Bored

Oh my... feel like dying already... feel so tired and sleepy... let me destress here... wah... a week of torture... finally came to an end... there is more to come next week...

the day before maths...
I went to bed early... but simply can't fall to sleep.... my chou gong didn't come and find me... maybe because of my biology clock is mixed up... see... who ask you to always sleep so late... serve you right... wah... the next day, I was pretty tired... but I was rather early for school... Shang was like souring me... whatever.... I only did 5 qns out of 11 qns... wah... what a nice job to do... I can predict I'm going to fluck this paper... haiz... maths used to be my strength... yea... used to...

my brother asked me maths yesterday wah... then I laugh at him... such an easy question also dunno how to do... emaths nv had been a problem... since now... wah... what is the problem? NOt enough practice? don't understand? I tried my best to understand them k... so tired and tired...

next.... tuesday is chem.... wah... so another paper that erm... ya... you know... nvm it man... formula I all forget already...

wednesday... econ... at least better... mention to finish... and crap my way t a way to train my crapping skills...

today... phyiscs... oh my goodness... not even a single qns I'm confidence about doing it... all guess guess one... see the 1st qns already feel depressed already... cos dun even know how to start that qns....

finally all these came to an end...
went to eat with wh at j8... at food court... then mad came along... I learnt something... actually when you ask what you want to eat, you already have something in mind that you want to eat.... but why still ask?? haha... so weird... if we just say what we want then time would not be wasted? I ate grilled saba... a lot of bones... but not bad... but there is still room for improvement... the green pea too hard... the soup is too salty... but overall still not bad.... the ban mian I ate the other day also not bad... got my parents' standard but their skills are better... haha... =)

went to buy something... hee... it is a secret... =)

then mad has to leave for her piano lesson...

went shopping I mean window shopping... to see got any dress for prom night... before the GST rise... but ya... the clothes not to our liking.... you know how I but clothes? a feeling... a feeling that yes, it is this one... I want to buy tt kind... yes, there is a few nice one around but simply don't have that feeling you know...
I tell you ar, I want a glass shoe... haha... that is what I told wh... then hor my prince charming will pick it up for me when I drop one of it... wah... day dream...

I learnt something today.... there is a mixture I think called purple gold...ya... the jewelly got such mixture and it is purple in colour... so nice... =) then.... wah.... one diamond ring cost how much? $4000 plus... wah... so xxx.... wah.... why pencil so cheap wen diamond and pencil are made of the same element.... haiz... weird... okay... my fan is spolit.. I'm so warm now... haiz... gotta end now... bye bye! =)

Going to school reopen

exactly 2 more days to school reopen and our 1st paper starts! oh man! I dun want to think about it... I going crazy... I still got many topics haven't finish studying... why why why?

Today have group study with Shang and lou... and I was late again... sorry shang... haha... should be used to it by now... whatever...

Process was slow as usual... I only finished 2 econ notes today.... really sian... I'm going crazy... ya... read half way dunno why laugh like mad girl in the library... that is the result of studying econs... haha...

Keep having weird dreams recently... and dream about people who are not even close to me... that is so weird... i dreamt of my shuai ge the other day... wah... kanna shocked and woke up... why the world I dream of him... so weird... my J1 volleyball shuai ge... haiz... not interested already... cos... all my concentrations goes to my studies... yeah! and my precious time to my family and friends... they need my care and concern more than anything else... =) I'm learning... growing up... =)

keep having deja vu? ya... so weird...

keep thinking of weird things also... keep experience weird things as well... nvm about that...

haiz... so little time to do so many things... sian shang jia sian... jia u ba nu ren! =) yeah!

will update more when I have the time... just finished checking my email... wah... 1.11am already... on my clock... so tired.... nights... tml still gotta wake up early.... haha... =)


Happy belated birthday to Eng Seng and Guan Kuan! =)

Advance happy birthday to Chee Heng as well! =)

Thanks

All in all I wanna thanks my friends who are there and not there physically... a time of emotional stress that I had been through... tried my very best not to think about it already... thanks! =)

I had a great day ytd... thanks to shang... lou... mad and sl... went to UK fun fair for bumper car ride... wah... almost went out of my seat... so unsafe... only 6 ppl riding... plus one small boy boy... wah... he stole my blue car lor... whatever... see u small... I rang ni one... then try to win tigger for mad... but can't even throw one onto the plate... haiz... mission failed... went for the ferris wheel ride.... lou didn't come in... cos her dad didn't allow... okay... at 1st everyone was like a bit scare cos of the height I guess... then... after that used to it already... we started to take photos... then... wah... after like more than 8 rounds already... a bit sian already...got more than 10 plus plus rounds... almost puke when coming down...

I was rushed to go grandma's house... which was near mad's house which was pretty near the UK fun fair as well... went to eat dinner... then... went j8... hahaha... went NTUC... then went for dessert... peanut soup... and other soups... got shark's fins as well... haha...

happy day! =)

I'm so glad there is still my family and friends around with me... I feel so safe... thanks! =)

Today's horoscope:
The Bottom Line
There isn't enough time to finish all your work, but you won't be overwhelmed.
In Detail
There isn't enough time to finish all your work, but you won't be overwhelmed.

