Wednesday, February 28, 2007

Thanks

Wanted to post some photos but really can't find the time these days... also my brother has been using the com these days more often... use to play games... well, now that he is using the com more often then I would have less time for com so theorically, I should have more time for studies... like real... more time for tv and play n slack... Looking at the state I'm in, I really dunno how would I want to catch up...

Had stomachache on Monday night. Nice one. Wonder is it due to the food I ate. whatever it is, I guess I'm fine now...

On Tue, started off with a bright morning... chem lect no lect notes but Sh was so kind helped me print. but he said tt f word so many times. It really hurt my ears. Haiz... cos a guy used tt word to scold me b4...

YC was angry at LK for scolding her tt b word... but I think my case is much more worst... Imagine a person whom u like v much, then he went to scold u tt word cos u irrigiated him... u know tt word is so hurting and ya... heartbroken... yi diao lian duan le... but a guy in sch looked like him, made me think of him v now n then... real sian... sad case...

2.4km run during tennis lesson... thanks for the girls in accompanying us to run... haiz... TL said something abt J... haiz... haha... ok... thanks thanks... but I disappointed u guys... kind of guility... I would try to practice ba... and pass the next time... =)

been drinking bitter medicine for 2 days alr... ya... went to see a Chinese Doc (zhong yi) cos uncle said v good ma... better then the girl we consulted the previous time... so he brought us there... that doc is a male and got kind of weird temper... he said I drank a lot of cold water... got feng I think... then too heaty dun eat too much heaty food... diff from what the previous doc said... or I got both of the sickness? whatever... just hope my health is getting better.... =) stay healthy =)

kind of sick of the house... sick of my room... I want to shift to the new house... sick of the smoke from my neighbour... keep gambling and smoking all day... we tried to torrarent(wrong spelling, dunno how to spell)... we tried to hint alr... we at times also got direct b4... why can't they just get it? whatever, I hate smokers... Hate smoke... ya, my boyfriend can't be a smoker...

ok... kind of late alr... let me upload my photos...




This is the video of president Nathan get up the hua che... I was below the hua che stonning b4 he came...





this is ray... so cool... and v tall leh... haha... at least got 2m... he looked like a lamp post to me... but he is really cool... singing also not bad! =)



nice ribbon there huh?




People getting ready for the walk...



See the hair...kind of cool huh? they are males btw...




keke...




this is the rehearsal... the ministers came... on friday nights...




pauline pai one...


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my injuried right leg...

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my injured left leg...due to wearing of the court shoe on the 1st day...of chingay...


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accessories I wore on actual day of Chingay...


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a card given... dunno for what... heard is limited eddition...


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the tatoo on my arm...


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ghostly fingernails...


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tatoo on my face...


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me=)

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me again...


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me again... see the tatoo on my face.... I love it... so cool...


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me acting cool in the mirror...


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the way i dress... on actual day... kind of lisn rite? hiaz...


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part of hua che...


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chicken...


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what is this? a cat in zodiac?




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piggy...



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my zodiac... snake...


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god of fortune...



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pig again...



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me n pauline...


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me n her again...


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her...



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me...


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her...


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her again...



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ministers...


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president...


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slatue..(is it spelt this way??)



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kind of itchy... help me snatch... thanks pal...=)


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nice red ribbon there...


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cool guy... haha...


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him again...


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the drummer...


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the members of the band...



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the guitarist...


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the people for cosplay...



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something get into my eyes...


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my tattoo...



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my tattoo with flash...


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socks wore on actual day...


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2nd one is the pair of starrs( dunno how to spell) I wore on actual day...


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shoe worn...


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belt worn on actual day...



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the enthusastic...


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them...


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them again...


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frenz...


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uniquely singapore...


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the audience...


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the merlion...


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the merlion again...


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someone taking photo...


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shoe i wore on 1st day...



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shirt I wore on actual day...


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pants I wore...

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shirt I wore on 1st day...


tt is all... gotta slp le... bye! =)

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Chingay

Made a ridiculous decision in my life...
Pauline asked me to particulate in Chingay 2007... a cosplay... JRock.... I dunno what the hell it is... I just whatever lor... who knows I ended up in died shit...

Friday was the day of Chingay rehearsal... I skipped GP lesson... got movie screening... so good... then rushed here and there... very tired... and I did not know what the hell I should be wearing to look like grossip( dunno how to spell)... I wore pretty normal... and I felt weird in a pool of weirdos... whatever it is, I still held on and walked through the parade... my foot is hurting and bleeding due to the court shoes I rarely wore... nice one... bleeded some more... finally all the things are over... I'm really glad...

from the information I gathered on Friday... the clothes I wore were definately a no no... from what I observed... I managed to come up with a suitable clothing... haha... from this, I know I am actually an observian person and a fast learner as well huh? haha...

I had a really busy day on saturday... the actual day of Chingay parade... decide which clothes to wear... what accesories to put and so on... put make up in my cousin's hse... bought some tatoos and hair extension in Junction 8...busy busy... keep rushing for time...we met the rest... they kind of surprise when they saw me... maybe looked too different from the previous day already... we reached the reporting time late... nice one... whatever... we took our lunch packets... I ate a little because the food is really not nice... and I ate a bread earlier one... after we walked the half line, we went to take neoprint... den went to party... dance and walked around and mingled in the crowd... wow... really like disco... kind of gone wild alr... haha... =)

have a fun time and a great experience! =)

Thursday, February 22, 2007

Too many things happened...

Too much things happened... I dunno how to react....

dunno how and where to start... really want to find a place to scream... and i think this is the right place...

when the person u trusted v much, u like v much, v important in ur life, suddenly betrays u n do something to hurt u... what will do? the damage is extreme... i dun think i can forgive him... i dun think she can either... but stay strong ok... I really dunno how to react n console u... but stay strong...

