Group study

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XdguyMJprsA
hey hey hey... go this web... quite funny... the Indian man so ke ai... haha... Lousia told me this link de... haha...

today got group study with Shang n Lou... not v productive dunno is me or is the place.... but I think the main reason is me... my mind keeps playing on me... I ended up making a few times of careless mistakes in my physics... nice one... haiz... how I wish...

I eventually didn't tell Lou abt tt thing tt is on my mind all the time... because her result is really bad alr, just dun wan her to worry about me... haiz... shang got h3 maths exam coming, also dun wan to worry her... pauline, haiz... rarely see her nowadays... pauline n I used to talk so much... dunno y we got so much to say also... haha... cos everytime we got pair study, we ended up talking, so tt is why I v scared to study with her... result is that we won't be studying but talking... haha....

a few days ago, I told my pri sch mate, tian rong abt the thing on my mind... but only told part of the story... haiz... actually, is wish her happy birthday de... but haha... ended up talking abt my problem... thanks tian rong for giving the advise... althought it was an unexpected result... tian rong has a really tough character... she missed one year of studies due to her health... but she still hold on strong... pei fu... haha... =)

today group study keep bullying shang's rosy red cheeks... haha... cos of the heat i think today... den lou kept asking her to drink water... as u know shang dun like to drink water de... haiz... really scared tt she would fall ill...

really emotionally unstable so need to destress myself...

I got a story in mind... but not does not have a complete story line... wait till I think of the storyline 1st den I write ba... ok... see ya... =)

=)

Sports Carnival

Just saw bong video... wah... so soft... and more than one min of crapping still haven't get to the point... I kind of fed up le... so I didn't watech le... nice one huh?

I felt that wo yue lei yue bu liao jie ni le... or I didn't know u at all... or this is the real u? I dunno.... shouldn't good frenz talk abt problems out... but I dun say my guy problem out to Fingers one... cos my tt clique simply dun understand... when they grow up and learn to know what is crash or like or love den I shall tell them ba... haha... sham keeps telling me to wk hard n stop thinking abt guys... haha... ya... I know... sham, U wk hard too! 3 more months U can go study le... glad tt u choosen a Singapore school so that I won't miss u too much for 4 years... so mushy.... think she won't be reading my blog... cos she is the type of girl who like to talk things... she is direct... ya... that is the way... like her direct character...

me? also quite direct... but not so direct sometimes... I remember the time I not so direct... when I was passing by a shoe shop... an auntie asked me which pair of shoe is nice... to my opinion, I think both pairs of shoe are not really nice... but U know what I said? I said I dunno... wah... den think abt it... m not tt direct after all... but she is a stranger and the shopkeeper is nearby... do I really need to say the truth? when the shan yi de huan yan is better... rite? u see, the auntie can buy a pair of shoe then the shopkeer can earn money... rite? is tt yi gu liang de( kill two birds with one stone)? haha... lame.... I am direct with my fren... if I dun like it means I dun like it... dun force me... ya... and I'm stubborn... tt one sham would know... cos one time, she begged me for more than an hour to eat, cos she dun wan me to see her eat... I still didn't eat... haha... ok... nice one...

U wanna know what the real me? the girl who got wide range of emo I guess... one min can be v sad then one min den b v happy... ya... tt's me... haha... den the girl who is always on the look out for shuai ge... ya... what sham says... eye washing guys... yeah...

ok... not in the good mood even b4 the ytd night talk... kanna scolded... dun wanna talk abt it... felt so sick of my life... y is it our time has to be spent all on studying? ok whatever, A lvl is important... well, I guess some things have to xi shen... haiz... just simply hate the feelings I have now... cos... i dunno... maybe I should talk to lou later.... she is the girl who is happy go lucky... trustable! =) like me... haha... =) my mum is so stressed up after the talk... n the xi shen zhe is me lor... haiz... but when came back, my bro also kanna scolded... cos he playing com games the whole day...

