Bored

Oh my... feel like dying already... feel so tired and sleepy... let me destress here... wah... a week of torture... finally came to an end... there is more to come next week...

the day before maths...
I went to bed early... but simply can't fall to sleep.... my chou gong didn't come and find me... maybe because of my biology clock is mixed up... see... who ask you to always sleep so late... serve you right... wah... the next day, I was pretty tired... but I was rather early for school... Shang was like souring me... whatever.... I only did 5 qns out of 11 qns... wah... what a nice job to do... I can predict I'm going to fluck this paper... haiz... maths used to be my strength... yea... used to...

my brother asked me maths yesterday wah... then I laugh at him... such an easy question also dunno how to do... emaths nv had been a problem... since now... wah... what is the problem? NOt enough practice? don't understand? I tried my best to understand them k... so tired and tired...

next.... tuesday is chem.... wah... so another paper that erm... ya... you know... nvm it man... formula I all forget already...

wednesday... econ... at least better... mention to finish... and crap my way t a way to train my crapping skills...

today... phyiscs... oh my goodness... not even a single qns I'm confidence about doing it... all guess guess one... see the 1st qns already feel depressed already... cos dun even know how to start that qns....

finally all these came to an end...
went to eat with wh at j8... at food court... then mad came along... I learnt something... actually when you ask what you want to eat, you already have something in mind that you want to eat.... but why still ask?? haha... so weird... if we just say what we want then time would not be wasted? I ate grilled saba... a lot of bones... but not bad... but there is still room for improvement... the green pea too hard... the soup is too salty... but overall still not bad.... the ban mian I ate the other day also not bad... got my parents' standard but their skills are better... haha... =)

went to buy something... hee... it is a secret... =)

then mad has to leave for her piano lesson...

went shopping I mean window shopping... to see got any dress for prom night... before the GST rise... but ya... the clothes not to our liking.... you know how I but clothes? a feeling... a feeling that yes, it is this one... I want to buy tt kind... yes, there is a few nice one around but simply don't have that feeling you know...
I tell you ar, I want a glass shoe... haha... that is what I told wh... then hor my prince charming will pick it up for me when I drop one of it... wah... day dream...

I learnt something today.... there is a mixture I think called purple gold...ya... the jewelly got such mixture and it is purple in colour... so nice... =) then.... wah.... one diamond ring cost how much? $4000 plus... wah... so xxx.... wah.... why pencil so cheap wen diamond and pencil are made of the same element.... haiz... weird... okay... my fan is spolit.. I'm so warm now... haiz... gotta end now... bye bye! =)

Going to school reopen

exactly 2 more days to school reopen and our 1st paper starts! oh man! I dun want to think about it... I going crazy... I still got many topics haven't finish studying... why why why?

Today have group study with Shang and lou... and I was late again... sorry shang... haha... should be used to it by now... whatever...

Process was slow as usual... I only finished 2 econ notes today.... really sian... I'm going crazy... ya... read half way dunno why laugh like mad girl in the library... that is the result of studying econs... haha...

Keep having weird dreams recently... and dream about people who are not even close to me... that is so weird... i dreamt of my shuai ge the other day... wah... kanna shocked and woke up... why the world I dream of him... so weird... my J1 volleyball shuai ge... haiz... not interested already... cos... all my concentrations goes to my studies... yeah! and my precious time to my family and friends... they need my care and concern more than anything else... =) I'm learning... growing up... =)

keep having deja vu? ya... so weird...

keep thinking of weird things also... keep experience weird things as well... nvm about that...

haiz... so little time to do so many things... sian shang jia sian... jia u ba nu ren! =) yeah!

will update more when I have the time... just finished checking my email... wah... 1.11am already... on my clock... so tired.... nights... tml still gotta wake up early.... haha... =)


Happy belated birthday to Eng Seng and Guan Kuan! =)

Advance happy birthday to Chee Heng as well! =)