I really dunno... he is once a person whom I trusted v much... much I feel so comfortable with him... consult him when I had problems in my personal life... but in tt one second... the beautiful image of him broke... I dun think I will be seeing him again... nv again... I guess... won't be revealling who he is...

gp lect... movie screening... not a bad movie... quite nice.. but den, a bit... erm... ya... vulgar... alot of f word... I hate f word cos he used tt word to scold me b4... he alr faded in my life... but saw a clone of him in sch... see the clone reminds me of him... sian... but tt one not really impact cos he is alr a past... the movie is abt discrimation... black n whie in amercia....

chem test... wah... 1st time do finish test... "JunYang"was walking up n down the LT stairs la... den I go distacted... sian... n i think his voice really sexy... haha... manly...

went for consultation... den mr bong kept shooting me... haiz... skip the talk tt i signed up for... did I sign the talk at an impulse? maybe I guess...

maybe I have been talking how others think about me... maybe I shall forget about how ppl think abt me... why shall I bother how ppl think abt me... I do whatever I like... yeah... that's the way man! that is my style! yeah! =)

Just when you think you have something all figured out in your social life, the situation will start to get foggy again. Do not get frustrated! This is not the universe playing a joke on you -- it's the universe trying to steer you in the right direction. Recent dates or social outings have made you start thinking about getting closer to someone who makes you think -- but this person may not be thinking about you. Give the situation time. Wait for this person to make the first move... this is my horoscope for the day...

ok... i think tt's it... dun feel like talking much either... see ya... =)

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Chinese New Year

I dun really enjoy this Lunar New Year... I dunno... Yes, nice food, yes I eat without care on my weight... do I look young or is it because of my height? why do they always ask the same qns every year? u sec what alr? hello? secondary? pls, I alr jc2... ask me sec what? ok, that is ok... den they would ask oh, so u gg uni rite? smart huh? as if gg to uni is smart? there are so many ppl gg uni, I dun think I really tt smart after tt... and at this point of time, I still struggling with my work... I dun even think I can handle A lvl moreover going to Uni... oh pls... what if next yr, I can't go into Uni? my parents would lose face... oh dear... haiz... why ppl like to compare so much? why my mum bothers to even tell me who n whose daughter gg taiwan to study? as if I care in the 1st place, when u dun even let me go oversea to study in the 1st place... whatever, it is a long story... ya, so what we are poor? as long as I'm happy tt's fine, dun even come n bother me or I give u cold shoulders... do rich always get what they wanted? i dun believe, they have to work for it as well... just that the poor have to work more harder I guess...

dun give me that look, I hate it... dun treat me like a baby... I tried v hard to be a good kid so as not to lose my parents' face... u know, adults always compare... why my uncle always like to pick on me? hey, I wash the dishes ok? without asking, excuse me... it is only a piece of biscuit dropped on the floor, I pick it up and clear up the floor, that's it... as if I wanted to create trouble like tt... u xin ku cooking for the big family, we knew it, no need to show attitude.. if u want to show attitude, dun show it on me... I have my limits as well...

thanks grandpa for giving me a whole tin of strawberry love letters... haha... my fav...

anyway, haiz... red packets money not much... asked my mum to deposit into my bank so that I won't be tempted to spend it... I need to save for my driving lesson fees n my uni fees... real sian sia... my mum dun allow me to wk lor... if I work part time during this CNY rite, maybe I can earn a few hundred dollars I guess... but she dun allow... sian... she said,"studies more important la... next time, u want to work, work all u want la... "

whatever... during CNY, slack n eat n watch tv... sian diao lor... tons of hwk untouch... still got chem test to study... real sian... but I promised tml I go bian nian one... so no time to study... no need to predict also can tell I would fail this chem test... haiz...

ok... now go back to pack my bag le... shall work hard! yeah! =)

Friday, February 16, 2007

Chinese New Year Celebration

haiz... nice one... com jus now got error...need to rewrite whole thing again... i think today is a long long post... because... tml I would be going to Malaysia... kind of sad...

where should I start?

ok... let's start with maths... today maths lecture is sick... tell us to copy the whole lect notes instead of giving us the notes... btw it is P&C... like that we only concentrate on copying n not listening to what the lecturer is saying... thus, lecture won't do us any good.. is tt rite?

wah... next is phyiscs... really ps... my face is really really red... i felt myself burning... really really ps... haiz... shall not talk abt it... oh man... haiz...garfield is kind of suspicious already...

sh mention smth abt garfield and yc being matching... cos both are v nosey... haha... so funny... =)

the whole cls pon the CNY celebration... haha... 1st time... nice one =)

went to eat at amk central... with yc, es, lk and gk... kanna scolded for wasting food... haiz... normally I only eat half bowl... cos I dun really like to eat rice de... n the soup kind of salty... i would give 2.8/5 for the fish soup ba... den went shop shop at the amk hub... wow... lots of stuffs! =) esp necklace n earrings... my fav... haiz... y today didn't take back math test today... den I would know I pass or fail... if I pass I would treat myself a pair of earrings... I saw a pair of heart shaped earrings, v nice... wanted to buy it when I pass my math test... haha... maybe I shall buy another earrings when I score well for my ionic eqm chem test... den I shall buy myself a necklace if I score well for block test... yeah! den I got smth to wk toward to! jia u! ya... den I realised tt lk is quite xi xin also... he quite gentleman, helped yc to take bag... den he knows i like cao ge n zhou wen xuan tt song... how he know it? so xi xin... haha... he also quite a high tech person huh? change com every 3 yrs... realised tt we all played the same toys n games during child hood.. so funny leh... bring back my memories... when I was small, forget what age alr... I saw some automatic icecream man, den I love it in 1st sight.... my mum dun buy it for me... I stood outside the shop looking at the toy... I stubbornly dun leave... I cried n scream... my mum had no choice n finally bought me the toy... of cos I treasure tt toy v much... until I was old alr tt the toy is passed down to some other ppl... gk likes to play leo one... den lk likes to play cooking one... kind of funny, imagine him cooking... den these three guys quite gentleman in total... good... haha...

i rmb one time yc asked me I really like ks is it? forget when alr... but I'm really stunned at the qns... but I replied no immediately... i dun think I like him ba... he is not the type of guy i would go for ba I guess... and er... he got 7 flaws... dun mention abt them... haha...

den after we separated... I went to buy ya... smth... dated lou to j8... thanks lou for accompanying me... haha... so sweet of her... =)

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this is a photo taken when we r walking home... we talked abt our teachers n clsmates... haha... =)

home sweet home... think later will be accompying my mum go shopping... haha... =)

haven pack my bag... kind of sian...

ok sure upload some photos...

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These are the colourful plants i saw in bugis when my family n i r shopping....

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this is the god of fortune...