I think today horoscope a bit... ya... dotts dotts.... obviously I know there is so little time for me to finish so much things... I still have my chem... physics and econs have not even started... I will just do my every best I guess....

no matter what... you reap what you sow...

and I still believe in this line...
~The world of achievement has always belonged to the optimist.~
J Harold Wilkens

Happy Birthday to Kit! =)

Revision

ya... I started my revision... a few days ago... one day one topic which was way too slow... haiz...

whatever is it... i did vector today... only maths can moviate me right now... I tried to do phyiscs and chem but these two subjects really bored me... whatever...

My passion for math will nv die off... =) I hope ba... =)

I really like this sentence...

~The world of achievement has always belonged to the optimist.~
J Harold Wikens

but rite now... I have to believe in this...

~Who works achieves and who sows reaps. ~
Arabian Proverb

long time

It has been a long time since I blogged...
well... the reason is because the modem had been confiscated... due to my bro kept playing computer.... and I am always not at home as well... weather so warm... need to drink plenty of water... or else... sick... which is not a good thing... okay... see ya! =)

~The world of achievement has always belongd to the optimist. ~
J Harold Wilkens

Too much

So many things happened recently... one moment, I was in a happy situation, where I could laugh and enjoy and crap with my new friends... I was really joy that day... feeling great... but that night... I wasn't...

I thought I was strong... but I was wrong...

I walked deeper and deeper... I felt scare with each step I took...

When I saw him, I was depressed. I could feel his pain, his misery, his wu nai, his regrets. his fear, all at once. I don't know why I felt it, I just feel it. From his expressions. When people are in pain, I guess they simply can't hide anything.

I was heart ache. I felt my scare, I feel my shiver. I feel my temper. I don't want to see it anymore. Tears starting to form in my eyes sockets. I thought I could hold it all. But I can't. I simply can't.

I get go of them all. That was the time, I felt I was weak.

What is death? I simply don't know.

Sorry that I had made everyone worries. I really sorry.

I was fine the next day. went to the temple to pray. I really hope everything is just fine. Why can't life be simple? Now, I understand how weak human is. I always thought we can control our lives, I thought we can control our fate. Guess I am wrong.

Today, I feel that I wasn't my normal shelf. but I was trying to act normal. way too normal that I thought it is not normal. I felt that I was simply not myself. Whatever, I was simply tired. I don't know who I can talk to.

I won't forget that night. The misery night.

I'm just tired. Tomorrow I gues, is my official day to start studying for mid year if there is nothing goes wrong and provided that my mood does not go in my way.

okay, shall start on my SGC already... see ya! =)

~Initiative is to sucess what a lighted match is to a candle. ~
Orlando ABattista

lagging

why is it so lagging? I think Internet seem to lag in the morning...

suppose to go jogging with sham this morning... but saw her sms this morning that she sent last night that she is not feeling well... take care girl...

tired and sleepy me...

lying around... you know... ya... exciting monday morning yesterday...

maybe sure go take a nap later then go collect banner... so excited about the banner thingy... haha... =)

okay... see ya... =)

~Think like a man of action, act like a man of thought.~
Henri Bergson

nice one... still haven't start to revise my chem spa... sure start now... =)

=)

haha... it is time for me to start studying chem spa I guess...

anyway, had a fruitful and really cold day! =)

~Change is inevitable, except from a vending machines.~
Bumper Sticker

So tired

So mentally tired... Brain died alread... today I had GP mid year exam... I think they have lowered the standard?

Anyway, I do hope I can pass... given more time, I hope I can write more for my essay... anyway. Time management is still not good enough!

yeah! 1st time finish my AQ.... not bad... okay...

tired... going to sleep... see ya.. .=)

might be going out later...

~Keeping your clothes well pressed will keep you from looking hand pressed.~
Coleman Cox

I'm scared....

I'm stressed up...

Nothing can help me...

Whatever I tried to do... always seemed to come out wrong... why why why?

I am so tired...

Me trying my best to help people who are in need but ended up hurting myself even more...

Me just wanted to be nice but peopl simply don't appreciate, don't trust me and suspect me...

Whatever...

I don't care already...

I tried my best to put on a strong front...

I don't want people to see my weak side...

I don't know how long can I hold it...

I am really tired already...

What is a real relationship?

I am deeply hurt...

You simply don't understand...
The more I understand you, the more my love for you faded away...

I am deeply hurt...

The more I tried to get away from you, the more you appear...

Is this fate?

If this is fate, why can't we be together?

Why is this so painful?

I am deeply hurt...

~A man is about as big as the things that make him angry.~
Winston Churchill

Tired

I am so drained...