today is carnival... thanks yimin's dad for giving us a ride... and sorry guys for using a black face...really not in the good mood although trying to force it away... but ya... like what fingers say b4, U happy, ur face would show it, u sad ur face also would show it... nice one... whatever... but I got improve k... boo... miss my sec school time... where there is still time to slack... jc life so suck... life stress... and ppl there seemed so weird... just can't understand... haiz...a simple me, just want a simple but exciting life...

my shuai ge wore my fav no... wahaha... dragonboat was fun... =) but my left hand v "sour"... and ya... nvm... shall not say... haha...

okay... whatever... meeting lou later... =) so tired... headache... tons of hwk... see ya later... =)

Sam signing off... =)

boring

today life is rather boring... well, except for the part I saw J, jun yang n my shuai ge... haha... ok... I failed my econ... but I think I can do better... if I have enough time... ya... need to plan my time properly next time...

garfield quite nice... he is not tt shuai ba... maybe see him in cls so see till sian le... haha... opps... if this sentence let yc see it... she will kill me...

sian... gp... nice one... stuck at it for 3hours... so time wasting... if only... I used to like gp lect de... but today lect is rather dry... nothing interesting... sian... k...gotta go back to my gp le... see ya...

=)

Slacking

Feel so tired... had been listening to radio these two days till 1am... cos ma li till one am ma... really dun feel like starting Econs... real tired... haha... just slacking la...

Just thinking

Firstly, wanna apologise to Fingers... for the things I did and did not do... haha... just realised how important u all r in my heart... haha... so mushy... because in times of problems or emotional unstable, dunno why, one of the fingers would actually appear and as if said hold on! hold on! ... just hold on tight, the problems or suffering would go thru eventually...

2ndly, my mum is sick... hope she gets well soon... part of the reason is me I guess... the look in her eyes... I can't reveal the truth of my block test to her... I have no courage to do... but eventually, I have to say...

3rd... HAPPY BIRTHDAY to SHIRLEY! =)

4th... thanks biz club exco for my birthday present! =) I like tt present cos it is blue n it is related to sea n sky n ya... fish... how I wish i could swim freely like a fish in the ocean... freedom...

okay... shall end here.... getting late le... see ya... ! =)

Slacking Day

Nice one... I didn't sleep the whole night just to tidy up my table... just to find that not enough ring files to keep my papers... nice one... whatever... did practicially nothing today... okay... nothing to talk about... see u! =)

Bored day

Really bored... actually wanted to tidy my table but my laziness conquer over me... nice one... I fell asleep once again for three hours... it was already 5pm something when I woke up... so I dun even bother about tidying and watched my tv already... then I slacked through my whole day... talking to wh.... haha... lying on the bed and talk and slack... what a great day huh?

actually wanted to change a new blog skin. kind of tired of the old one... but search here and there... while there is actually a few that are quite nice but not really my liking... so just add to fav see got other choices then made a decision... haha... ok... dunno why so many ppl read my blog... the story nice rite? kind of touch my it when i was last min reading the physics notes and listening to the radio... haiz...

now I shall upload some photos...


This is the video I took when my cls or rather half of the cls helped me to celebrate my birthday. Thanks guys! =)


This is the video at the KFC... ya we went there after cls outing at the Singapore History Museum... haha... everyone stunning... nice one... except tl...this is a non audio video... so dun think ur speaker is spoiled or smth...


my 2nd bd cake with my family... haha... =)


my vandalisation on my Physics tys... do till I crazy le... so need some distractions...


another vandalisation... this is done after I saw Shang's sms... the invitation of Fingers' Outing.... the part that I feel sad... ya... if u have been reading my later post... u know what I mean... shall not talk further....


the necklace given by my cls...


the band... performing at lt4 during cca bazzaar...


Simple hormontic motion... with no dampion... haha...


the admission ticket to Singapore History museum...


the stairs to the history or to the future???


the window of the past...

that is all.... I think sch life would be boring in the next term... cos no event coming up... well except for the major project for the biz club... okay... that is all... see u! =)

Love

Wanted to share a story that I heard it over the radio one morning, a few hours b4 Phyics test... heard this story... I modified a few parts of it...

