烦

我很烦， 我应该怎么办？

我的心声，谁能了解？

要和谁诉苦？

CNY 2010

I had a really great time back in my hometown this year...

I had a different feelings this year...

I used to hate going back to hometown as it is dirty and dusty. But I learnt something that is home is really where I belong... I have learnt to appreciate the things and the people I have around me and adapt to the environment and culture. Thanks, I have become a better person over the year I realized.

I remembered last year, I had a sulky face as if people owed me a million dollar when I was back home because I really did not like going back.

Over the one year, a number of things changed to make me realized how fragile life is and I begin to appreciate the people who have come into my life.

Anyway, back to my Chinese New Year celebrations. On new year eve, I went back. I had a new hair cut there. I like to have my hair cut there as I don't know, always seemed to have a relaxing feelings. The people there always seemed to be so calm when comes to cutting hair. ha ha! Anyway the guy who helped me cut my hair is kind of cool. ha ha!

Since the night is still young, we went to pasir paki (night bazaar, I don't know how to spell it in Malay) to walk walk. Again, it was an eye opener although it wasn't my 1st time walking. It seemed a little difficult from Singapore version. But nevertheless, I bought some good food to eat! yummy! =)

Finally it was chu yi already. 6th Uncle lighted the fire cracker. Wow! That was loud! ha ha! =) It was a custom for our house already to light a fire cracker on the new year. And it had become a routine for our family to go temple that is nearby after that. The temple had lion dance as usual. The crowd was larger than usual and the lion dance was longer than usual. But I enjoyed it! =)

Day 1, I went shopping with my mum and cousin. Bought a few new clothes finally! ha ha! =) love them! =) then went to 拜年。Went to 3 houses. supposed to visit 4, but due to mis-communication, one car which is my car didn't go to the 3rd house. But nevertheless, love the goodies at each house and the decorations. Ha ha! =)

after 拜年, I was allowed to drive a manual car back home. although it was like only 2 streets down? ha ha! with my dad besides me with guide of course. But he was more nervous than me. after like one year without driving... ha ha! seemed like a bit got rust already. But it is a good experience for me! Thanks to uncle for suggesting and allowing and my dad for guidance and the passengers like my mum and 姑婆 who actually dare to sit in my car. ha ha! =)

we had BBQ as usual for dinner. Satays like every other years, but this time we had fishballs, chicken wings and hotdogs as well. I didn't eat much as I went to buy fireworks with my brother and cousins. Had a fun time as well! And when we were back, there were nothing much for us already although there is still beef satays. but oh gosh, I don't eat beef. Haiz!

Day 2, seemed to be a bit. Grandpa went for kidney dialysis and he was feeling tired after that. We don't really have much activities today. My family and I took afternoon nap as we were too tired and it was so warm! We watched TV programs in the evenings.

Day 3 preparation to come to Singapore! Went shopping and dinner at City Square 1st and bought my beloved egg tarts! =) Home sweet home! =)

Yeah! =)

病了

我好像病了。好辛苦阿！

我今天才发现到原来在我的记忆里有着那么多你的回忆。

Going back to Johor in a few hours times... tired...

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day everyone!

Sam =)

爱

何时可以遇到我爱和爱我的人？

Camellia's BD

Had a great time at Camellia's house. Good food, good cake and good singing! I sang my favorite JJ songs once again. Ha ha! Till my friends are pretty sick of me, of course not sick of the songs. Cos JJ simply rocks! Love him! =) he he!

If only I can express my love so simply to that guy, life can be simple. ha ha! Life is so not simple because of my pride and my selfishness. I decided to keep it a secret from him. A secret he shall not know.

21st... I wonder why is it so special? It marks the end of our teenage life and start of a new chapter into the adulthood. But I asked Wan Hui when she reached 21, how does she feel? She doesn't feel any special the second she is 21. Just another day of her life.

Going to have a party? This question still ponders in my mind. I don't really like to make myself tired on that day especially it is my special day, my birthday. ha ha! I just hope to pass-by with my close friends and family. To me, family and friends are everything to me. It is my wealth! Without them, my life won't be filled with colors anymore. Thanks for being part of my life and being there for me whenever I need you! Thanks everyone! =)

I shall go and do my essay already!

Seriously hope I can manage my time! All the best to me! =)

For u, I shall live! =)

Full of thoughts

After the farewell party at Jael's house, after my friends sharing... I seemed to realise people have lots of thoughts and their love life is pretty complex.

I doesn't have relationship before, so I don't know the feelings about it. But why is it so complex? Because humans are complex. We have thoughts and feelings or emotions and that is why, this whole relationship thing become complex. Oh man!

I thought I'm someone who thinks a lot already but yet there are more who think much more than me. haha!

But anyway, had a great time at Jael's house. Hehe!

That guy is only my eye candy... I don't know he is the right one for me... yap...

The guy who I like or love... is already in my heart I guess... haha! that part I also not very sure... Love and relationship are complex...

okay... be simple.... sleep... study... work... that's all... =)

See ya! =)

=)

All the best to me! =)