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these r photos taken at yjc... at the funfair... this is the keychain shang made for me...

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the two guys walking away sadly... cos kanna rejected.... opps...

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my latest creation...

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snails I saw when I got down the bus n walking on the road... after a rainning day... snails big n small...

I think tt is all... yeah.... long post... haha... tired... cya! =)

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Happy Chinese New Year!

Happy Chinese New Year!

although CNY won't be coming until Sunday... but i dunno I would touch the com since then or not... so wish everyone an early new year ba...

ytd... got the v's day sale... we made a loss... well, I think got a few things to consider... our cost price is too ex alr... and secondly, I dun think the things we are selling are sellable as in attractive... and thirdly, way too little costumers... no flow of people, where the hell got consumers?

wanted to buy a pair of earrings for myself on the v's sale one... but... haiz... u see... ok, will treat myself a pair of earrings when I pass my math test... yeah! =)

wonder will take back math test tml or not... haiz... one part wanted to take back... the other part of me dun feel like taking... haiz...

feel kind of jealous leh for those who are in relationship... hee... but then... haiz... maybe my heart alr given to somebody le ba... I'm not tt type who will be serious in a relationship... I will be serious if tt person is really the person I really love... wonder tt person appear alr or not... haiz...

although I slept pretty early cos I was really really tired due to doing the slides... but end up no need present... I think dun present better cos half of my group didn't come... haiz... always ps me... haiz...

thanks 0617 ppl for the chocs n sweets! =) haha... =) opps... stop daydreaming...

today(15th feb)... jus came back from tuan yuan fan... haha... so many food... and liao yu shen... hee... cool huh? i got red packets as well and grandma gave me a box of chocolates... yeah! =) I will nv say no to chocolate... although the doc advise told me not to eat so much choc due to my conditions... ask me not to eat choc? no way...

econs... oh my... my essay was printed... so pai seh... ya... I seem to like econ better these days... but tt essay i spent one day to do leh... used my effort to do it one... cos I wanted to do a good job... mr bong say my grammar... haiz... but my grammar got improve le... but there is room for improvement! Jia U! =)

mrs lim say dun judge a person by his or own school, u r who are u r... this sentence makes me ponder a lot... isn't the sch duty to shape who u are as a person? but really, not all Hwa Zhong ppl are Chi-na.... like mrs lim for eg... I tot nyjc is a chi-na sch... but not at all... but in fact, they r more english than I tot... I am who I am... =)

saw j at the i-space today while doing work... haha... suppose to do wk but ended up helping pauline's cls fold cranes... taught pauline n wan hui to fold... but wan hui haiz... then 2pm her cls gone for lesson... we did some maths... too hungry le... so left... got ppl consult us for maths... apgp... sian... my weak topic...

went to buy food... then went to lt to listen to budget talk... but saw shang yi's cls... ended up folding cranes again... do some gd deeds... won't end up in hell sia... i heard tt NS men got money to take and lower corporate tax.. and increase CPF rate and GST rate to 7% in 1 July 2007... and decrease road tax... thing to ponder: if Singapore want cars on the road to be lesser, why they decrease road tax, won't there be more cars on the road then? won't the road be more conjested? more air pollution? hence leading to lower standard of living... quality of life decrease?k, den b4 it ends, we left alr...

k... think I have to stop now... so tired... gg back to Malaysia on Sat... k... bye... =)

Happy Birthday Teik-Ling! =)

the other one... hee.. next time den wish...

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Valentine's Day

13 Feb... tml is V's Day... haha... =) one month from today is my birthday!

I had a great birthday last year... all thanks to fingers... haha... they wanted to keep my birthday celebration a secret but to no avail... all because of my high sensitivity... haha...

today morning when I was taking bus... on the bus saw this news on TV... a ring in a heart shaped chocolate! wah... so romantic lor... den the ring cost US$50 000... wow... haha... I think this idea is really cool... ! =)

okay stop the crapping part... yeah! I passed my compo test! so happy and great improvement... haha... mrs lim praised me... so happy... wahaha.. I thought I would feel cos I didn't plan this compo... jus write with my intuition... ya... so maybe next time should trust my intuition and write with my intuition... haha... maybe next time I can become writer... cos writer needs intuition and inspiration in order to write... haha... =)

today quite productive leh... I did my chem tutorial finished ionic equilibrium and physics tutorial on waves... yeah! ... still left 3 tutorials on chem... one on maths... two on econs... physics lost count... think got 2 to 3 i guess... gp no hwk at the moment...

now need to rush my LP hwk and Biz thingy but my eyes r closing... haiz... go go go! come on! 3 more days only! hang on! =)

Happy Valentine's Day everyone! =)

haiz

this week has two occassions that are the Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year...

I pretty looking forward to V's day, not that I have a valentine or something... but just that... got a sale in school, wanted to take a look and maybe can buy something. You know I love to shop... haha...

Not really looking forward to the CNY... not abt the part on getting red packets and Chinese New Year goodies...every year, my family and I always go back to Malaysia... then I am not really close with the cousins there, can't really click in... got family, got boyfriends, in their 20s and 30s already... how close can we be when we only meet once a year... and I hate to create pseudo- relationship as well... and adults like to compare from height to looks to studies... wah... sian... and in addition, tons of hwk waiting for me to clear... need to bring my tutorials back to malaysia... sian diao... and also need to study for chemistry test... oh my... sian diao... I dun want to fail again...

amyway... ya... jus hope everything goes well...

k... cya...

Sunday, February 11, 2007

Another Week

Another week has gone... time seemed to have past so fast... another week has gone... this weekend has tons of hwk... but I really dun have the mood to do it... when can I have the mood? I really dun know... I failed my chem and physics test badly... but I dun really feel the pain... why? maybe I had expected it already... maths... I think I can at least pass hopefully...

Haiz... when can I get serious and focus on doing tutorials and tys... maybe I just can't focus... whenever I see tutorial... my eyes are closing...

anyway... haha... did the math tutorial again... the only tutorial that I willing to touch... haha... den ya... wanted to do some other stuff... but then... can't pluck myself to do it... anyway... when to the yjc funfair... wah... all are food... eat till I bloated already... I had fun anyway... really... with louisa, sl and sy... haha... next time then upload pictures ba... kind of lazy...

that ks indirectly shoot me short... whatever lor... nice one... sian diao alr...

wah... then tml need to do alot of things leh...
1. chem tutorial
2. econ assignment
3. econ newspaper articles
4. physics tutorial
5. biz stuffs
sian diao liao...

kkz... all the best to me ba...