There is this blur, nerd looking but had a handsome face guy, thought he was late for registration into the Uni... so he ran very fast so by the time he reached his destination, he was drenched... and he was looking lost and feeling very stressed- up... but then when he saw this girl in the queue, all his feeling seemed to have calm down, he knew he was the girl for her... he fell in love in first sight... the girl finishes her registration, saw this guy seemed lost so being helpful, went to ask if he needed any help...

So from that on, they become friends... very very good friends... when the girl went to join the band, the guy follows. The girl plays violin while the guy would play piano... whenever she is in need of help, he would definately be there for her to help her to protect her... they would talk anything under the sun, their relationship seem to the other friends is more then just a friend...

The girl knows his intention of her... but they were such good friends... she cóuld not imagine what it would be like if they were a couple... she just wanted things this way...

finally, 4 years had passed...they were going to graducate from Uni already... the day before their graducation day, the girl told him that she is going oversea for further studies...

when she was away from homeland, he and she did write and talk over the phone...

One day, she was getting married, but the groom is not him...On the day of wedding, he did not know if he could stand the pain of seeing her being with another guy... but he told himself to go for her wedding, because she needs him... On the wedding dinner, they talked so much like it was in their old school days... he saw her smiling broadly throughout the dinner...

one year had gone...she seemed to think that her marriage is a mistake... she began to think why would she fall for such a lazy and good for nothing guy... she is a carreer minded person, she worked hard in her carreer and gain some popularity in the sociey... her relationship with her husband seemed to have worsen so finally, she announced that she wanted a divorce...

after the divorce, she concentrated more on her work and become more successful...

One day, he called her and wanted a meet up... they talked everything under the sun just like the old times...

guy: I'm getting married next week ( He passed her his wedding card.)
girl(feeling depressed but managed to reply and tried to act as normal as possible): oh. really? then your partner must be really a great girl...
guy: indeed she is, let me tell u a story...

"Once, there is a guy who was rushing for his Uni resistation as he thought he was getting late for it and at this resistation, he saw a girl he loved and that changed his life completely. He wanted to protect her and stay by her side every minute to keep her company.

After 4 years, he decided to tell her that he loves her on the day of their graducation. But the sad thing is, the girl told her that she is leaving for further studies. He respects her decision. He tried hard to keep her company because he knows a girl being away from home is very lonely, so he will listen to every problem over the phone about her school work and life. But she wrote to him that she has a boyfriend and tell him how good he is. That was the worst 4 years of his life...

On the day of her wedding, she forced him to say some blessings for her. She dragged him to the stage. Looking at the pool of people staring at him and his heart really don't feel like giving a blessing. He is embarrassed and desparated. He did not get out of bed for one month since that day.

He decided to apply for course overseas through his job. He thought he could get over her this way. But he was wrong... He kept thinking of her and he used work to stop him thinking about her. Thus, his health was weaken... Then, there is this lady, named Alice came into his life. She took care of him when he was sick, he listened to his problems, she moltivated him, she encouraged him, she was by his side to help with everything she could do. He was truly deeply touched.

Then, they decided to get married. Even then, he knew he haven't forget her. The girl he truly love. The girl should have known how the guy's feelings for her. But she seemed unmoved. The guy is tired and wanted to settle his life down. He decided to put the past down and start a new beginning with Alice, a life that he is happy in..."

She knew he told him all these because he wanted to make a clear end between him and her relationship. She was utterly upset.

Because she always thought a girl should be woo by a guy, and recieve flowers from them... and she thought they should take the initive. and she thought he is not a guy for her, he is not a romantic guy.

but she is wrong, since the day she met him. He seemed to her is a four-eyed guy but had a pair of inspiring eyes and a handsome face with great body. She is always happy when she is around with him... and she longed him to say "I LOVE U" to her. She didn't know that she had already fell for him... she didn't know that girls could take the initive as well... now, she regretted... it was all her fault... there is nothing she could do... she had hurt him too deeply...

