Rotten Apples

Are rotten apples always rotten? Rotten apples are still edible, you can just cut away the rotten part, and you can eat the rest of the apple.
Even if the rotten apples are rotten, that does not mean that the seeds are rotten as well. The seeds can be used to grow into apple trees and can cultivate into new apples as well.
Using seeds from rotten apples, does not mean that the new apples harvested from the new trees are rotten as well. That has to depend on the pollination, fertilisation and other factors such as soil, water and fertiliser. So rotten apples are not always as rotten as you see as your naked eyes. Try to understand their feelings, they are not as bad as you thought after all. What they need is care and concern from us to turn over a new leaf.

Highlight of the day

haha... now come the highlight of the day...



This is yc's 1st husband... they cohibited... but seperated... now yc is seeking a new target...





yc... what kind of friend are you? that is wan hui's husband... 1st one... haha... the action one rite??? haha... so lame...


**note: this is for jokes and laugher only... don't take it seriously... yc is still available although her heart alr taken... but she is coming out of the hole again...so what if she alr had someone or attached or married... love is selfish, go fight for your love... yea... ok... highlight of the day is over...


now... ya... I really think my feelings for him is over... just feel a bit well, i dunno... bu she de... and I dunno... just feel kind of weird... and kind of sad... and I dunno... maybe... he is not the way I think he is... feeling is gone for him... my heart is frozen... but why do I feel sad? is it because it happened too bad that I can't take it? I really dunno... whatever the reason... what is over is over... thanks for the floorball, that my stress is gone or dropped rapidly... I sweated and had fun... ya... saw garifield and jy along the hall... haha... wah, jy's hairstyle kind of I dunno, messy... i think he needs a hair cut alr, fringe kind of long alr... whatever la... so busybody.. itchy backside... haha... ok... gtg... cya! =)

My Life

Let me introduce you to more of my personal life...



This is the messy table I used for studying... well, I also used a small table, used since when I was young... used it when I was watching tv... but that one is now occupied by my bro's books and recently I can't watch tv due to my test and hwk so tv has to be put aside...
after weekdays, finally feel a bit lax... but then again, physics... haiz... haven started...


This is my silly brother... this photo is he zi pai(self take) one...



I found this daily in my grandma's house... I used it 10 years ago... 1996... wow... can you believe it... I was primary 2 at that time i guess...


let's see the content...

I wrote some contracts inside... many of which I can't even rmb... and no his name... kind of weird...



this is my cousin...



and these are my cute little cousins... aren't they aborable? haha...
okok... coming up next...

these are photos taken during games day or rather during soccer... as games day is cancelled... rmb the rainbow... will always stay in my heart... i didn't take the rainbow... as such thing is to be keep in memory... this is more meaningful...


soccer match...






















that is all for the games day... next post more exciting... haha... =)

photos

These are the photos I taken when I 1st took my handphone:


boy boy posing for my camera...



Boy Boy trying to take photos of me...


Jus testing my camera... taken such a place to take photos... outside the toilet...


me and yi chiann posting...



Took by Pei Ching...

Actually wanted to put a photo of jy de... but then... is secretly take de... so better not put... because this is public...




This is a watch/clock given by uncle meng...long time didn't go visit him already... cos really busy...

Benedict's Birthday celebration at Benedict's house...



Family photo... y boy boy inside... haiz...

yum yum... the cake looks delicious, when can i eat now?



birthday cake.... happy birthday to u... =)



haha... come on, i will block the wind... go on sing the birthday song...




light the candles...



Birthday cakes and cars...

okay.... next post coming up... see ya... =)

Oh my

trying to connect my phone to the com... but it doesn't seem to work... different frenquency... sian...

Test

Test test on Monday...
Test test =phyiscs test...

kind of confused... but that is not the important thing now... now is to deal with econ test tml... and my slp... jus come here... cos my hands are itchy... haha... thinking of gp lect... itchy backside... haha... the video v funny... and b4 the actual gp start also pretty funny... haha... =)

confused... hope it would be solved asap! k bye! =)

Test

I hate going to school... not that I don't like lectures or the people there... but whenever I see him, I really feel hurt inside. it is like a knife piecing my heart. the more I see you, the more I feel that we are totally from a different world. The more I realised that I have to be back in reality. You are too good to be true to me. My heart simply hurts. I wanted to tell all the things to you. but what position do I have in your heart? heard a voice so similar to yours... and I thought is you, kind of shunned diao... but I didn't flopped out... sometimes, although you are near, I don't even feel your presence. You are like another stranger. maybe we are strangers. different frequency... I simply hope we never meet... is this call fate?

