Cycling

27 June 2010

I had a great day today with my cute cousin Ben. haha!

We had agreed to meet at 10am to cycle at East Coast but I only woke up at 9.30am! I only reached at 12pm. Opps!

Had a long and continuous ride for 2hours. We cycled till the path where we can see the planes depart and alight. Ben knows a lot about planes. He is a knowledgeable boy who knows about cars, planes and bicycles at the age of 13. I'm impressed seriously. He got an ambition to become an aircraft engineer. Not bad. He already knows what he wants in life. Whereas for me or maybe in fact many of the people out that, still doesn't know what they want in life.

He said I cycle very slow! Angry! Ya la, my stamina is not very good, need to train. On the way back, my pedals are getting heavier, I think is due to the fatigue. But anyway, we reached back on time. =) Had a great time cycling and enjoying the wind! =)

Then, we wanted to grab some drinks at Koi, but that Ben kept saying that the milk tea is not very nice only the ice cream is nice and I led the wrong underground pass. Suppose to go to the parkway parade. So we settled at Coffee Bean for a short break to spend my $5 voucher. I ordered Tiramisu Cake while Ben ordered yoghurt. Nice, not bad.

We went to eat shake sushi after that. Thanks Ben, ordered so much food. I had raw salmon! Yummy! I realized Ben doesn't eat sashimi. But he likes the egg mayo sushi and gilled salmon. We didn't manage to finish the food we ordered. Opps. We had ice cream for dessert at Scoopz. He treated me. Thanks. =) I had a mess from eating the ice cream. Haiz... So full! =) But I'm enjoying it. =)

Jamie spotted me at Koi while we were heading off to bus stop. I walked back to say hi. Haha! A bit quite lame.

Had a great day! =)

28 June 2010

Today is an emo day. I met Shu Wen today. Saw Mr Mike & Derrick too.

I don't feel like going to the ball on Friday. Thinking of my eye candy aka my dream guy, feel a sense of pai seh.... Isabelle told me to take photo with him at the ball, last year already. Wah say, a sense of pai seh filled over me. haiz. She told Mr G can't be together but still can be friends. Wah say, she is so straight forward and knows about how she feels. So good. Not like me, waiting for an impossible guy. I shall move on!

Okay, enough of emo for the day. Shall move to something more useful like studying for my test on Thursday.

What shall I wear on Friday?! Ma Fan!

Shall sign off. Bye! =)

Sam

Facial

I went to office today. Should be a successful one. Yap. =)

When I was walking back home, a lady approached me. She approached me a couple times previously but I just walked away. But seeing her so persistence and having to approach me so many times, I went to the shop with her. It was a facial shop near my house. I thought to only take sample from her. But she told me to take up a package. Okay, you know I don't really know how to reject people. So I agreed to do only once today. There goes my $75. I did signed up for facial package before and found that it was so time consuming and tiring. I'm way too lazy. So too bad.

I thought I can go home early and rest. But anyway, the facial was not too bad. I don't know how to describe. I was quite satisfied with the treatment, massage, got one part is the electrical thing then got the cold effect and one part to clean my pores, that part is the most painful part. But I was not quite satisfied with the last part where I can feel the consultant is trying to rush off. And I think it is a difficult consultant where this one is more rough, I don't like. And they have some internal conflicts among the consultants, they spoke in Cantonese. They think I'm little kid doesn't understand. There are these two consultants were bad mouthing this other consultant. I don't know who is right and who is wrong. But I feel it is quite negative to talk bad in front of the customer.

After I finished my facial, got one lady told me to ask up for a package. I said no for like 3 times and finally she let me off, she was damn unhappy la when I rejected. What a good customer service huh? I feel bad about rejecting her, but she doesn't need to give me attitude right? What the... I thought I will patronize the shop next time when I have the time or in good mood or what so ever. But now, don't need anymore.

Thanks Billy for delivery of tou hua to my house at 1am. haha! =)

Cycling in a few hours time with Ben. =)

Seeing Shu Wen later. =)

Haven't start studying for my test on Thurs! Shall start soon!

There is a graduation ball on Friday! What shall I do?

I watched You're Beautiful now at ed 4. Not bad, recommended by Charmaine and Pauline. haha!

okay, signing off! =)

Sam

Not a great day

Today is rather not a good day I guess for me.

I had only less than 2 hours of sleep last night I think while preparing for my taxation test today. And I think it is not very deep sleep.

I think I accidentally fall asleep at 4am plus while I was reading my lecture 4 notes. I still haven't finished preparing for the taxation test! I'm so dead meat.

I was dead damn tired. It was raining heavily as well. Haely called at 7.30am if I remembered the time correctly. I think he wanted to give me a wake up call just in case. Today taxation test as 9am, ya, I had a bad record for being late. Thanks uncle. Anyway, he won't be seeing this post.