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Musk

I dun like to reveal too much of my personal life somehow or another... I think I become more and more not myself already... I seemed to have put on a musk everywhere I went...

Who is the real me? I wondered...

I always put myself in other people's shoe. other people's feelings always affected me...

Even I said a billion million sorry... I dun think I can forgive myself even if you forgive me...

I am tired... I just want to treasure my life... because... just recently... just found that life can be so fragile... you do not know when you are affected with diseases or being clamped down with illnesses... I just want to live my everyday to the fullest...

uncle once said, "what's the point of studying so high when you are being clamped down with illnesses... " come to think of it... kind of true... what if, I say what if, once I have finished my uni and I had contacted some illness, then what will happened? I can't work... a burden to my family... all my studies gone to waste... all my dreams... were all by then would be really dreams... so I think in conclusion, our health is really important... a small problem in your body might be a big problem in the future... solve the problem now, dun wait!

tired already. time to sleep. nites. =)

Monday, February 05, 2007

Test

Headache... dunno is it I dun have enough sleep or it is due to the medicine I ate... headache since Mathematics... sian...

I flucked my chemistry... expected... not that I didn't study... feel so i dunno when ms sim wrote, "did you study?" as if I didn't study like that... I always thought if you have studied, you would pass... but not anymore, it is all depends on how smart you ans the qns.... but this chem paper, is like vomitting ans from lect notes... I'm not a photocopy machines... and I dun wan to become one... maybe I should try another method of studying chem ba...

maths.... not bad... i think... got pass... but complex no lect today, not really understood... cos of some distractions.... opps... haha... that J sat so near lor... then keep looking at his directions... haiz...

when yc says, "I can't believe you fall in love with this type of guy."I was like... omg... not fall... pls... jus maybe crazy or admire or what so ever... not fall...

still confuse abt my feelings abt him... but this feelings seem fading...

k... shall live my everyday to the fullest... =)

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Newspaper Collection

Today is a tiring day... ytd night I didn't intend to sleep after I completed my tutorial 14a... but then thinking of slacking so I lied on my bed, but who knows, I fell asleep... haiz... today woke up at 5.50am in the morning... can't sleep back also... sian... so I did some maths lor... tutorial 13b... who knows kanna struck... sian diao... anyway it is time for me to live...

only 5min walk from my house to the MRT... haha... since when stella's lg so gd... opps... tl commented that I wore like going hiking... did I? nvm, causal, anyway, J is not there... haha... rmb ytd night, crapping with wh about J... If J is there, I might wear my earrings and necklace... haha...

ok... ya... tot that gk n ks are not coming... who knows... although ks is late... but nvm... got come is better than didn't come... and I saw his girly side and man side of him... haha... so funny... when he knocked on the door, like so light, like didn't eat rice like that... then lk commented,"oi, you knock door can knock harder or not, dun be so sissy, knock like gk's." that is evil but kind of funny... lk character is not bad sia... haha... so funny... but too bad he is alr taken by yc...gk got bring scissors surprisingly, i tot nobody in my grp will bring one... den thinking of bringing one... but my hse no small scissors... so 4get it... i didn't bring bag also so 4get dun bother abt bringing it... I tried to tie the newspapers tgt... but then... haiz... nvm... 1st attempt is always bad... learn from failure... lucky only let yc n lk see only... didn't let the 2 shuai ge see... haha... opps...

next block... slack a bit... thanks pc n wh for the bubble tea... haha... i dun really like yam bubble tea but i love anything that is MANGO! haha... I like yam as in original, stream! yea... haha... ok... then, yc, lk n me slack under the block... waiting for the wh n pc... den we went up... den the rest can't rmb... I rmb my 2nd attempt at the 2nd block, I said I wanted to try... alvin say smth abt me being in biz club... den lk say smth abt ya jus now she tie dunno wat v lose... then I think the end... this part not interesting... skip... next... jump to the part where ks gives orders...

if I rmb correctly is the 3rd block... the way he gave orders so man... haha... opps... den wh n me crazy alr... do the 1st floor half way went up... den forget den go back again... haha... we became the lift girls...b4 that I think I made some comments abt ks... yc said she wants gk n lk one ma... den I say ok, den I want ks... den I said,"he is so man when he gave orders..." I was like opps... den go back to the lift girls part... too many things alr... we were in the lift.... wh, alivn, es n ks... den es was blocking my view lor... den I said, "oi, you blocking my view leh." den he was like blur... like alvin was like ohh... den ks was like huh, what does that supposed to be mean? alvin saved me... he replied, "ohh, he blocked her view from seeing outside got newspaper or not...so that is mean es is tall..." actually I wanted to reply because I'm short not he tall... but lift alr reach the ground floor...

oh ya... got one house v nice... but the door is widely open lor... when me n es was doing newspaper collection tgt... the house owner asked him to go inside the house to take the newspaper... the owner quite friendly... =) and we also saw one dog, one big dog... didn't bark one... v guai... but we called alr, nobody ans the door.. so weird... nvm...

den got one incident I saw one pretty nicely wrapped bear I think in bell shape... den yc take a look... then yc said, that one is for lk one... I want to give to him on v's day... den I commented,"wah, no sincerity, give him smth u make on v's day, give smth ppl give one..." then she said, "oh ok lor... den u give to ks..." omg... i dunno how to reply... stone for 3 sec I think... so paiseh... he was there lor... he said smth, "ask lk to give u a clock, he got a heart shape clock..." den yc got pissed off... when u gave someone a clock mean u want him or her to die... but I think watch can... clock can't... ya...

but yea... finished... carry everytin to collection pt... carry to the lorry... we are done n went to eat kfc... yc went home 1st... pc n wh n me stayed to eat, the guys also there... haha... den we kanna struck... ok... nvm... shall not talk abt it... haha... =)

den after biding goodbye to the girls, I went to eyes checkup... he said my eyes r in good conditions... can continue to wear my contact lens... that is the purpose I'm wearing my contact lens today... actually dun feel like wearing contact lens during collecting newspaper also...

then home sweet home...

