I dunno why after so long the struggle and pain. I still haven't find my way and path... I feel so lost. I feel so tired. Always so busy. Trying to learn new things, trying to catch up. But I am always find myself running in circles.
Why? How I wish I have time to actually settle down and think what I really really want in life? Sometimes, I feel so... I dunno... I just feel so... I dunno how to say, okay, I know what I want to say but I just dun want to say because I don't want to admit it.
A level result coming soon. I fear. Everyone has fear over it. Who hasn't? Just how you going to conquer it. I wish a zillion that I don't want to go back to the school and take it. It is disgusting! The fear, the tension. the wait... It is all within us... But I guess we have to face it. I mean I have to face it eventually. No matter what happens. Have to prepare for it.
The Perfect Man by Hilary Duff really nice! cool! It is about this girl, Holly who is always on a move when her mum Jean has another relationship crisis. This time, Holly wants a change, she I guess do not want to move anymore, tired of moving everytime, so she decided to give her mum a happiness. She made-up a man, Ben for her mum. Buying flowers, writing love letters and so on. Lies after lies. Eventually, the fire broke. Then it was Holly who was in relationship crisis and she was scared and she wanted to run away, she demanded a move. Her mum finally knew her mistake and wanted to stay and have a new adventure.... So there... Happy ending finally... =) Happy ending always makes people happy but is there always happy ending in life? I doubt so...
Anyway. there are some things I simply can't say here. but I really want to scream out loud!!!
Okay, shall end here... time for my bed! I really want a change in my life! I want a more exciting and colourful life! I want to travel around the world!!! =)
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