Block Test is OVER! =)

Wanted to upload a post yesterday. then when I finished posting my photos and all that stuff and wanted to upload, got error... so press back, wah nice one, it is all gone... my one night of effort trying to load the photos to com... sian diao...

whatever... I had a great time after exam... despite that the physics test is really hard.. practically forget my formula alr... plus garfield kept walking pass to stress me... nice one... whatever... hopefully can pass... haha... =) his standard for me is just to pass only... so I hope I can pass... haha...

went to eat long John again as suggested by YC... actually I had no comments for fast food, because I dunno ... dun really like fast food... fast food to me is like convience food lor... fav food still is mum's cook de food... haha... =) same clsmate clique expect tt pc went with her fren... den ya... the guys- sh, wj, alvin, es and gk came in... dunno y they stalk us... haha... jkjk...

anyway... some thing happened... nvm... had fun... haha... really... we separated after lunch... then yc, wh n me went walk walk then watch movie... "I'm a cyblog, but that's ok"the main actor is RAIN... haha... =) but he dun look shuai with that hairstyle... anyway, it is not really a nice show... as in dun really have a storyline, no purpose, no learning point... just watch for the fun of it... so it is like ya... for laugher... quite funny... 2.3/5 for this show... yap...

so next... after the show, dunno why the two girls every sentence need to mention ks... haiz.. esp yc... yap, then after the show rite, the BEST got show the Initial D movie... Jay so shuai! =) den saw mad n cam... walk walk... den feel sian alr... went to AMK hub... went to mac slack... then wh left... then so talk with yc... the longest talk ever since last yr I guess... ya...... n only on one to one basis... ya... that is my character... I can only open up my feelings on only one to one basis I guess...

what sh said make me think... he said something like we should not act, like putting a mask like that, just act like yourself... I was just wondering, do u really know yourself in some cases? not that I dun agree with him, but in some situation, there are things not within your control... just like... when you are giving a speech to quite a number of ppl, you are scared, but you have to act like it is nothing at all, you have to suppress that scare feelings... get what I mean?

whatever it is... really had a great talk with yc... thanks girl... but I really hope things would change for the better! =)

ya... today went out with Fingers... met Lou at AMK station... we went to AMK hub eat lunch... den walk and talk abt our JC life and what happened in our sch n stuffs like tt n Lou tells me a ghost story... kind of nice... SILK... den meet Shang... went to Mac to slack... den went to Orchard... went for a movie at Cathy Cineleisure... STOMP THE YARD... not bad... it is about street dancing... at the beinging, two gangs "ga wu" for money... den one gang win, the other gang bu shuang(not happy)... went to fight the other gang... one person died... the rest ran away... only one guy, tt is dati stayed because it is his "brother"... dati was jailed... because his lawyer said his name wrong or something...can't catch tt part... then, he was sent to a Uni... he promised his mum to try to work hard... he also will try to filful his brother's dream, that is to graducate in Uni... then he saw this girl at the resistation and fell in love with her at 1st sight... who knows, she is somebody elses girl and she is the principal's daughter... her relationship with that guy is actually being matchmake by her dad... and tt guy is a jerk... a complete jerk... there are two dance club in the school... one is TNT which is an organic... it is explosive... and I think it is kind of cool to have tt name... the other club is wolf i think and the president of the club is the girl's boyfriend... and in the middle of story, dati went to join TNT... wolf had a record of 7 consective years champion in a well known dance competition... dati was trying to get close to that girl and they fell for each other... ya... then because of his background, her dad tried to break... and the guy was kind of being suspended... what is the ending? well... go watch for yourself... I think it has a great storyline... nice nice... 3.5/5 for this... worth watching... =)