thanks to the people in my neighbourhood... so sweet! thanks to the people who donated things... they have kind hearts... thank you v much... =) save the earth, help needy people... thank you thank you... =)

then ya... back home... thinking abt smth den fall asleep... tried to do maths... but keep thinking abt ya... hee... opps... can't hee... must haha... =) wahaha! =) ok.... had a great day today...

need to slp le... cos tml need to wake up early to see doc... haiz.... sian...hope everytin is fine! =)

cya! =)

bye! =)

Friday, February 02, 2007

Weekly post

There is so much going on in your life right now that you don't have time to be concerned with what is going on in other people's lives. Juicy-sounding tales of romance or turmoil might seem like a very welcome distraction from what you're trying to deal with, but distraction is not what you need right now! Stay focused on solving your problems and facing your challenges, and don't get sucked into any 'telenovelas' going on around you.

that is what my horoscope says...

do i poke into someone's business? dun have lor... sian... but i think i'm on the track... as far as this is true for maths... I left one more tutorial for maths... and that is tutorial 13b... which is so hard! i mean difficult...still got chem... but that one can wait... more ji shou is physics ma... still struck at oscillations... omt... haiz... econ still need to read my notes... today lesson is so chim... need to digest... but m too full rite now... feel like slacking... so many homework waiting for me to complete them... but maths always seem to be so tempting... haha... =) love maths! maths rocks! =)

someone seem to know my deepest secret... hope my sixth sense is wrong... cross my fingers...

today... seemed weird... i dunno... i always trust my feelings and I will always do... because, today floor ball, I held the stick wrongly and it is kind of weird feeling... so ya... it is really wrong... see, my feeling is rite... playing floor, someone hit my thumb... my poor thumb... still hurting now... my rite hand so ke lian... like v pain leh... haiz... dun give excuse not to do hwk... haiz... gtg... gotta go complete my maths tutorial 14a... complex no... bye... =)

Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Rotten Apples

Are rotten apples always rotten? Rotten apples are still edible, you can just cut away the rotten part, and you can eat the rest of the apple.
Even if the rotten apples are rotten, that does not mean that the seeds are rotten as well. The seeds can be used to grow into apple trees and can cultivate into new apples as well.
Using seeds from rotten apples, does not mean that the new apples harvested from the new trees are rotten as well. That has to depend on the pollination, fertilisation and other factors such as soil, water and fertiliser. So rotten apples are not always as rotten as you see as your naked eyes. Try to understand their feelings, they are not as bad as you thought after all. What they need is care and concern from us to turn over a new leaf.

Friday, January 26, 2007

Highlight of the day

haha... now come the highlight of the day...

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This is yc's 1st husband... they cohibited... but seperated... now yc is seeking a new target...


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yc... what kind of friend are you? that is wan hui's husband... 1st one... haha... the action one rite??? haha... so lame...


**note: this is for jokes and laugher only... don't take it seriously... yc is still available although her heart alr taken... but she is coming out of the hole again...so what if she alr had someone or attached or married... love is selfish, go fight for your love... yea... ok... highlight of the day is over...


now... ya... I really think my feelings for him is over... just feel a bit well, i dunno... bu she de... and I dunno... just feel kind of weird... and kind of sad... and I dunno... maybe... he is not the way I think he is... feeling is gone for him... my heart is frozen... but why do I feel sad? is it because it happened too bad that I can't take it? I really dunno... whatever the reason... what is over is over... thanks for the floorball, that my stress is gone or dropped rapidly... I sweated and had fun... ya... saw garifield and jy along the hall... haha... wah, jy's hairstyle kind of I dunno, messy... i think he needs a hair cut alr, fringe kind of long alr... whatever la... so busybody.. itchy backside... haha... ok... gtg... cya! =)

My Life

Let me introduce you to more of my personal life...


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This is the messy table I used for studying... well, I also used a small table, used since when I was young... used it when I was watching tv... but that one is now occupied by my bro's books and recently I can't watch tv due to my test and hwk so tv has to be put aside...
after weekdays, finally feel a bit lax... but then again, physics... haiz... haven started...

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This is my silly brother... this photo is he zi pai(self take) one...


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I found this daily in my grandma's house... I used it 10 years ago... 1996... wow... can you believe it... I was primary 2 at that time i guess...


let's see the content...
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I wrote some contracts inside... many of which I can't even rmb... and no his name... kind of weird...


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this is my cousin...


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and these are my cute little cousins... aren't they aborable? haha...
okok... coming up next...
these are photos taken during games day or rather during soccer... as games day is cancelled... rmb the rainbow... will always stay in my heart... i didn't take the rainbow... as such thing is to be keep in memory... this is more meaningful...

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soccer match...



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that is all for the games day... next post more exciting... haha... =)

photos

These are the photos I taken when I 1st took my handphone:

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boy boy posing for my camera...


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Boy Boy trying to take photos of me...


Jus testing my camera... taken such a place to take photos... outside the toilet...

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me and yi chiann posting...


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Took by Pei Ching...

Actually wanted to put a photo of jy de... but then... is secretly take de... so better not put... because this is public...


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This is a watch/clock given by uncle meng...long time didn't go visit him already... cos really busy...

Benedict's Birthday celebration at Benedict's house...

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Family photo... y boy boy inside... haiz...
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yum yum... the cake looks delicious, when can i eat now?


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birthday cake.... happy birthday to u... =)


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haha... come on, i will block the wind... go on sing the birthday song...



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light the candles...


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Birthday cakes and cars...

okay.... next post coming up... see ya... =)

Oh my

trying to connect my phone to the com... but it doesn't seem to work... different frenquency... sian...