Thanks

All in all I wanna thanks my friends who are there and not there physically... a time of emotional stress that I had been through... tried my very best not to think about it already... thanks! =)

I had a great day ytd... thanks to shang... lou... mad and sl... went to UK fun fair for bumper car ride... wah... almost went out of my seat... so unsafe... only 6 ppl riding... plus one small boy boy... wah... he stole my blue car lor... whatever... see u small... I rang ni one... then try to win tigger for mad... but can't even throw one onto the plate... haiz... mission failed... went for the ferris wheel ride.... lou didn't come in... cos her dad didn't allow... okay... at 1st everyone was like a bit scare cos of the height I guess... then... after that used to it already... we started to take photos... then... wah... after like more than 8 rounds already... a bit sian already...got more than 10 plus plus rounds... almost puke when coming down...

I was rushed to go grandma's house... which was near mad's house which was pretty near the UK fun fair as well... went to eat dinner... then... went j8... hahaha... went NTUC... then went for dessert... peanut soup... and other soups... got shark's fins as well... haha...

happy day! =)

I'm so glad there is still my family and friends around with me... I feel so safe... thanks! =)

Today's horoscope:
The Bottom Line
There isn't enough time to finish all your work, but you won't be overwhelmed.
In Detail
There isn't enough time to finish all your work, but you won't be overwhelmed.

I think today horoscope a bit... ya... dotts dotts.... obviously I know there is so little time for me to finish so much things... I still have my chem... physics and econs have not even started... I will just do my every best I guess....

no matter what... you reap what you sow...

and I still believe in this line...
~The world of achievement has always belonged to the optimist.~
J Harold Wilkens

Happy Birthday to Kit! =)

Revision

ya... I started my revision... a few days ago... one day one topic which was way too slow... haiz...

whatever is it... i did vector today... only maths can moviate me right now... I tried to do phyiscs and chem but these two subjects really bored me... whatever...

My passion for math will nv die off... =) I hope ba... =)

I really like this sentence...

~The world of achievement has always belonged to the optimist.~
J Harold Wikens

but rite now... I have to believe in this...

~Who works achieves and who sows reaps. ~
Arabian Proverb

long time

It has been a long time since I blogged...
well... the reason is because the modem had been confiscated... due to my bro kept playing computer.... and I am always not at home as well... weather so warm... need to drink plenty of water... or else... sick... which is not a good thing... okay... see ya! =)

~The world of achievement has always belongd to the optimist. ~
J Harold Wilkens

Too much

So many things happened recently... one moment, I was in a happy situation, where I could laugh and enjoy and crap with my new friends... I was really joy that day... feeling great... but that night... I wasn't...

I thought I was strong... but I was wrong...

I walked deeper and deeper... I felt scare with each step I took...

When I saw him, I was depressed. I could feel his pain, his misery, his wu nai, his regrets. his fear, all at once. I don't know why I felt it, I just feel it. From his expressions. When people are in pain, I guess they simply can't hide anything.

I was heart ache. I felt my scare, I feel my shiver. I feel my temper. I don't want to see it anymore. Tears starting to form in my eyes sockets. I thought I could hold it all. But I can't. I simply can't.

I get go of them all. That was the time, I felt I was weak.

What is death? I simply don't know.

Sorry that I had made everyone worries. I really sorry.

I was fine the next day. went to the temple to pray. I really hope everything is just fine. Why can't life be simple? Now, I understand how weak human is. I always thought we can control our lives, I thought we can control our fate. Guess I am wrong.

Today, I feel that I wasn't my normal shelf. but I was trying to act normal. way too normal that I thought it is not normal. I felt that I was simply not myself. Whatever, I was simply tired. I don't know who I can talk to.

I won't forget that night. The misery night.

I'm just tired. Tomorrow I gues, is my official day to start studying for mid year if there is nothing goes wrong and provided that my mood does not go in my way.

okay, shall start on my SGC already... see ya! =)

~Initiative is to sucess what a lighted match is to a candle. ~
Orlando ABattista