yeah

yeah! i found my moltivator( not a person an object!) muhaha... whole day so no mood to study... haiz... try to focus but... at night... see something.... haha... thanks dad and mum... haha... they dunno what happen anyway.... haha... muhaha... jia u! go go go! still gt one more day to Physics! jia u! =) all the best to me! yeah! =)

what a nice day ar?

hate myself for letting myself to make careless mistake again... wth? i mean really... m always a careful person( dun believe ask my friends who are close to me)... bloody hell... rarely make careless mistake in doing maths b4... now dunno what the hell wrong with me... this is the 3rd time alr... why do i allow such thing happened to me? some more that qns is mr poh set one... haiz... disappoint him... my 8 marks... i think i haven't been strict with myself? so that is why such thing happen? nice one...

chem didn't have time to finish cos there is no time for u to time... last half an hour i was still at q3... i still got 3 more qns to go... nice one... forget it ....... also alot dunno how to do... but i think maths is much better den chem i guess... every paper like fighting a battle like that... every battle drain my energy away... m so tired...

sleepless night... the whole night i didn't slp....... the most i slp 2h... i dunno why... too jin zhang le ba... thinking of formula... i hate memorising... haiz... i dunno why studying need memorising... is to test ur understanding for the topics... like that memorise, what do we understand? i also dun understand y i study chem... it is not as if i wanna become chemist what... although i got a passiion for chem since secondary sch... but i think the passion alr died... cos dunno... it is totally different... how i miss mrs singh...

i hope for the bettter........ for now i prepare for the worsst but still hopping i can promote... still gotta think positive... yeah! ya... at most i go poly or retain... even the sky falls on me m not afraid..... ya... jia u lor... come on... go go go! dun let down the pppl who have confidence on u! yeah! thanks for the ppl who encourage me... hehe... esp my mum( always complaining to her)... always make her worry for me... haiz... there is life... there is hope... i still believe in miricle and miricle is we make ourselves... with our own hands! =) go go go! =)

haiz

sian..... no matter how i study... it seemed like nth goes into my brain... haiz... so sad lor... i think my way of studying wrong... sian... i really hope i can pass my promos... please la... why like that... gggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! so angry and sad.... and stress.............. ggggggggggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a way to destress............. nice one................ suddenly miss JJ so much... haha... haiz............. k nice one.............. dun wan to talk abt it liao............ haiz... everyone mugging............ me still slacking............. how to concentrate ??????????? mr boo: the word is "focus" den u can do everything........... ya.......... the thing is how??????? haiz........... sian.......... nice one.......... jia u lor......... sian........... =)

haiz

sian... nth gone well today... nvm... concentrate on the next 4 subjects! jia u! =)

haiz

my way of destress... blog and eat... haha... haiz... sian.... stressed= desserts... no wonder ppl will grow fat when they are stressed.... haha...

keep filling myself with positive thoughts... keep thinking tt what the future will be install for me... going oversea... travel around the world... having a big house with swimming pools and garden and garage with lots of cars and maybe motorcars( my dad dun allow me to bike, haiz... he said is dangerous) haiz... and library with lots of books... 1st place i wanna go is Spain! =) yeah... haha... so study and earn lots of money! then can travel around the world alr! jia u! go go go!

all the best ppl for promos! =)

sian

sian man... whole day stayed at home again... at home means eat and study lor... haiz... no wonder... haiz...

whole day... so waste time... study only one chem notes... sian man... then i only read thru the Science and tech gp notes... euthanisia and cloning... GM food... haven memorise leh... sian.... why GP need to memorise... i dun understand lor... no wonder need to memborise.... cos my GP always borderline one... haha... haiz.. today actually wanna wake up early do my eom one... but lazy de me... sleep till 9.30am... den slack.... sian lor... 5 more chem notes to go.... physics haven start yet lor... haiz... sian... maths? erm.... left memorise the formula... and graphing and differentiation ba... haha... =) not too sure also.. but did alot maths alr... hope can pass ba... yeah! must give mr poh a gd impression... he is leaving soon... so sad... haiz... such a great teacher....

econs... also haven start... maybe... read mkt failure can alr... haha... macro? erm... see gt time den read ba...haiz... what else? chinese and gp tml... scary... haiz... jia u! =) go go go! =)

no mood...