Test

Test test on Monday...
Test test =phyiscs test...

kind of confused... but that is not the important thing now... now is to deal with econ test tml... and my slp... jus come here... cos my hands are itchy... haha... thinking of gp lect... itchy backside... haha... the video v funny... and b4 the actual gp start also pretty funny... haha... =)

confused... hope it would be solved asap! k bye! =)

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Test

I hate going to school... not that I don't like lectures or the people there... but whenever I see him, I really feel hurt inside. it is like a knife piecing my heart. the more I see you, the more I feel that we are totally from a different world. The more I realised that I have to be back in reality. You are too good to be true to me. My heart simply hurts. I wanted to tell all the things to you. but what position do I have in your heart? heard a voice so similar to yours... and I thought is you, kind of shunned diao... but I didn't flopped out... sometimes, although you are near, I don't even feel your presence. You are like another stranger. maybe we are strangers. different frequency... I simply hope we never meet... is this call fate?

today is not a bad day i think... because ended happy with tennis... although the teacher said I played like playing badminton... but it was fun! haha... saw both J guys... opps... kill two birds with one stone... amazing ar... during ct period, got the stress thingy... i wonder I'm that stress... got a few I kanna... like the forgetfulness, loss of hair and dun want to come to school part... haha! =) k... I don't so... my stress level is still managable... I'm really tired... really need a good rest today... den tml can chiong my chem test... yah! all the best to me! you can do it! have faith in yourself! yeah! =)

Monday, January 22, 2007

maths test

living in my "lala"land? Ya... how I wish... how I wish I could just disappear from this world... stress? I thought I'm really great in dealing with stress... hello? kidding me... I'm not... I'm often tired... fighting myself not to sleep... homework piling up day after day. I'm really tired. How I wish I could just give up and disappear from this cruel world. How I wish.

back to reality girl. haiz. stop being a sotong. but blurness can change? I dunno because I have been blur already. haiz.

my feelings for him seemed to have disappeared. why? maybe he is just another passer-by. not like the one I met 10 years ago, is he not replaceable? haiz.

seemed to have been doing maths these few days. I simply love maths, keep me thinking, my brain kind of rusty already, because when I think too hard, my head hurts. still left 2 tutorials for maths. still haven't study chem lect test. OMT! today maths was horrible! what's done is done. just pray that I passed. Haha! =) only subject i like now is only maths because chem yucks... need to memorise... physics... kind of boring you know... econ, the sight of it makes me sleep... but learn to love what you study. ya, I will learn that.

photos will upload later ba. maybe two more weeks. I know you are eager to see. Haha... =) ok... come here to slack a while... go back to my gp le... bye =)

Busy

saw the targot card thingy? haha... kind of true... I'm the lover type ba... is it? haha... think so ba... i guess... take from yc's blog one anyway...

ok... I said I update once a week rite? but I broke that... haha... so many things happening to me or rather to my friends that directly or indirectly affect me as well...

well, I think I'm back on track again I guess... because, I'm happy again... not that I love to do hwk... just that doing maths made me happy and head pain at the same time and angry I guess... maths test coming... in less than 10 hours I guess... I think I can ace that paper hopefully... haha... because it is differentiation... one of my favourite topics... opps... haha... =)

not totally on the track... just that I'm running breathlessly... hope didn't run out of oxygen and die on the spot... touch wood! haha... this week is going to be a busy week.... monday... maths test... tuesday--- gp... wed... CCA... thurs... chem test... and I haven't study chem test lor... nice one.... fri... econ test... wah.... nice one.... whole week of test... and still got hwk haven't complete.... chem tutorial.... physics one... econ one... and maths too.... wah... sian diao liao...

I said I wanna upload photos one rite? too lazy la... haha... still need to figure out how... so i think this week no time... maybe next week ba... ok... so late alr... see ya then! bye! =)

Tarot Card


You are The Lovers


Motive, power, and action, arising from Inspiration and Impulse.


The Lovers represents intuition and inspiration. Very often a choice needs to be made.


Originally, this card was called just LOVE. And that's actually more apt than "Lovers." Love follows in this sequence of growth and maturity. And, coming after the Emperor, who is about control, it is a radical change in perspective. LOVE is a force that makes you choose and decide for reasons you often can't understand; it makes you surrender control to a higher power. And that is what this card is all about. Finding something or someone who is so much a part of yourself, so perfectly attuned to you and you to them, that you cannot, dare not resist. This card indicates that the you have or will come across a person, career, challenge or thing that you will fall in love with. You will know instinctively that you must have this, even if it means diverging from your chosen path. No matter the difficulties, without it you will never be complete.


What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Games Day

Yesterday... how shall I say it? terrible day I guess... well, maybe for Physics SPA only I guess... haiz.. when I finished my graph going on to calculation already, found out I tabulate my table wrongly. OMT! haiz... gotta do all over again... nice one... such luck! that is not all la... YC and SH paja tgt and bully me... haiz... garifield wore blue today... I think it would be better if he wears white... cos his skin is pretty dark... haha...anyway, sian diao... last one to hand in... thanks yc for helping me borrow spa to copy and thanks gk for lending it to me to copy...

den break sia... carry the drinks to cupboard... thanks joanne for helping... and calina as well... haha! =) tired... walked so far to buy plastic bags... haiz... so many shops also didn't sell... sian diao...

Games Day... wah... nice one... raining... and was cancelled... I saw rainbow! I mean those who are there saw rainbow... that is really cool! at that moment how I wish he was by my side... but he was nowhere to be found... anywhere, the sale has made a profit... and I was really glad... thanks the biz club exco and the members of the club for making this a success and not forgetting my group as well! thanks for the cooperation, the help and the suggestions! thanks madeline, kai peng, sook chan, joan seow, priscilla, victor yan and shi kai... thanks guys for ur help... haha... madeline, poor girl... take so many stuffs.... hotdogs are v nice... haha! =) thanks those who buy things from us... thanks yc for helping out as well! =) hee... =)

this weekend is going to be a busy one for me... tons of hwk for me to complete, revision of test, sat which is today evening, will be attending ben's bd party... haha! =) party= nice food and cake... yummy...

wah, sian diao, napfa coming... screening lor... sian diao... okay lor... that's it for this week... might be updating tml... as I might upload some photos of the games day sale n ben's bd party... haha! =) so cya! =)

Thursday, January 11, 2007

Moral

I really dun understand. I had tried so hard. I thought I can cope. I thought I'm on the track. I thought I can get on and concentrate on my studies. But I have to admit, I don't think so. I not halfway even there. I really feel like giving up. No matter how much I tried, it seemed not to work. I really feel like giving up. I really have no energy to continue. I am so stressed up. I started to hate school...

But I hate to admit failure, admit defeat even more. Is there anything that moltivate me to go to school? I dunno. Maybe there is. Because to see the shuai teachers in sch? because to see that guy? I really don't know. I feel that I really can't breath already. I started to drop lots of hair lately. I thought it was not obious until yc pointed out to me today...

