March

It is March already!
And I'm turning 24 in like less than 2 weeks time and guess what I don't feel like I'm 24 when I already spent a quarter of my life...

Still childish, innocent, immature...

If someone is to ask me for my age, I seriously forgot or can't remember how old I am. Anyone got there face this problem?

A recap of my 2012. There were up and downs in my life. Be it good or bad. Is a journey. My career has been picking up I guess but not to my satiation and expectation. I think I could do more or better if not for my laziness and complacency. Keep trying & never give up! Of course there were down times where getting scolded and stressed by boss and family members. But all in all manage to pull through and survived. So keep trying and never give up!!!

I have a boyfriend. Ya, is uncle Law. I don't call him uncle anymore as he doesn't like it. We have been dating for coming 8 months coming march 13 on my birthday. Well, just feel kind of strange of how we met and how things seemed to work out. I think most of my close friends know how I met this person. But I want to say it anyway.

We met in a social web which I can't even remember the name like seriously. How I get to know this social web is through Pauline. I remember that time I said I wanted to have a boyfriend, want to get marry and have kids. Well, I think differently now I guess but that's another story. So she invited me to this social web. I was pretty relunctant at first. Then I thought maybe I could make some friends or they can become my business clients. So I talked via msn to many difficult guys. Some are like brothers, some are really desperate some just totally wanted to avoid. But there is this one guy, it feels like we knew each others for years, we could talk anything under the sun and he is just different from the rest. It is like you met a lot of insurance agents and they feel like they are trying to squeeze your money but there is just this person who is concern for your welfare and cares for you.

He said that our first conversation is when I said hi and he saw the msn when he got back from his jog. And we talk about Panadol  He said he still have the saved conversations on his desktop. I remember we have this conversation but I don't remember it is our first conversation. Maybe I mixed him up with some other people. Haha!

And we talked for quite some time on msn and he asked me out. And I agreed. Pauline said he posted on his fb stating he is happy. Maybe it was just coincidental. We met on the train, we went to watch a movie followed by Japanese food. Nothing spectacular happens, just feel super awkward as we could talk freely over msn but face to face, we always have this awkward silence in the air. My first impression of him was he is a shy and nice guy.

Never would I imagine he would or could be my boyfriend. Because he is not my type.

We met weekly or fortnightly after that and we talk almost everyday via MSN.

There were times he stepped the line of friend zone. So I asked around my friends and I concluded that wait and see. 顺其自然. Time passed and my feelings become confused. I consulted my close friends again and they said that he definitely likes me but me? I'm not sure. He is a nice guy and all but... I'm confused... One of my close friends said to me if one day, he says he likes me what would be my reply. She shared about her experience and all. So I thought through...

 After much thoughts, I know what would be my reply.

Then one fine night, he sent me home and said if we could go to the rooftop garden at my block. I smelt something fishy already. He seemed usually weird and nervous. I distracted him by asking him to play angry bird on my phone. Time passed fast and it was like 11 p.m. already. He finally said he likes me. You know in movies or dramas, it would be pretty romantic but in my case I don't really have the romantic. I think my reaction is super dull. After his much digging for my reply, we went up the highest floor in the building where Singapore Flyer could be seen from afar. I knew what would be my reply but I don't know why I just don't want to tell him right there and right then. After much, we concluded to have my reply another day.

I didn't sleep well or didn't sleep the whole night. I needed to think it through again I guess though I knew what was going to be my reply to him.

I text him the next day and told him my reply. There, that's how we came together.

I once asked him if he did attempt to pop out the question. He said didn't. But many a times, I feel he wanted to. But all in all, we are together now.

Been 8 months, not very long but I guess is not that short too. We didn't quarrel did we? But we have unhappy or upset moments at times I guess. But still, we are together. I guess we love each other too much already. Haha! I believe we could pass through thin and thick! Ganbatte!

He is away from sailing and would be away for a week. So used to having him around. Without him feels kind of weird. I miss you! :)

These mark the end of my 2012 and 2013 came and two months have passed.

March is the month of my birthday and March also marks my 2 years in my career in the financial industry also marks the end of my contract.

This is a tough business. Quitting has always been on my mind. But what holds on to me these 2 years is my clients, how could I let my clients down. My 2 years contract. Myself, how could I quit? Winners never quit and quitters never win.

Now 2 years... What holds on would be the light to see the brighter future, I wish to buy car, house, have kids and my kids have proper education... my hundred over clients, how could I let them down when they put their trust on me to manage their finances... my family... I want to allow my parents to retire as early as possible... My lifestyle... wish to travel around the world...

So all in all... Want to thank you each and every one of you who have supported or encouraged me in any way. And hope you could support me more in anyway you can. Ha ha!

2013 would be a much eventful, joyful and meaningful to me and each and everyone of you!

Love,
Sam
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