all the best for my chem and physics on wed and tt is it for promos! jia u! go go go! =) he wore red today... haha...

yeah

yeah! i found my moltivator( not a person an object!) muhaha... whole day so no mood to study... haiz... try to focus but... at night... see something.... haha... thanks dad and mum... haha... they dunno what happen anyway.... haha... muhaha... jia u! go go go! still gt one more day to Physics! jia u! =) all the best to me! yeah! =)

what a nice day ar?

hate myself for letting myself to make careless mistake again... wth? i mean really... m always a careful person( dun believe ask my friends who are close to me)... bloody hell... rarely make careless mistake in doing maths b4... now dunno what the hell wrong with me... this is the 3rd time alr... why do i allow such thing happened to me? some more that qns is mr poh set one... haiz... disappoint him... my 8 marks... i think i haven't been strict with myself? so that is why such thing happen? nice one...

chem didn't have time to finish cos there is no time for u to time... last half an hour i was still at q3... i still got 3 more qns to go... nice one... forget it ....... also alot dunno how to do... but i think maths is much better den chem i guess... every paper like fighting a battle like that... every battle drain my energy away... m so tired...

sleepless night... the whole night i didn't slp....... the most i slp 2h... i dunno why... too jin zhang le ba... thinking of formula... i hate memorising... haiz... i dunno why studying need memorising... is to test ur understanding for the topics... like that memorise, what do we understand? i also dun understand y i study chem... it is not as if i wanna become chemist what... although i got a passiion for chem since secondary sch... but i think the passion alr died... cos dunno... it is totally different... how i miss mrs singh...

i hope for the bettter........ for now i prepare for the worsst but still hopping i can promote... still gotta think positive... yeah! ya... at most i go poly or retain... even the sky falls on me m not afraid..... ya... jia u lor... come on... go go go! dun let down the pppl who have confidence on u! yeah! thanks for the ppl who encourage me... hehe... esp my mum( always complaining to her)... always make her worry for me... haiz... there is life... there is hope... i still believe in miricle and miricle is we make ourselves... with our own hands! =) go go go! =)

haiz

sian..... no matter how i study... it seemed like nth goes into my brain... haiz... so sad lor... i think my way of studying wrong... sian... i really hope i can pass my promos... please la... why like that... gggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! so angry and sad.... and stress.............. ggggggggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a way to destress............. nice one................ suddenly miss JJ so much... haha... haiz............. k nice one.............. dun wan to talk abt it liao............ haiz... everyone mugging............ me still slacking............. how to concentrate ??????????? mr boo: the word is "focus" den u can do everything........... ya.......... the thing is how??????? haiz........... sian.......... nice one.......... jia u lor......... sian........... =)

haiz

sian... nth gone well today... nvm... concentrate on the next 4 subjects! jia u! =)

haiz

my way of destress... blog and eat... haha... haiz... sian.... stressed= desserts... no wonder ppl will grow fat when they are stressed.... haha...

keep filling myself with positive thoughts... keep thinking tt what the future will be install for me... going oversea... travel around the world... having a big house with swimming pools and garden and garage with lots of cars and maybe motorcars( my dad dun allow me to bike, haiz... he said is dangerous) haiz... and library with lots of books... 1st place i wanna go is Spain! =) yeah... haha... so study and earn lots of money! then can travel around the world alr! jia u! go go go!

all the best ppl for promos! =)

sian

sian man... whole day stayed at home again... at home means eat and study lor... haiz... no wonder... haiz...

whole day... so waste time... study only one chem notes... sian man... then i only read thru the Science and tech gp notes... euthanisia and cloning... GM food... haven memorise leh... sian.... why GP need to memorise... i dun understand lor... no wonder need to memborise.... cos my GP always borderline one... haha... haiz.. today actually wanna wake up early do my eom one... but lazy de me... sleep till 9.30am... den slack.... sian lor... 5 more chem notes to go.... physics haven start yet lor... haiz... sian... maths? erm.... left memorise the formula... and graphing and differentiation ba... haha... =) not too sure also.. but did alot maths alr... hope can pass ba... yeah! must give mr poh a gd impression... he is leaving soon... so sad... haiz... such a great teacher....