Is it a sydrome of stress? Whenever I'm sad, I tend to bottle up my feelings. I tend to cry to myself. I know it is bad. But what else can I do? I do not want to worry people around me. Especially my parents. They had enough of work already, I really don't want to burden them. Not to worry, the stubborn me will continue to work on. I believe in faith. I believe in hard work. Principal says before change your thinkings change your life. I do not want all my year delicated to books so I had made a decision that is to join bai yun gang. I know it is tough especially the block test is near. But I believe I can cope. Especially when my project has already done by then I guess. I think it is a good way to devert my thoughts in studies once a while. Not a bad idea right? I don't care if people think I'm stupid or what or my parents disagree. I simply don't care because it is my decision. I know the results. But I believe I won't end up there as long as I listen attentively in lectures and in lessons. "A"Level already started since the 1st day when I stepped into this school... just that I realised it late. But I do hope it is not too late. I believe I still have time to catch up. I have to be more FOCUS and CONCENTRATE! Jia you girl! You can do it! Go to your goals! They are waiting for you! =)

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

One week post

I decided to post only weekly... haha...

Saturday, I stayed at home did some homework, but was too stressed up and the weather is so warm. So got the cong dong to go and swim... so I went swimming in the evening... I reached the pool at 5pm something but still, the sun is still so strong... haiz... so many people also... crowed, of all ages... got young guys also, all well built! but damn scary seeing their body, strong and muscular... haha... a good way to destress myself... feel so great after swimming! =)

Sunday, went swimming again but this time I went with my family... after swimming, auntie brought us go eat ramen... I think is Japanese one... it is a store near the bishan post office, near jin shan leng coffee shop, near the NTUC also... it is at the corner, so when you passby, you won't actually notice it. but the food is not bad... quite affordable also as in normal price not damn expensive that type.... good! =)

Monday... happiest day of my life... haha... is it happiest? I dunno but I get to see so many shuai ge in one day... v happy lor... see that j guy... then after school, saw JY and Garfield playing tennis... haha... yapp, went to watch death note 2 with paul, mad and louisa... great movie! kind of sad.... cos both of them died in the end... and I dun like Light death God.... so evil... haiz... Light trusted him so much yet he betrayed him... but then again, if death note really happened, what will happen? interesting huh?

Tuesday... didn't see JY today... but nvm... I decided to live everyday as my last... and live happily... learn whatever I can and help whoever who needs help... wow, it sounds like I'm going to die soon... think again, we will die one day, it is a matter of time, just that we do not know when we are going to die... don't ever think you are still young, because you never know when is your last day... I decided not to have regret... trust my intitution and trust in my decision... I will do my best in everything I am doing... yeah! a new year with new resolutions and a new positve attitude! =)

should I say my resolutions? hee... maybe let me tell you a few! the most basic thing is to do well for "A"Level! yeah! Learn to play qin tian lor... wanted to learn during holidays one, but didn't have chance... too busy already... haiz... Earn more money... and buy more accessories for myself.... I hope to train my swimming to 46 laps... I found that swimming freestyle more xin ku leh... but my brother thinks differently... maybe swimming too much "Frog"style le ba... maybe shall train up my freestyle le... wanted to learn swimming again... but all small kids learning, then one old woman learning with small little children will be v paiseh one rite? haiz... maybe shall ask my mother to join me also... haha... den two women are always better than one... and of course to pass all my tests and exams... and I hope to achieve top 25%! yeah... that is my goal! basically is to do well for all the things I'm doing! =)

talking about basically... thought about math lecture... that teacher de kou tou chan is basically, alrite, ok... he sounded abit nervous... but I think he got improvement already... maybe he should be more prepared for the lecture... and more eye contract... talking about math, let me say more about our new math teacher mr chee... haha, his hair makes me laugh... thanks YC for your joke... muhaha... his way of conducting lectures are a total different from Patrick Poh... PP lessons always learn new stuffs, is like he always keep teaching us, then like got interesting things like that... but mr chee's lesson is more relax... is more of self working than he teaches us I think... so yap... but still, I love Maths! =) this is a fact will not change unless something changes ba...

I thinking of learning maths in U leh... then wanted to study business course also... =) I have been thinking a lot lately... haha... I think I'm on my pace now... jia you! dun give up! =)

Wednesday... today is CCA Bazaard... really noisy and crowded... as you know I dun like such thing... I always like calm and quiet place... this cca bazaar makes me think of my secondary school with Interact Club... Really had lots of time that time, because we were like fighting for secondary ones and the sec ones were like scared of us... we were acting like idiots in front of the sec ones students, but we had lots of fun! how memorable... maybe because my sec sch is much smaller so that is why I feel warmer I guess... today, ya... I had fun... performances were great and I think they had improved a lot... I signed up for "bai yun gan"because lin hui also sign up... just for fun I guess... although I say I want to concentrate on my studies but studies are not really everything sometimes... because I don't like to face books all day... I want to learn something out of the book.... that is my intention... someone accuse me, haiz, dun want to think about it already... really feel so down lor...

i dun know why, I feel so strange recently... it is like my heart is not my heart... it beats adnormally sometimes... I wonder is it something wrong with my health... or is it something else... am I thinking too much?

my proposal been rejected because of some reasons... I dunno can or can't tell... but if u interested you can ask me... so now we doing games day... also selling... next week! omg... so fast lor... I feel like dying already... still got the research project to do... really feel like dying... tomorrow got guitar... I dunno if I want to go or not... but got learn the songs I like... but end so late... haiz... really scare it will affect my studies... haiz... go or not go? still got tons of hwk waiting for me... haiz... feel so stressed up... dun worry be happy! jia u! go go go! =)

cheer up! going to get my new phone this week! so be happy! and I saw JY today! be happy! hee... =) and saw him 3 times in school today... wahahaha! =)

Friday, January 05, 2007

Life in my recent days

oh my tian. Stupid brother. I was half way typing my post and he came and disturb. Now I have to retype all over again. Nice one. Sian. So idiot.

haiz. been busy and tired these few days. because school had reopened.

let me start from where I had stopped.