no mood... to study.... no mood to do eom... haiz... sian... no no no! can't think this way! go go go! jia u! haiz... feel so sad after seeing RQ's friendster... haiz... haha... nvm... time will heal the wound... "shi jian ke yi cong tan yi qie"... haha... dotss... he is my idol only la... tt time o lvl is jesse mccartney... his pic still above the com table... haha... look at him gt mood to study le at tt time... now no mood leh... haiz... thanks Louisa for giving me tt poster... haha... help me past the diff time in studying... haha! =) tt pic really moltivate to study lor at tt time... still tt pic dunno why feel better alr... haha... den continue study....

wah... eom still dunno how to do... feel tired liao... haiz... better go slp ba... tml den continue... buai... dun miss me... haiz... tml morning wake up early n do... yupz... tml study gp and chinese! go go go! =) not tml... is today.... after my sleep... haha! =) see u! =)

Promos

haha! jus read KKJ blog... post by RQ! i think this time the gig is he organise one... haha... but this time is 15 bucks leh... somemore at 15sep... my exam still haven finish... he gt say sp supporters... i wonder does he mean us... wahaha... recently he so enthus in blog... dunno why leh... haha... =) he is so shuai... haiz...

today ar... erm... not really production lor... sleep... eat... tired... haiz... now come online to do my eom... sian... haiz... how i wish m smart... although m smart alr la... but i wan a little bit more... haha! =) hee... m greedy... hee...

do maths... den read chem lor... left 6 more sets of chem to read... didn't study gp... sian... haiz... k la... i wish i can promote lor... that is all.... haha... =) for now... studies also on my mind... haha... but haiz... nvm... hee... =) go go go!!

after promos i wan go swimming! haiz... my new swim suit haven wear lor... sian... miss yangzheng pri sch tutees... haha... wish can go back teaching... haha... den they gt psle... ya... haha... =)

jia u all the ppl! jia u for promos! go go go! =) yeah!

Happy Birthday Soon Heng! =)

5 more days

Happy Birthday, Collin! =) stay shuai forever! anyway, i doubt he will read my blog... just to let li ming see... haha... i add a testi for him alr... haha... =)

haiz.... tired of my life.... but thinking the many disapponted faces i have to face after failing or retaining.... i have to move on... but can i take a break... i can feel myself really out of breath alr... haiz... tired...

but life has to go on... yar... no matter what the result is... i already tired my best... let my god decide for me.... he/she knows me the best... let me clearify... m not a christrian... m buddhist... i pray.... yap... no matter what the result is... i think i will learn lesson thru it... yap... for every step i move i learnt and changed.... used to be a mischief gal... i cheat... i lied... i steal... but now... a totally different person who put myself in other ppl's shoes.... bad memories are erased... good membories are always kept...

yeah... life has to move on... go go go! stay positive... u can do it! jia u lor! yeah! go go go! =) 5 more days... 4 more days...

Haiz

wah... just finish my i n r... tired... printing it now... after finishing it... just realise got sample... haiz... what the... haiz... den all my formating wrong... cos i copy from the layout one... den m so hungry now... cos didn't have dinner... should not have yan cheng told mum i had dinner... wah... nice one... nvm... sleepy... but still got physics and chem... sian... haiz...

oh man... miss my show... oh my... haiz... sad...

Sian

So sian... i stayed at home the whole day! micrale ar? sunday leh... i stayed at home to do hwk! what the hell lor... actually planned to go job with sham this morn... again... can't wake up... lala... how i wish can take out the sleepy and lazy genes in my body or not ar... so tired and sleepy although i slp for dunno how long...

woke up at 11am lor... den i continue sleeping till lunch... den i start to read gp lecture notes-sports... den after that do econ assignments... finally, just now do finish alr... yeah! =) den now i have to do my I&R which is due tml! and i dunno how to write man! sian... den i still got chem promos papers to do... and the physics tys mcq... nice one... haiz.... all due tml... how many more hours to go... haiz... sian... still haven start revision lor... sian... haiz... tired... how i wish... haha... nvm... go go go! =)

repeat after me pauline: I LOVE STUDYING! I LOVE MUGGING! MUGGING ROCKS! then u will wan to study le k... y always i online dun see u online... den u online i not online one... haiz... no fate... haiz... so sad... haha... jia u! go go go! =)

9 more days...

haha... i rather post a blog den to do my eom... really dunno how to edit... still gt I&R... and... what ar... chem also... econ also... physics also... how to finish in one day... haiz... stupid me... go do inequalities for what... but i finished alr... haha... hope ok lor... haiz...