today is not a bad day i think... because ended happy with tennis... although the teacher said I played like playing badminton... but it was fun! haha... saw both J guys... opps... kill two birds with one stone... amazing ar... during ct period, got the stress thingy... i wonder I'm that stress... got a few I kanna... like the forgetfulness, loss of hair and dun want to come to school part... haha! =) k... I don't so... my stress level is still managable... I'm really tired... really need a good rest today... den tml can chiong my chem test... yah! all the best to me! you can do it! have faith in yourself! yeah! =)

maths test

living in my "lala"land? Ya... how I wish... how I wish I could just disappear from this world... stress? I thought I'm really great in dealing with stress... hello? kidding me... I'm not... I'm often tired... fighting myself not to sleep... homework piling up day after day. I'm really tired. How I wish I could just give up and disappear from this cruel world. How I wish.

back to reality girl. haiz. stop being a sotong. but blurness can change? I dunno because I have been blur already. haiz.

my feelings for him seemed to have disappeared. why? maybe he is just another passer-by. not like the one I met 10 years ago, is he not replaceable? haiz.

seemed to have been doing maths these few days. I simply love maths, keep me thinking, my brain kind of rusty already, because when I think too hard, my head hurts. still left 2 tutorials for maths. still haven't study chem lect test. OMT! today maths was horrible! what's done is done. just pray that I passed. Haha! =) only subject i like now is only maths because chem yucks... need to memorise... physics... kind of boring you know... econ, the sight of it makes me sleep... but learn to love what you study. ya, I will learn that.

photos will upload later ba. maybe two more weeks. I know you are eager to see. Haha... =) ok... come here to slack a while... go back to my gp le... bye =)

Busy

saw the targot card thingy? haha... kind of true... I'm the lover type ba... is it? haha... think so ba... i guess... take from yc's blog one anyway...

ok... I said I update once a week rite? but I broke that... haha... so many things happening to me or rather to my friends that directly or indirectly affect me as well...

well, I think I'm back on track again I guess... because, I'm happy again... not that I love to do hwk... just that doing maths made me happy and head pain at the same time and angry I guess... maths test coming... in less than 10 hours I guess... I think I can ace that paper hopefully... haha... because it is differentiation... one of my favourite topics... opps... haha... =)

not totally on the track... just that I'm running breathlessly... hope didn't run out of oxygen and die on the spot... touch wood! haha... this week is going to be a busy week.... monday... maths test... tuesday--- gp... wed... CCA... thurs... chem test... and I haven't study chem test lor... nice one.... fri... econ test... wah.... nice one.... whole week of test... and still got hwk haven't complete.... chem tutorial.... physics one... econ one... and maths too.... wah... sian diao liao...

I said I wanna upload photos one rite? too lazy la... haha... still need to figure out how... so i think this week no time... maybe next week ba... ok... so late alr... see ya then! bye! =)

Tarot Card

You are The Lovers

Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.

The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.

Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Games Day

Yesterday... how shall I say it? terrible day I guess... well, maybe for Physics SPA only I guess... haiz.. when I finished my graph going on to calculation already, found out I tabulate my table wrongly. OMT! haiz... gotta do all over again... nice one... such luck! that is not all la... YC and SH paja tgt and bully me... haiz... garifield wore blue today... I think it would be better if he wears white... cos his skin is pretty dark... haha...anyway, sian diao... last one to hand in... thanks yc for helping me borrow spa to copy and thanks gk for lending it to me to copy...

den break sia... carry the drinks to cupboard... thanks joanne for helping... and calina as well... haha! =) tired... walked so far to buy plastic bags... haiz... so many shops also didn't sell... sian diao...

Games Day... wah... nice one... raining... and was cancelled... I saw rainbow! I mean those who are there saw rainbow... that is really cool! at that moment how I wish he was by my side... but he was nowhere to be found... anywhere, the sale has made a profit... and I was really glad... thanks the biz club exco and the members of the club for making this a success and not forgetting my group as well! thanks for the cooperation, the help and the suggestions! thanks madeline, kai peng, sook chan, joan seow, priscilla, victor yan and shi kai... thanks guys for ur help... haha... madeline, poor girl... take so many stuffs.... hotdogs are v nice... haha! =) thanks those who buy things from us... thanks yc for helping out as well! =) hee... =)

this weekend is going to be a busy one for me... tons of hwk for me to complete, revision of test, sat which is today evening, will be attending ben's bd party... haha! =) party= nice food and cake... yummy...

wah, sian diao, napfa coming... screening lor... sian diao... okay lor... that's it for this week... might be updating tml... as I might upload some photos of the games day sale n ben's bd party... haha! =) so cya! =)

Moral

I really dun understand. I had tried so hard. I thought I can cope. I thought I'm on the track. I thought I can get on and concentrate on my studies. But I have to admit, I don't think so. I not halfway even there. I really feel like giving up. No matter how much I tried, it seemed not to work. I really feel like giving up. I really have no energy to continue. I am so stressed up. I started to hate school...