I don't have the time to even have breakfast. Damn!

Raining! Damn! I feel like cursing and swearing! Okay, bad temper must be due to the late nights I have these couple of days while preparing for the tests.

It was a really heavy rain. I was drenched by the time I reached school. I was late for the test! Damn! Only one hour and I was late!

During the test, I was so sleepy that I nearly fell asleep! In the end, I didn't manage finished reading the questions. I ti gum most of the questions. Nice one... I hope it goes well....

Went for lunch after that. I was really hungry! Obviously, I have been hungry since the day before...

Went to bah gu kat with uni clique... Aaron got a new red car, along the way, he kept teasing me and my dream guy... thanks wor... He is only my dream guy like I said... maybe Wan Hui will understand this. Anyway, she is also not reading this post... and ya, I saw the time wrongly and yet he stopped the car on the slope to tease me again . Thanks wor...

I felt like laughing out loud at the table while eating bah gu kat when they talked about.... haha! But I can't, because it is a secret. Now I know keeping a secret is so hard! omg!

I went home to sleep after that. I was so tired! After I woke up I felt hungry again. Oh my tian!

My mum came back and told me there is milk in the fridge and asked why I didn't make my avocado drink. I didn't realised there is milk in the fridge. I think my dad bought it in the morning after he went for his jogging. If only I checked the fridge this morning, I won't go empty stomach to school. Dad is so sweet! =)

So I made avocado drink! =) I love it! =)

I shall rest well today and start studying tml! =)

Sam

23 Wed 2010

International Finance Test! I hope I can do well!

Had Lunch at Subway! ... Then celebrated Haely's belated birthday. =)

Pon lesson for the day... went home to sleep... I stayed up late to study International Finance.

My cousins, aunties and uncle & grandma came. The naughty boys were so noisy that I was awoken.

Seen the Batam photos. My mum kanna go Kart crash. Haha!

Showed the boys my 21st BD celebrations too! =)

Then Ben asked me if BMW is my dream car. Keke! yesh! my dream car! =)

From there, I got to realize he really does know alot on cars. I'm impressed!

He is only 13. 3 more years, I can wait!

Stay start my taxation soon! =)

Sam

Dreams

Let me share a story today.

There were these two brothers who inherited an old bungalow from their dad who passed away. They discussed about their dreams that they want to live in big house and thought that the old bungalow that their father had left to them was not fantastic.

Therefore, they decided to sell the plot of land and in search for their desired house. After weeks and months of searching, they finally found one penthouse that they desired. It was at level 76, the highest level of the building. They spent another week doing packing up.

Finally, they shifted all their belongings to the building and as they were about to take the lift to move their belongings to their penthouse, the lift was out of order! It would take some time for the lift to be fixed so they decided to carry their belongings all the way up via the stairs.

When they reached the 10th floor, they felt tired and considering if they should give up and come back another day. However, they persisted on as they think they already climbed up 10 levels and moving down would also be as tedious as climbing up. When they finally came to the 20th floor, they felt very tired. If they gave up now, it would be a waste, they already completed 30 percent of the journey to their house already.

Therefore, they decided to leave some of their less valuable belongings and continue to climb up the stairs. They may come back other times to collect back. They encouraged and supported each other throughout the journey and also left some of their belongings along the way to make their journey less weary.

Finally, they reached the 60th floor. They already perspired till inside out and they are so exhausted that they decided to leave all their belongings and only carry with them the most valuable luggage with them.

Eventually! They reached at the doorstep of their dream house! The younger brother was very excited and called out to his elder brother,"Bro! Faster! Where is the key?" However, the key was nowhere to be found. They have lost the key along the way.

So what is the moral of the story? The floors actually represents the ages of our life. Initially when we first started off, we have lots of dreams and goals but along the way, we started to let go some of our dreams and goals in life. Why? We gave ourselves lots of excuses like we are tired, no choice, we have to give up. When we faced with rejections and challenges, the easiest route is to give up. And ultimately as we aged we tend to live day by day without any goals in life and let the days just passed by. Therefore, along the way, the brothers have lost their key to their success.

Hence, whatever dreams and goals we have in life be it when we are young or now, hold on tight to them! That is the purpose we live for, to achieve our goals and dreams in life! =) Never give up on your dreams! =)

Time to study!

Kbox- cancelled

Dinner- cancelled

Cycling- cancelled

Nice one... It is okay! Always next time! Get back to study! =)

Hey!