today morn, went to sch for maths... AMK ger... pauline's clsmate... we like so cold no topic.. but... she is so blur... dunno the place and time for her bio... haha... she quite sweet... haha... i dunno her name leh... gtta ask pauline... haha...when i reached the fountain, my heartbeat suddenly skip a beat... dunno why... like the guy i like in sch like that... but no lor... haiz.... who is the guy tt look like tl? i wondered... haha... =)

went to tutor ben... wah.... he is really weak... ned lots of practise... fractions... and timestable... not tt shu... haiz.... and he is quite lazy also... haiz... if only he starts early, want me to tutor him earlier... maybe he would benefit more... for now, i learnt to be a more professional tutor alr... haha... i'm wanted to tutor yz students... haha... =)

ya... that is all for my day... yeah... kk... tml is a long time tt i need to rush... haiz...
I&R
chem promos papers
physics tys mcq
econs
eom
i hope i can finish these tml... den i hope i can start on my revision also... 9 more days... go go go! =)

Haiz...

Haiz... raining... why lao ren jia de words always so true... my mum told me to bring an umbrella.. might rain.... but i didn't cos i was angry at her for nagging at me the whole morning while i was preparing to go sch... now i have to walk in the rain to reach home... nvm... just hope won't fall ill... hee... exams are coming.... 10 more days.. scary...

haiz... today Hsin-Yi's bd today... nv reply me.... i so gd rmb her bd yet she nv rmb mine for the past 4yrs... haiz... nvm... Happy Birthday, Hsin-yi! =)

i have been lost in the forest for the last few months... now that i found my directions...but I'm too tired to move on... too tired... i just want to stay where I am... but I can't... i have to move to survive... I have... I tried to stay positive whenever I met with problems and ostractions... ya positive... as if it is very easy... but I survived anyway... test exam flunk all the way... i have become strong as I have learnt to think positive... I nv cried... i didn't cry...

I know u have high expectations for me... i know... but the higher it is... the more stressful and the more I wanna avoid... I'm afraid to bring u disappointment... i dun want to see the disappointment in ur face... when I did something right... i saw the joy in ur face... the glory that u wanna spread to others... you r proud of me... I know... but I'm afraid of bringing glory to u, as then I will have to move to higher level... but then... i have learnt... life has to move on... we can't stay stationary... no one is to wait for u... i know... i have learnt that afraid is natural... just be strong... and u can do it... thanks for the encouragements and hope and advice for me all these years... i know you are hurt when u see me suffer... but you can't do anything to help me... i know... just a little bit more and i survive my year... just a little more... i know i can... have to do it... but I think i alr reached my max... i have been lost in the forest for so long... i should go on since now i have found my way... just do ur best... the best is up to fate and my God to decide whether if m worth it or not...

jia you... go go go! =)

Sian

sian... tired... really tired... how i wish i can sleep a little longer every morning... sian... being woke up at 5am something is not what i really want k... haiz... force out of my bed... i slp at 1am every night... for dunno why.. time seemed to fly so fast... it had been 10 yrs since i knew him... haha.... ya... confused abt my love life... so dun ask... m confused...

slp my whole chinese lesson... chen lao shi woke me up twice... haiz... sorry... really tired.... although the passage seemed interesting... main thing learnt "focus"... mrs lim said de... went for her consultation... felt so demoralised... but i like her... cos she is straightforward... ya... and tell me what m wrong... thanks... i really do hope i can pass my gp as i depend on gp... haha... =)

sorry li ming... can't celebrate with u... love u always... =) we are not les... pls... Happy Birthday girl! =)

things to do now:
revision and clear all the tutorials...
be prepared for promos..
earn $?==> try to cancel as my mum says... haiz...

after promos:
help my cousins with their exam...
pw...
chinese "A" lvl!

during hols:
looking for a job?
prepared for a lvl

ytd zx and ss... hee... zx: i want to turn u into thumbellia and put u into my pocket and take u to US with me...
SS: i want to change u into scarf to wrap around my neck so that you can't go anywhere else....
i like this part where they hug... haha... so sweet and romantic... the third time when zx broke the date.... he looked so shuai with his hair down.. yeah! =)

11 more days to promos... go go go... tml staying for night study i guess... den... er... what i wanna say ar? can't rmb... nvm... told u i got stm... haiz... nvm... go back to my gp paper alr... go go go... =)

Haiz...