next meet pauline... den have dinner... at Café Cartel... I think the guy who served us quite cute looking...he gave me tt sweet smile... den dunno why later he went to become cashier alr.... we crap for a while... talk about sch work... because 3 of us is nanyang one so Lou most of the time like being left out... so what we talking she doesn't understand... then Hui Yi didn't come... so not a complete hand.... ya... shang asked me who is the guy whom mad n me fall for... then pauline said that my taste had improve... what? tl not that bad after all... just that I dun like his character... and tt time I guess I didn't fall for him too hard ba... maybe I can't put down the feeling for tt guy 10 years ago.... even then, I was just wondering had I really forget him.... anyway, ya, able to get myself back after one year after tt incident...didn't know tt was tt rude... for now, I think I put down the feeling of tt guy from 10 years ago le... he is or rather he was just a childhood membories... girl u are 18 alr! grow up! =) and for now... I only told one person about my secret... yap... and ya... just stay as it is... cos... I was want to tou tou watch him... for now, just want to concentrate on my studies... then, I said I dun like J, he is just an eye candy... then pauline said that I won't fall deep... it is kind of hurting... because... nvm... dun feel like saying...

I dunno how to say... but I feel something is wrong... is it only me? ppl whom u think are close frenz may not really as close as u think it is... frenz for more than 5 years... can I say that... I don't really know u all well... or do I say... U dun really know me much as well... what is my fav no? I kind of surprise they didn't know... but nvm... maybe they forget... but why do I feel so upset?

sometimes i was thinking... am I acting happy in front of others when inside I was deeply hurt... why do I need to act anyway? why should I act?

anyway... tml task is to tidy up my study table which is in a messy state... had been procastinate for two days le... so tml need to tidy up and recharge... sat do econ... den sunday go out with family and have fun and clear all my thoughts... ya.. settled...

ok... see u! =)

Birthday

It had been one week since I blog... break record... ]

My birthday...
nice one... what a sweet 18... me and my books... block test coming...
and I'm 18... so old already... oh my....

thanks for the present and the birthday celebration...ytd... to my cls...
my 1st birthday cake of the year.... maybe today might have with my family...
I think Ks was kind of ps when he gave me the present and I kind of ps as well... in the middle of the lt... haiz... real ps... It is a long story... haiz.. I think I got myself in trouble after the newspaper collection thingy and put ks in trouble also... so sorry... haiz... me n ks really not match... haiz... and ya, sh wished me... his hand is cold de... kind of freeze me...
sorry yc for the trouble... when she bought the present for me... the present is great... it is a necklace...

b4 yc and lk n kit went to buy present for me, yc asked me what present i wanted... I think it is kind of weird qns... nvm abt tt... but to me, whatever present I receive I would be happy... because I know they went thru tt effort to buy the present for me and went thru the flow of thought of what kind of person I am and what kind of things I like... and to me, a present is something tt is v suprising, you didn't know what thing is inside and you wanted to know what is it inside, it is some kind of excitement when you open the present... it isn't a present anymore when you know what kind of thing already.. that is why i would change the plastic bag whenever I gave the present... imagine I gave a person a present and the plastic bag is S&K... immediately tt person know it is a t-shirt or something from S&K... so tt is why I would change plastic bag and so when tt person open the present, he would be like "ai, how come not... ?" ya... when I opened tt present, I already know it is something from precious thots and it is a necklace... cos plastic bag is precious thots and CH said it so loud in celebration... haha... so much for tt... let's move on...

fingers wanted to celebrate with me today... but I rejected shang saying that I wanna study for block test and lou is hospitalised...there is really no untied for Fingers this year on my bd... I really hope after my block test can celebrate with them...and Lou would be fine and discharged by then.... I was studying physics at tt time I think when I received the sms and my feelings real sad... will say more when I have the time ba... now was in sch blogging in com lab... after rejecting, I was really sad that I can't continue with physics... I stoned there for v long... I didn't know how long... just to realise that I have suppressed my feelings for a v long time... and I have neglected it... and I think I have neglected other people's feelings as well... just to realised... all I did was study and study... I didn't care how I feel.... so ya... kind of sad...