econs... also haven start... maybe... read mkt failure can alr... haha... macro? erm... see gt time den read ba...haiz... what else? chinese and gp tml... scary... haiz... jia u! =) go go go! =)

no mood...

no mood... to study.... no mood to do eom... haiz... sian... no no no! can't think this way! go go go! jia u! haiz... feel so sad after seeing RQ's friendster... haiz... haha... nvm... time will heal the wound... "shi jian ke yi cong tan yi qie"... haha... dotss... he is my idol only la... tt time o lvl is jesse mccartney... his pic still above the com table... haha... look at him gt mood to study le at tt time... now no mood leh... haiz... thanks Louisa for giving me tt poster... haha... help me past the diff time in studying... haha! =) tt pic really moltivate to study lor at tt time... still tt pic dunno why feel better alr... haha... den continue study....

wah... eom still dunno how to do... feel tired liao... haiz... better go slp ba... tml den continue... buai... dun miss me... haiz... tml morning wake up early n do... yupz... tml study gp and chinese! go go go! =) not tml... is today.... after my sleep... haha! =) see u! =)

Promos

haha! jus read KKJ blog... post by RQ! i think this time the gig is he organise one... haha... but this time is 15 bucks leh... somemore at 15sep... my exam still haven finish... he gt say sp supporters... i wonder does he mean us... wahaha... recently he so enthus in blog... dunno why leh... haha... =) he is so shuai... haiz...

today ar... erm... not really production lor... sleep... eat... tired... haiz... now come online to do my eom... sian... haiz... how i wish m smart... although m smart alr la... but i wan a little bit more... haha! =) hee... m greedy... hee...

do maths... den read chem lor... left 6 more sets of chem to read... didn't study gp... sian... haiz... k la... i wish i can promote lor... that is all.... haha... =) for now... studies also on my mind... haha... but haiz... nvm... hee... =) go go go!!

after promos i wan go swimming! haiz... my new swim suit haven wear lor... sian... miss yangzheng pri sch tutees... haha... wish can go back teaching... haha... den they gt psle... ya... haha... =)

jia u all the ppl! jia u for promos! go go go! =) yeah!

Happy Birthday Soon Heng! =)

5 more days

Happy Birthday, Collin! =) stay shuai forever! anyway, i doubt he will read my blog... just to let li ming see... haha... i add a testi for him alr... haha... =)

haiz.... tired of my life.... but thinking the many disapponted faces i have to face after failing or retaining.... i have to move on... but can i take a break... i can feel myself really out of breath alr... haiz... tired...

but life has to go on... yar... no matter what the result is... i already tired my best... let my god decide for me.... he/she knows me the best... let me clearify... m not a christrian... m buddhist... i pray.... yap... no matter what the result is... i think i will learn lesson thru it... yap... for every step i move i learnt and changed.... used to be a mischief gal... i cheat... i lied... i steal... but now... a totally different person who put myself in other ppl's shoes.... bad memories are erased... good membories are always kept...

yeah... life has to move on... go go go! stay positive... u can do it! jia u lor! yeah! go go go! =) 5 more days... 4 more days...

Haiz

wah... just finish my i n r... tired... printing it now... after finishing it... just realise got sample... haiz... what the... haiz... den all my formating wrong... cos i copy from the layout one... den m so hungry now... cos didn't have dinner... should not have yan cheng told mum i had dinner... wah... nice one... nvm... sleepy... but still got physics and chem... sian... haiz...

oh man... miss my show... oh my... haiz... sad...