But I hate to admit failure, admit defeat even more. Is there anything that moltivate me to go to school? I dunno. Maybe there is. Because to see the shuai teachers in sch? because to see that guy? I really don't know. I feel that I really can't breath already. I started to drop lots of hair lately. I thought it was not obious until yc pointed out to me today...

Is it a sydrome of stress? Whenever I'm sad, I tend to bottle up my feelings. I tend to cry to myself. I know it is bad. But what else can I do? I do not want to worry people around me. Especially my parents. They had enough of work already, I really don't want to burden them. Not to worry, the stubborn me will continue to work on. I believe in faith. I believe in hard work. Principal says before change your thinkings change your life. I do not want all my year delicated to books so I had made a decision that is to join bai yun gang. I know it is tough especially the block test is near. But I believe I can cope. Especially when my project has already done by then I guess. I think it is a good way to devert my thoughts in studies once a while. Not a bad idea right? I don't care if people think I'm stupid or what or my parents disagree. I simply don't care because it is my decision. I know the results. But I believe I won't end up there as long as I listen attentively in lectures and in lessons. "A"Level already started since the 1st day when I stepped into this school... just that I realised it late. But I do hope it is not too late. I believe I still have time to catch up. I have to be more FOCUS and CONCENTRATE! Jia you girl! You can do it! Go to your goals! They are waiting for you! =)

One week post

I decided to post only weekly... haha...

Saturday, I stayed at home did some homework, but was too stressed up and the weather is so warm. So got the cong dong to go and swim... so I went swimming in the evening... I reached the pool at 5pm something but still, the sun is still so strong... haiz... so many people also... crowed, of all ages... got young guys also, all well built! but damn scary seeing their body, strong and muscular... haha... a good way to destress myself... feel so great after swimming! =)

Sunday, went swimming again but this time I went with my family... after swimming, auntie brought us go eat ramen... I think is Japanese one... it is a store near the bishan post office, near jin shan leng coffee shop, near the NTUC also... it is at the corner, so when you passby, you won't actually notice it. but the food is not bad... quite affordable also as in normal price not damn expensive that type.... good! =)

Monday... happiest day of my life... haha... is it happiest? I dunno but I get to see so many shuai ge in one day... v happy lor... see that j guy... then after school, saw JY and Garfield playing tennis... haha... yapp, went to watch death note 2 with paul, mad and louisa... great movie! kind of sad.... cos both of them died in the end... and I dun like Light death God.... so evil... haiz... Light trusted him so much yet he betrayed him... but then again, if death note really happened, what will happen? interesting huh?

Tuesday... didn't see JY today... but nvm... I decided to live everyday as my last... and live happily... learn whatever I can and help whoever who needs help... wow, it sounds like I'm going to die soon... think again, we will die one day, it is a matter of time, just that we do not know when we are going to die... don't ever think you are still young, because you never know when is your last day... I decided not to have regret... trust my intitution and trust in my decision... I will do my best in everything I am doing... yeah! a new year with new resolutions and a new positve attitude! =)

should I say my resolutions? hee... maybe let me tell you a few! the most basic thing is to do well for "A"Level! yeah! Learn to play qin tian lor... wanted to learn during holidays one, but didn't have chance... too busy already... haiz... Earn more money... and buy more accessories for myself.... I hope to train my swimming to 46 laps... I found that swimming freestyle more xin ku leh... but my brother thinks differently... maybe swimming too much "Frog"style le ba... maybe shall train up my freestyle le... wanted to learn swimming again... but all small kids learning, then one old woman learning with small little children will be v paiseh one rite? haiz... maybe shall ask my mother to join me also... haha... den two women are always better than one... and of course to pass all my tests and exams... and I hope to achieve top 25%! yeah... that is my goal! basically is to do well for all the things I'm doing! =)

talking about basically... thought about math lecture... that teacher de kou tou chan is basically, alrite, ok... he sounded abit nervous... but I think he got improvement already... maybe he should be more prepared for the lecture... and more eye contract... talking about math, let me say more about our new math teacher mr chee... haha, his hair makes me laugh... thanks YC for your joke... muhaha... his way of conducting lectures are a total different from Patrick Poh... PP lessons always learn new stuffs, is like he always keep teaching us, then like got interesting things like that... but mr chee's lesson is more relax... is more of self working than he teaches us I think... so yap... but still, I love Maths! =) this is a fact will not change unless something changes ba...