Tired... and tired... and sleepy... not thinking much just wanna promote... haey! go go go! =)

J8

Yeah! feel so great... cos... hee... went to J8... haha... =) with yc pc wh stella and shirley in the morning... hee... didn't see shuai ge... nvm, my task for tt time not to see shuai ge la... haha... anyway, i not concentrating on seeing shuai ge... haha... =) task completed... great... but didn't take neoprint... hope got next time... hee... =)

physics... haha... we entertained ourselves so that cls won't be tt dry... haha... ring... so funny.... muhahaha... haha... i think yc will read... u know rite??? muhaha... =) monday rmb to bring hor... =) with card inside... need plastic bag ma? hee...

after cls... gave present to LK....
Happy 17th Birthday, Lun Kuang!
the way he took the present from wh is so funny... haha... =)
after one week... i think i missed my cls alot... haha... =) hope we all can promote to J2 tgt! jia u! go go go! =)

den at night i went to the cc near my hse to do my hwk... i done gp summaries alr... yeah... 2qns on econs... erm... ok la... quite productive? haha... dunno... 17 more days to promos i think if m not wrong... jia u lor! yeah! =)

go go go! =)

My Thursday

Crazy bro... he can touch the celling... he was happy like mad(not madeline) alr... haiz... k...
tired... and not productive... sian...

today went sch... had pair study with tl... nt productive one lor... haiz... gp after that... had a heart attract... really spoilt my mood... not that my mood v gd... haiz... fail my gp lor... what else... what more can be more worst? failing my promos? touch wood... haiz.. now even my last bet is gone...

after gp... went doing the maths again... i love maths... but doing the qns not getting ans and not knowing how to do make me fed up with myself... so demoralised... haiz... did the MI... so many qns dunno... jus skip lor.. what else can i do... still got econs lor... way way way behind my scheldue and gt gp hwK!!! oh my tian... hiaz...

i dun think i really like him... maybe just other short crush... haha... k show start... buai... tml still gt sch... jia u for me... hee.... =)

Hee...

yoz... hee... erm... ya... my love life... how i wish i have the courage as well( a reply to yc)... pauline once say that i dunno how to handle my love relationship or something like that.... well... kind of agree i guess... haha...

i hurt a guy once... a few days ago i think i saw him... but... i dun dare to say hi... he was my pri sch fren.... a guy who bullies me... who took my seat... who put my hair... who critised what i eat... who disturb me... he pissed me off... irriated me... haiz... den finally... i scold him a dog... "hao gou bu dan lu"===> a gd dog dun block the way... i saw the hurt in his eyes... tears almost fall alr... i wanted to apologise... but being the stubborn and with lots of pride one... i walked off... i felt so guilty after that... we nv talk after that... haiz... from tt day onwards... i nv say tt phrase again to anyone... or nv used it....

thereafter... lots of crushes here and there... then finally... psle... i broke off from my many crushes... sec sch... crushes here and there again... but... there is one particular guy... hurt me man... dun wan to talk abt it... haiz... those who are gd pals in sec sch should know... hee... he is such a jerk... how in the world will i fall for him in the 1st place... bad taste... sian... vulgar... rude... not a gentleman... haiz... come to think of it... he is not that shuai as i used to think he is... haha...

now in jc... erm.... kind of true that the horoscope say that my two years will have guys around me... ya... of cos gt guys around me la... 14 guys and 9 gals... 1st time ever that i entered a cls with more guys then girls... haiz... now that i have no mood to think about my love life alr la... promos la... ai yo... i like my cls... fun loving.... haha... esp with my frenz around... what else could be more fun then that... but i do hope that everyone could be truthful to one another.... =) 0617 rocks! =)

man... m addicted to blogging alr... haha... how i wish i have a cam... mum still blame me for losing the camera... m sorry... truthfully... still saving for it man... but i hope i can get a hp with cam... haha... den i can take photos wherever i wan.... cos... memories are short term... photos are long term... haha... erm... ya... oh ya... www.ephraim.blogspot.com .... a blog by minister... do check out... haha...

heard from mum... she read from newspaper... a snake in Malaysia... ate a dead goat, who got killed by a car... a big fat goat... man... den the snake was damn full... can't move... and kanna catch... what is the lesson learnt? dun be greedy... and dun eat too much when u dun have such a big stomach... u will end up suffering... maybe gt fat or dietable( duno how to spell)... high cholestrol... blah blah...

went study at tp lib today... 2nd floor... pauline came joined me after that... done apgp and summation with lots of circles and blanks... haha... know what i mean rite... ya... lots of qns dunno how to do... not really productive... den come home only watch tv... haiz... behind scheldue!!!! haiz... still have lots to catch up!!! oh my tian... !!! haiz...

zhen xian so shuai.. the korean show... <> ... so cute... funny... haha... zx so shuai... so sweet... so caring... somemore... rich... smart... a perfect guy... haha.. but in reality got such guy or not? hee... dunno... still searching... haha...