~It's more fun to arrive at a conclusion than to justify it.~
Malcolm Forbes

~Coolness and absence of heat and haste indicate fine qualities.~
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Sian

I don't understand... the chem spa simply can't into my head...whatever... try harder! =) never say die! =)

~If you think you're the tops, you won't do much climbling.~
Arnold Glasow

Terrible

feeling really terrible right now!

what the...

so excited going to hand in the banner design for printing already. haiz... last min needed to edit....

really sorry madeline for troubling her so many times... haiz...

tired... and more tired... and restless... and simply no mood...

now in sch library...

wanted to print out the banner design... haiz...

whatever... okay... see ya then...

Feeling restless

feeling so restless today... did nothing... practically slack through my day today... all the things I had planned not done... wah... what is wrong with me... I don't feel like going to school tomorrow... can I don't go? I really don't have the mood to do anything... even though I know I got tons of work to do... but... really... I dunno what am I thinking... but... I suppose to forget... haiz... whatever... but you just keep appearing in my mind... grrrr! so angry... whatever... better start doing or else I will be late again tml! see ya! =)

~There's no ceiling on effort! ~
Harvey C Fruehauf

Busy Saturday

Didn't touch any homework on Saturday... I was real tired right now...

Woke up startled that Saturday morning, looking at my clock 8am... I was kind of shocked because I thought I was supposed to meet at 8am and I was still in my bed. But when I regained my conscious, ya, not 8am is 9am... wah... nice one...

okay... whatever...

College Day... I was kind of impressed by MS Chia... I mean she is such a commited person... I can feel her passion. She is a really presentable person, vocal... and she is pholosphical as well... I can feel her confidence in life and in herself... she can feel her care and concern for the people around her and for the society although she is phyiscally impaired. She doesn't compare with the ones who are more fortunate than herself but to the one who are more worst off... and then she thinks that she had a good life and wanted to make people worst off to have a better life... just impressive... =)

Prize presentation is kind of boring... student of the year: Lin Junwei... he said he actually used the june hols time to study... wah... hard core... I dunno I can do that or not... whatever the case... just endure is the word for me now... =)

haha... saved my lunch money... cos school provided buffet... really nice... I have two servings... haha... =)

exco meetings... ya.... major project coming up... gotta get things done...

after the exco meeting... meet madeline...

then went to her house... wanted to do some work... but ended up playing com... watch you tube...

200 pounds beauty... watched the ones that I can't load at home... it was an okay show I guess... I think it really relates to the reality... well, you can't deny the fact that beauty does have some advantages, doesn't it? well, for the ugly and fat, people tends to look down at them...
and when you date a person like that people will think that you actually don't like this person, maybe she or he is rich or you can get some advantages out of him or her... maybe that is the truth... and even if you really like that person, people simply don't believe...
they may even look down on you, you actually feel embarrassed dating this person... under pressurized, do you think such relationship would actually sustain?
come on la... get a life... when Hanna was ugly and fat, does that stupid guy actually thinks highly of her? I think he is just using her... what a freak! sick! whatever... this is a reality show... with some comedy inside... i think it is worth some watching for entertainment...

okay... then louisa came... we set off... to mac... to accompany lou to eat her dinner... saw Mad's cute boy boy... haha... =)

okay... reached yjc... went to listen to the concert band... not bad... but I have to say something, not as good as NY band... because some parts of the songs like off tunes and pretty messy, no coordination one... not soothing to my ears... I saw Barbie's husband... haha... his name is Chistopher... ya... he actually looked like Ken( Barbie's husband) from his side... he looks like ang mo lan... he looks shuai from his side... he can play string bass and guitar... the way he played guitar looked like rq... =)

take video till my phone battery flat... waiting for my harry potter... but... only play the 1st part...wah... sad man... but the play not bad... kind of funny... haha... the band concert ended off happily... thanks susanna for the chocolate and the photo! =)

Thanks shang.... haha... for the erm... photo... haha... =) thanks sl for the ticket! =)

okay... tired... shall sleep now... nights! =)

~This looking downward makes one dizzy.~
Robert Browning

hectic weekend

I predict I'm going to have a hectic weekend...

Sat: going to school for College day and... exco meeting... and yjc band concert I think...

Sun: complete my homewk...

Things needed to be done and hopefully can get them done by this weekend:

1) study GP
2) Study chem spa
3) maths mock paper
4) econ assignment
5) phyiscs spa
6) GP essay outline
7) phyiscs tutorials

wah... a lot sia... endure! everything will go thru! =)

~Boldness becomes rarer, the higher the rank. ~
Karl Von Clausewitz

Weekend coming soon

yeah! weekend coming soon again! happy! =) endure! haha...

today is happy day... =) except for in the morning... took a bus full of ppl... so fed up... the bus driver dunno how to drive... haiz... but I reached school safely so it is okay...

I wonder why humans burp? i thought is too much air so let it out lor... mad if u are reading this... can reply me... haha... i wanna know...

I know ppl yawn cos the brain not enough oxygen...

okay... gotta eat le... bye bye... =)


~Believe only half of what you see and nothing that you hear. ~
Dinah Mulock Craik

Mixed Feelings

A lots of feelings... some good ones and some bad ones... dun feel like talking too much...

congrats to Volleyball! =)

~Ambition is the germ from which all growth of nobleness proceeds. ~Thomas D English