Hey! I'm back once again. Seemed like I only post once a month. Well, my life is as usual. Up and downs meeting lots of people. Emotions have been up and down as well, I need to learn to control my emotions. Practice! =)

I wonder how does it feels like to like someone? If I like him, why don't I feel anything when... I did feel something in fact but I'm surprised myself too to react so calmly... my pri sch best friend wanli said I don't like him that much... I guess ba... haha! anyway, life still moves on! The advise I got from Seow Ling the other day in Mos Burger if I rmbed correctly when Shang Yi and me celebrated her belated BD is that don't fall in love with a guy until he loves you. Yeah man! or else, you will be very painful! LIFE STILL MOVES ON! THE EARTH STILL SPINNING with or without you.

I accompanied Rainnie to buy her nail polish. Then, ended up I become her ginnea pig to try the make up, the nail polish... Thanks ar... but she is good in helping ppl to put make up... and she said I should put make up, take care of my skin... then guys will like me more...cos with make up I look prettier(an shiok!) If guys only judge you by look, doesn't it make him shallow? I believe there is a guy who will like me for who I am and treat me like a pearl. When will that gut appear I wonder... I used half an hour to remove the make up after I came home... oh man, being a pretty lady is so difficult...

I need to open up myself more! I miss you guys man! You know who you are! Loves! =)

Iron Man 2

Hey yoz! I'm back! =)

I just watched Iron Man 2 alone. Ya, alone. It was my first time watching movie alone and it was a great experience in fact. You can say so I'm being emo and I always am. Haha!

It was a great movie. He is a guy that is so carefree and knowledgable. Haha! =) But I prefer IP man. Keke! Ye Wen, a man with few words but wise & respectable. If only I can meet a guy like him...

Both highly recommended movies! Should go and watch! =)

Had a great time being alone... maybe you can say I'm a big time loner... had a cup corn that I had been craving for, for a very long time... still got my ice cream waffle and soya beancurb! I haven't eat those! my craving! I'm hungry again!

Weather is hot big time! Do drink alot of water! =)

A new & final semester had began... I shall go all out for this semester! My last and final one! Jia you girl, you can do it and you always can.

Been having lots of thoughts... thoughts about my future... and so on... First day of my Derivatives lesson this semester... One of my favourite lecuturers... I only have two in my current school if I'm not wrong... He made finance sounded so simple to understand... totally like his lesson... He said that if we want to go further studies or what so ever, do consider CFA... that seemed to bring a great impact to me... and I'm considering in fact... haha! =）

Maybe it is great to be alone... It has been two years since I shifted here... I came to realised that I had a great neighbourhood... with Mac, KFC, my beloved Subway, Pizza Hut and of course entertainment threatre... Although the cinema is a bit cui, haha! I can come here alone whenever I'm emo to catch a movie...I finally found a place! haha! =)

It is like a year or maybe more... that I shall give up... stop holding on to something that doesn't belong to you... it is time to let go... it hurts and tiring... I shall learn to let go...

In work, I learnt that I shall not be a fortune teller that you will never know who will be customers and until you talk to them, you will then will know... But in love, I think I will always be the fortune teller that we are impossible and never will be possible...

It is time... for me to learn... it is time for me... to let go...

All the best to all my bubbies who are still having exams! Hang on soon! =) Shall meet up! =) Jia U! =)

Sam

Desire

I learnt something today that is... 不是能不能，而是要不要。That means it is not a matter of can or cannot... is a matter of you want it or not... is how strong your desire for that thing... how strong you want that thing...

想要cycle, 享受风打在我脸上的感觉。。。

Feel like eating Subway... hehe! =)

see ya den! =)

Down with Love

This few nights been watching Down with Love. Totally funny and cute! It is an enjoyable drama! Must watch! =)

I'm Loved

I know I'm always LOVED...

Thanks everyone for your concern! =)

I'm fine and still fighting hard...

sometimes I find myself unable to express myself...

sometimes I just like to act strong and seemed like nothing is wrong...

But my mind is going crazy!

But I know I'm always LOVED!

Thanks everyone! =)

烦

我很烦， 我应该怎么办？

我的心声，谁能了解？

要和谁诉苦？

CNY 2010

I had a really great time back in my hometown this year...

I had a different feelings this year...

I used to hate going back to hometown as it is dirty and dusty. But I learnt something that is home is really where I belong... I have learnt to appreciate the things and the people I have around me and adapt to the environment and culture. Thanks, I have become a better person over the year I realized.

I remembered last year, I had a sulky face as if people owed me a million dollar when I was back home because I really did not like going back.

Over the one year, a number of things changed to make me realized how fragile life is and I begin to appreciate the people who have come into my life.

Anyway, back to my Chinese New Year celebrations. On new year eve, I went back. I had a new hair cut there. I like to have my hair cut there as I don't know, always seemed to have a relaxing feelings. The people there always seemed to be so calm when comes to cutting hair. ha ha! Anyway the guy who helped me cut my hair is kind of cool. ha ha!