why I so hardwking so suddenly... cos tml got test and a lvl this yr and garfield harrassed my mum... in all my sch life, no teachers harrased my parent... and he is the 1st one... well, kind of I dunno... he is quite a great and concerned teacher... but hey, I'm alr adult or so to speak... asked my mum to guidence my studies... my mum didn't gudience my studies since pri 2 ba... ya... so I'm a self-moltivated learner... and thankfully, I get back this moltivation after I lost it for like 1 and a half year... thankfully is b4 a lvl... hope I won't lost it again... and I want to show to garfield tt I can do well for physics and put his faith in me and to my mum as well... my mum kind of worry these days... but hopefully I can do well for this block test and make her less worry...

I think I have to change the way I study ba... my strengths: understand and learn things easily and fast but my weakness is tends to forget things v easily... so ya... have to train up my memory skills... and tends to lose focus easily... so ya... for this block test I have tried another way of studying or rather enhancing my studies...

I drank coffee these days so that I won't fall asleep when I was studying... whenever I see words I fell aslp in less than 1min... trust me... and the slp is like 2h... den after slping of cos is slacking... so like tt one day is like wasted... so tt why i drank coffee... and coffee can actually how to say, stimulate your brain cells and ya your memory would actually become better in some sense... dunno is true or not... I gave it a try anyway... no harm trying....

I think I have grown... in terms of character and person... I become more helpful and sensitive to others... and I think I matured alr... haha... and I become more cheerful and not sad over my result easily... maybe I have been so used to failing test alr ba... anyway, there is more to learn... jia you ba! you can do it...

yc tried to hint me smth... well... i think it is better to act normally... sometimes, it is better to act you dunno than you know... and I think it is better to act as if nth has happened... because, you dun really know what other people are thinking... and... what kind of a character they are... and how to say... some did it because of impulse or because they just want to get the attention... or for the fun of it... but actually, the truth is always hidden... jus widen your heart, the myths is not really a myth... is jus how you think abt it... some ppl change... the truth might not even be the truth sometimes... what you think might not even be true as well...

my 3 wishes for my 18th birthday...
1st wish.... I wished for that every year is that hope everyone including me to lead a healthy and happy life and hope tt the world is a much happier to live in...

2nd wish... haha... of cos is to do well for my A lvl...

3rd wish cannot say... haha...

ok... I think that is all... all the best to me in the upcoming block test... and hopefully I can finish studying...

=)

work

so much things to do. And I still have not started revision!

things needed to be completed:
1. GP AQ which needed to be handed in today morning in sch...
2. maths tutorials
3. 2 biz club write up...
4. physics tutorial...
5. econ thingy...
6. study for chem spa...

sian... buck up! keep up the spirit! =)

Chinese

So many things actually happened this week... just saw the A level Chinese result... kind of sad... wonder wanna retake or not... but I guess, I think I shall concentrate on other subjects ba since Chinese is not really taken into account. But it is like I'm deminising this subject lor... haiz... I'm a Chinese so I should score well for this subject... really dunno... but I dun think I can take the stress...

last Thursday, the cls n me went to the newly furnished Singapore Museum at Orchard opposite SMU... yc giving us a black face since the econ lesson but was ok when she heard LK saying abt the supersition thingy la... den LK and YC problem also solved... haha... den LK entertained us with his ghost story.... dunno why Alvin came too... we watched BOA MTV on LK hp... den reached the Museum... kind of grand and high tech... when we first walk in, l saw 6 pendulums swinging in free oscillation... haha... the pendulums actually are candles... kind of cool... I think everything is so high tech and cool... but... I dunno how to say.... as in like kind of fake ... the things inside...

we went to eat KFC... cls outing... haha... es started saying goss things made ppl who were eating wanted to puke... haiz... tt is evil... anyway, hope es recover from illness soon.... his voice become "v sexy" this days... haha... great... shall upload some photos while I'm free... now I kind of bored then come online de...

hope tml can finish more tutorials... today only did arenes... nice one... still got maths, gp, halogen, physics... kk... all the best to me! =)

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