I thinking of learning maths in U leh... then wanted to study business course also... =) I have been thinking a lot lately... haha... I think I'm on my pace now... jia you! dun give up! =)

Wednesday... today is CCA Bazaard... really noisy and crowded... as you know I dun like such thing... I always like calm and quiet place... this cca bazaar makes me think of my secondary school with Interact Club... Really had lots of time that time, because we were like fighting for secondary ones and the sec ones were like scared of us... we were acting like idiots in front of the sec ones students, but we had lots of fun! how memorable... maybe because my sec sch is much smaller so that is why I feel warmer I guess... today, ya... I had fun... performances were great and I think they had improved a lot... I signed up for "bai yun gan"because lin hui also sign up... just for fun I guess... although I say I want to concentrate on my studies but studies are not really everything sometimes... because I don't like to face books all day... I want to learn something out of the book.... that is my intention... someone accuse me, haiz, dun want to think about it already... really feel so down lor...

i dun know why, I feel so strange recently... it is like my heart is not my heart... it beats adnormally sometimes... I wonder is it something wrong with my health... or is it something else... am I thinking too much?

my proposal been rejected because of some reasons... I dunno can or can't tell... but if u interested you can ask me... so now we doing games day... also selling... next week! omg... so fast lor... I feel like dying already... still got the research project to do... really feel like dying... tomorrow got guitar... I dunno if I want to go or not... but got learn the songs I like... but end so late... haiz... really scare it will affect my studies... haiz... go or not go? still got tons of hwk waiting for me... haiz... feel so stressed up... dun worry be happy! jia u! go go go! =)

cheer up! going to get my new phone this week! so be happy! and I saw JY today! be happy! hee... =) and saw him 3 times in school today... wahahaha! =)

Life in my recent days

oh my tian. Stupid brother. I was half way typing my post and he came and disturb. Now I have to retype all over again. Nice one. Sian. So idiot.

haiz. been busy and tired these few days. because school had reopened.

let me start from where I had stopped.

Sunday. My mum cooked. Grandma, grandpa, aunts and uncles came to my house and eat dinner. Did I tell you that uncle ah meng ask me out for a movie on Sunday? I rejected. There are two reasons why I rejected. Firstly, I still got tons of homework to do. Secondly, he said he wanted to treat me. Of course I would not let him treat me. Haiz. Later, we went J8 to walk. That's how I spent my Sundays.

Monday is new year. Shammima and I went to Cheshire Home to visit Uncle Meng because it was his birthday on this day. We wisehed him Happy Birthday. Haha... =) Uncle Ah Meng scolded me lor. I think he was quite disappointed in me. Haiz. later that afternoon, I went to grandma's house because to celebrate BoyBoy's birthday. His birthday falls on 4th of Jan. The cake is nice. order from Prime Deli. Mango Cake. My favourite. Haha. Delicious. Following that, we went to Hong Kong Street Restaurant near Thomas Road. We went there for dinner. Yummy. We ate a lot of food! oh man! so full! =)

Tuesday. wah. total boring. Rush my homework! =) oh my tian. didn't rush finish. Got gp, maths and chem the next day.

Wednesday. 1st day of school. long day man! got CCA! tired. still gotta rush my hwk. rushing my econ essay till 2am. nice one.

Thursday. tired day also. had meeting with my group. then went home. actually wanted to do econ essay. but I was way too tired to do. I fell asleep for 3 hours. Did my econ essay and newspaper article.

Today. got pe. oh my tian. so embarrassed la. nvm... dun wanna talk about it alr. physics... haha... garfield. wah. 1st physics teacher in NY I think is good. actually Mr "Cool" also not bad ba. cos I understand his DC lecture, maybe it is because I listen attentively. Haha... =)

Just watched High School Musical. Nice! Enjoyed the whole school. Love it! hee... thanks shang yi! haha... =) There are some learning points. Well, when we are with our friends, or rather so-called friends, we sometimes are not ourselves. Friends are actually someone who accepts you as who you are and not creating someone that you are not. I think only true friend knows about their own friends. Their inner self I guess. They accept them as who they are and not what they are not. They help them to achieve their goals and bring them back into track when they are going out of the lane. I know they are something that everyone don't want people to know about because they fear that other don't accept them. But if you are a true friend, you will. I think what friendship needs is trust. Yes, I totally put my truth in you. Don't disappoint me. A friend is someone you feel comfortable with and you are being yourself when you are around with him or her.

Thanks Shang Yi and Shirley for the gift. hee... =)

Horoscope says I will be having good life this year and I will be waiting for it. I waiting for you... I waiting for you... haha... opps...

Tell you, I dunno why I cried when I watched the drama. MaLu and the girl separate. I normally don't cry. So emotional. Mum was looking strangely and asked, "You crying? Why you cry?"I dun even know how to ans that qns. Maybe because it is touching? Maybe the show reminds me of something else or maybe I was just too stressed up. girl, just stay calm and strong. You will get through. Don't worry be happy. Just stay positive. There will also be solution when the boat reached the shore. Create your own opportunity and win the game! Go go go! =) half and hour more to show end. I think I better stop and end here. See you soon! =)