Since the night is still young, we went to pasir paki (night bazaar, I don't know how to spell it in Malay) to walk walk. Again, it was an eye opener although it wasn't my 1st time walking. It seemed a little difficult from Singapore version. But nevertheless, I bought some good food to eat! yummy! =)

Finally it was chu yi already. 6th Uncle lighted the fire cracker. Wow! That was loud! ha ha! =) It was a custom for our house already to light a fire cracker on the new year. And it had become a routine for our family to go temple that is nearby after that. The temple had lion dance as usual. The crowd was larger than usual and the lion dance was longer than usual. But I enjoyed it! =)

Day 1, I went shopping with my mum and cousin. Bought a few new clothes finally! ha ha! =) love them! =) then went to 拜年。Went to 3 houses. supposed to visit 4, but due to mis-communication, one car which is my car didn't go to the 3rd house. But nevertheless, love the goodies at each house and the decorations. Ha ha! =)

after 拜年, I was allowed to drive a manual car back home. although it was like only 2 streets down? ha ha! with my dad besides me with guide of course. But he was more nervous than me. after like one year without driving... ha ha! seemed like a bit got rust already. But it is a good experience for me! Thanks to uncle for suggesting and allowing and my dad for guidance and the passengers like my mum and 姑婆 who actually dare to sit in my car. ha ha! =)

we had BBQ as usual for dinner. Satays like every other years, but this time we had fishballs, chicken wings and hotdogs as well. I didn't eat much as I went to buy fireworks with my brother and cousins. Had a fun time as well! And when we were back, there were nothing much for us already although there is still beef satays. but oh gosh, I don't eat beef. Haiz!

Day 2, seemed to be a bit. Grandpa went for kidney dialysis and he was feeling tired after that. We don't really have much activities today. My family and I took afternoon nap as we were too tired and it was so warm! We watched TV programs in the evenings.

Day 3 preparation to come to Singapore! Went shopping and dinner at City Square 1st and bought my beloved egg tarts! =) Home sweet home! =)

Yeah! =)

病了

我好像病了。好辛苦阿！

我今天才发现到原来在我的记忆里有着那么多你的回忆。

Going back to Johor in a few hours times... tired...

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year & Valentine's Day everyone!

Sam =)

爱

何时可以遇到我爱和爱我的人？

Camellia's BD

Had a great time at Camellia's house. Good food, good cake and good singing! I sang my favorite JJ songs once again. Ha ha! Till my friends are pretty sick of me, of course not sick of the songs. Cos JJ simply rocks! Love him! =) he he!

If only I can express my love so simply to that guy, life can be simple. ha ha! Life is so not simple because of my pride and my selfishness. I decided to keep it a secret from him. A secret he shall not know.

21st... I wonder why is it so special? It marks the end of our teenage life and start of a new chapter into the adulthood. But I asked Wan Hui when she reached 21, how does she feel? She doesn't feel any special the second she is 21. Just another day of her life.

Going to have a party? This question still ponders in my mind. I don't really like to make myself tired on that day especially it is my special day, my birthday. ha ha! I just hope to pass-by with my close friends and family. To me, family and friends are everything to me. It is my wealth! Without them, my life won't be filled with colors anymore. Thanks for being part of my life and being there for me whenever I need you! Thanks everyone! =)

I shall go and do my essay already!

Seriously hope I can manage my time! All the best to me! =)

For u, I shall live! =)

Full of thoughts

After the farewell party at Jael's house, after my friends sharing... I seemed to realise people have lots of thoughts and their love life is pretty complex.

I doesn't have relationship before, so I don't know the feelings about it. But why is it so complex? Because humans are complex. We have thoughts and feelings or emotions and that is why, this whole relationship thing become complex. Oh man!

I thought I'm someone who thinks a lot already but yet there are more who think much more than me. haha!

But anyway, had a great time at Jael's house. Hehe!

That guy is only my eye candy... I don't know he is the right one for me... yap...

The guy who I like or love... is already in my heart I guess... haha! that part I also not very sure... Love and relationship are complex...

okay... be simple.... sleep... study... work... that's all... =)

See ya! =)

=)

All the best to me! =)

Essay

Had been searching for articles to do my essay... Just to conclude, politics is simply... chim...

All theories based this sem... Jia you ba... theories always not my strong point...

Tired...

Wondering, wondering, wondering...
I like him???

My heart

I miss you....
I want to see you...
I want you to be by my side...
The feelings seem to be growing each single day...

Schools day seem to be getting busier each single day.
Summaries, reports, projects, presentations etc...
I will continue to fight! =)

=)