k la... crap so much alr... really addicted to blogging... sodoku now v HOT ar... not bad... set my brain to think... gotta go pack bag le... buai... hee... =)

My day

my day... my day... haiz... doing tutorials...grp study... at bishan... with sham, lou and paul... completed chem tutorials... oh ya... tired... haiz... gtta slp early today...
stop teasing me with desmond alr... cos i dun like him and he dun like me... tt is final... i dun understand y guys n gals can't have pure friendship? i think can... i believe can... haha... =)

i hate smoking... dun understand y ppl smoke... i dun blame them for being addicted to smoking... but y do they have to smoke in the first place??? haiz... 1st it stinks.... 2nd unhealthy... 3rd pollute the environment... haiz...

oh man... m behind scheldue... doing wk too slow alr... haiz...
feel so sad after reading my fren's blog... i can't say who i guess... haha... i hope she will forget abt the past... what;s done is done... can't undo it... just threasure what u have now... yes, i treasure what i have now... as i think m v fortunate to have frens and family that really care abt me... haha... sorry guys for always complaining n being late... haiz... mayb my resolutions for next yr is not to be late again... haha... n eye washing guys is one of my fav pastime... haha... sorry for that if i comment too much on guys... haha... =) but for now... i think RQ, JY, JJ, and him most shuai one ba... my dad also not bad in my heart...not forgeting my bro as well...haha... =)

k la... guess... tml group study again? as my bro bringing frenz home again... n i can't stay home to concentrate on my studies... promos is very important to me... sorry for the ppl who i have no time to care for... will compensate after my promos... provided i can get promoted... m sure i can as i have put my best! =) hope nth cropped up during the promos ba... haha... =)

i think my like for him not that strong ba... if so, y m not thinking of him ar... while yc kept thinking hers... haha... a few days ago, i told myself to have courage to love... but for now, i think i will have to put that aside... as promos is much more important for anything else... all the best for all jc1 for promos and jc2 for a lvls exams... for sec sch ppl who r taking o lvl... jia u! =)

Hee

wah... long time nv blog alr... broke record... haha.... kk.. start with what ar...
friday... is teacher's day rite? ya.. i went group study with pauline, lou, sham... i saw mr chan at tp lib... ya... DC... direct current... haha... =) we went mac as lib no place alr... came too late... thanks dc for ur offer... haha... den we stayed at mac... like not productive... but nvm... haiz... watched a show while me n sham walking... "sorry, teacher" by li ping... so touching... i cried in public... oh my!!! so embarrassing... the guy dunno own or the assistance kept looking at me lor... haiz... the teacher died in the end cos she met with accident when she tried to save her student... also she gt liver cancer... i predict she died la... cos i think they gt cut some parts...

saturday... what i did ar... can't rmb... stm again... i think i slept all day if m not wrong... hee... so my sat is slack one...

sunday... busy... morning... group study... only do the maths lecture corrections... afternoon... go temple with my family... pray for my promos and stuffs... hee... den shop at orchard lor... bought necklaces... hee... some details... cut cut cut... haha... =)
den go granny's hse... durians... yummy... so qiao... lucky they haven ate finish... haha... =) hee... left one fruit... not bad ar... hee... nice... =) den boy boy is so gd today... so cute... he called me "ah ji"==> means sis... haha... so cute... gt dimple somemore... bonus... haha... grow up sure is a shuai guy... haha...
dinner... eat out... duck rice... at jin shan leng... not bad la... although m nt tt hungry... i like the soup... hee...
granny gave me a pink hello kitty bag... although m nt v fond of pink color... but the bag is nt bad... nice... useful alr... although striking... haha... i used it ytd....

monday...
moring... went tp lib to study... wah... a table also need to snatch... haiz... sorry desmond and sham for not booking a seat... cos... really can't... haiz... quite productive i guess... finished motion in circle tutorial... a few qns i dunno lor... haha... =) eletrode 1 left one qns... haiz... dun feel like doing...make a fren call Deviana... sweet... cute... cheerful... =)
went jogging in the rain with sham... completed 4 rounds... too bad no shuai ges... lucky dun have... see me in this state... they ran away... haha... =)

bad news...
CAIRNS, Australia - Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and conservationist known as the "Crocodile Hunter," was killed Monday by a stingray while filming off the Great Barrier Reef. He was 44.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20060904/ap_on_en_tv/obit_irwin
sad... daring, and interesting... informative shows dun have alr... haiz... talent and daring guy...