Sian

So sian... i stayed at home the whole day! micrale ar? sunday leh... i stayed at home to do hwk! what the hell lor... actually planned to go job with sham this morn... again... can't wake up... lala... how i wish can take out the sleepy and lazy genes in my body or not ar... so tired and sleepy although i slp for dunno how long...

woke up at 11am lor... den i continue sleeping till lunch... den i start to read gp lecture notes-sports... den after that do econ assignments... finally, just now do finish alr... yeah! =) den now i have to do my I&R which is due tml! and i dunno how to write man! sian... den i still got chem promos papers to do... and the physics tys mcq... nice one... haiz.... all due tml... how many more hours to go... haiz... sian... still haven start revision lor... sian... haiz... tired... how i wish... haha... nvm... go go go! =)

repeat after me pauline: I LOVE STUDYING! I LOVE MUGGING! MUGGING ROCKS! then u will wan to study le k... y always i online dun see u online... den u online i not online one... haiz... no fate... haiz... so sad... haha... jia u! go go go! =)

9 more days...

haha... i rather post a blog den to do my eom... really dunno how to edit... still gt I&R... and... what ar... chem also... econ also... physics also... how to finish in one day... haiz... stupid me... go do inequalities for what... but i finished alr... haha... hope ok lor... haiz...

today morn, went to sch for maths... AMK ger... pauline's clsmate... we like so cold no topic.. but... she is so blur... dunno the place and time for her bio... haha... she quite sweet... haha... i dunno her name leh... gtta ask pauline... haha...when i reached the fountain, my heartbeat suddenly skip a beat... dunno why... like the guy i like in sch like that... but no lor... haiz.... who is the guy tt look like tl? i wondered... haha... =)

went to tutor ben... wah.... he is really weak... ned lots of practise... fractions... and timestable... not tt shu... haiz.... and he is quite lazy also... haiz... if only he starts early, want me to tutor him earlier... maybe he would benefit more... for now, i learnt to be a more professional tutor alr... haha... i'm wanted to tutor yz students... haha... =)

ya... that is all for my day... yeah... kk... tml is a long time tt i need to rush... haiz...
I&R
chem promos papers
physics tys mcq
econs
eom
i hope i can finish these tml... den i hope i can start on my revision also... 9 more days... go go go! =)

Haiz...

Haiz... raining... why lao ren jia de words always so true... my mum told me to bring an umbrella.. might rain.... but i didn't cos i was angry at her for nagging at me the whole morning while i was preparing to go sch... now i have to walk in the rain to reach home... nvm... just hope won't fall ill... hee... exams are coming.... 10 more days.. scary...

haiz... today Hsin-Yi's bd today... nv reply me.... i so gd rmb her bd yet she nv rmb mine for the past 4yrs... haiz... nvm... Happy Birthday, Hsin-yi! =)

i have been lost in the forest for the last few months... now that i found my directions...but I'm too tired to move on... too tired... i just want to stay where I am... but I can't... i have to move to survive... I have... I tried to stay positive whenever I met with problems and ostractions... ya positive... as if it is very easy... but I survived anyway... test exam flunk all the way... i have become strong as I have learnt to think positive... I nv cried... i didn't cry...

I know u have high expectations for me... i know... but the higher it is... the more stressful and the more I wanna avoid... I'm afraid to bring u disappointment... i dun want to see the disappointment in ur face... when I did something right... i saw the joy in ur face... the glory that u wanna spread to others... you r proud of me... I know... but I'm afraid of bringing glory to u, as then I will have to move to higher level... but then... i have learnt... life has to move on... we can't stay stationary... no one is to wait for u... i know... i have learnt that afraid is natural... just be strong... and u can do it... thanks for the encouragements and hope and advice for me all these years... i know you are hurt when u see me suffer... but you can't do anything to help me... i know... just a little bit more and i survive my year... just a little more... i know i can... have to do it... but I think i alr reached my max... i have been lost in the forest for so long... i should go on since now i have found my way... just do ur best... the best is up to fate and my God to decide whether if m worth it or not...

jia you... go go go! =)