Sunday. My mum cooked. Grandma, grandpa, aunts and uncles came to my house and eat dinner. Did I tell you that uncle ah meng ask me out for a movie on Sunday? I rejected. There are two reasons why I rejected. Firstly, I still got tons of homework to do. Secondly, he said he wanted to treat me. Of course I would not let him treat me. Haiz. Later, we went J8 to walk. That's how I spent my Sundays.

Monday is new year. Shammima and I went to Cheshire Home to visit Uncle Meng because it was his birthday on this day. We wisehed him Happy Birthday. Haha... =) Uncle Ah Meng scolded me lor. I think he was quite disappointed in me. Haiz. later that afternoon, I went to grandma's house because to celebrate BoyBoy's birthday. His birthday falls on 4th of Jan. The cake is nice. order from Prime Deli. Mango Cake. My favourite. Haha. Delicious. Following that, we went to Hong Kong Street Restaurant near Thomas Road. We went there for dinner. Yummy. We ate a lot of food! oh man! so full! =)

Tuesday. wah. total boring. Rush my homework! =) oh my tian. didn't rush finish. Got gp, maths and chem the next day.

Wednesday. 1st day of school. long day man! got CCA! tired. still gotta rush my hwk. rushing my econ essay till 2am. nice one.

Thursday. tired day also. had meeting with my group. then went home. actually wanted to do econ essay. but I was way too tired to do. I fell asleep for 3 hours. Did my econ essay and newspaper article.

Today. got pe. oh my tian. so embarrassed la. nvm... dun wanna talk about it alr. physics... haha... garfield. wah. 1st physics teacher in NY I think is good. actually Mr "Cool" also not bad ba. cos I understand his DC lecture, maybe it is because I listen attentively. Haha... =)

Just watched High School Musical. Nice! Enjoyed the whole school. Love it! hee... thanks shang yi! haha... =) There are some learning points. Well, when we are with our friends, or rather so-called friends, we sometimes are not ourselves. Friends are actually someone who accepts you as who you are and not creating someone that you are not. I think only true friend knows about their own friends. Their inner self I guess. They accept them as who they are and not what they are not. They help them to achieve their goals and bring them back into track when they are going out of the lane. I know they are something that everyone don't want people to know about because they fear that other don't accept them. But if you are a true friend, you will. I think what friendship needs is trust. Yes, I totally put my truth in you. Don't disappoint me. A friend is someone you feel comfortable with and you are being yourself when you are around with him or her.

Thanks Shang Yi and Shirley for the gift. hee... =)

Horoscope says I will be having good life this year and I will be waiting for it. I waiting for you... I waiting for you... haha... opps...

Tell you, I dunno why I cried when I watched the drama. MaLu and the girl separate. I normally don't cry. So emotional. Mum was looking strangely and asked, "You crying? Why you cry?"I dun even know how to ans that qns. Maybe because it is touching? Maybe the show reminds me of something else or maybe I was just too stressed up. girl, just stay calm and strong. You will get through. Don't worry be happy. Just stay positive. There will also be solution when the boat reached the shore. Create your own opportunity and win the game! Go go go! =) half and hour more to show end. I think I better stop and end here. See you soon! =)

Saturday, December 30, 2006

Haiz

Sian... just finished my compare... now watching prince of tennis... haha... so shuai... =) the internet thingy didn't die me down from watching you tube... I guess this is a long watch, because prince of tennis is damn long... haiz... ok, a source of enjoyment ba... for GP, left one more AQ to go and 8 newspaper articles...

haiz... still a lot to go... dun feel like doing maths sia... so difficult, everytime struck, only start on one paper... struck till now... haiz... tml complete the AQ and the struck math paper then go out ba... haiz... sian...

Econ, think i have to redo lor... more like writting a GP essay, not like writting economics... but I really dunno how to turn it to economics term lor... no graphs... sian man... haiz... now i think the word limits is too little le...

prince of tennis rocks sia... now my aim is to watch death note 2 and night at the museum... hehe...

my new year resolutions ( spell correctly?) haven't think of that... well... think of that when I'm free ba... see ya then... shall enjoy myself tml... ya! =)

Friday, December 29, 2006

Homework

Sian... homework for me these days... but prince of tennis lighten my days... haha... but the loading is way too slow! all because of the broken of internet wires in Taiwan...due to earthquake so it is broken i think.... haiz... sometimes, too much of rain is not good too huh?

Ytd was my mum's bd... my dad is so sweet, she bought her a birthday card, haha... =) the cake is delicious too! =)

I left two days to complete my hwk...
why two more? Friday and Tuesday...
Saturday- help uncle and got 4e1 bbq gathering...
Sunday- Family day... uncle may be planning to date me out too...opps...
Monday- uncle ming's bd... he says invite me go eat...
so that is why I left with 2days for my hwk... wednesday starts school, still got cca meeting on my 1st day... and you know what? directors meeting as well with the teachers, oh my! still no news if V's day or CNY... I hope is CNY as one of my members got lobang...

my hwk left with...
1) 9 newspaper articles
2) 3 GP compre
3) 3 maths papers
4) 1 chem tutorial
5) 1 econ long essay and 2 econ essay( not planning to do, need to hand in then do)
6) 1 physics tutorial ( dunno need to do or not, got time then do, most slightly no time)

wow... seem like alot... dunno can complete in time or not... sian... haiz... all the best to me ya? yeah! =)

Happy Birthday Mummy! =)

Happy Birthday Yi Chiann! =)

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Weird dream

I had a weird dream last night... I dreamt I was chasing people in a swarm... I was riding on a motor boat I think... I was chasing a big ship. then there was a woman and a child on that cruise... there was another guy in helping me to chase the two person... I dunno why I was chasing them... they seem to be in v pathetic state... I woke up when it was raining... it was such a weird dream... all the people in my dream, I do not know... and it was a place i never went b4... so weird... haiz... okay... enough... simply no mood to do hwk... that is why... haha... bye...

Monday, December 25, 2006

Haiz

Mad asked me to update, but I'm way too lazy to update... but anyway... today is Christmas! So..

Merry Christmas Everyone! =)

hee... update you more on my life... anyway, i wrote these crap also nobody will read, just for the fun of it... Mad will be reading I guess, and I think Wan Hui ba... you know that Wan Hui secretly reads my blog one, so my, so cunning... but she reads once in a while, so she might not read this post one... haha...

okay, went to Malaysia this Saturday, see my grandfather (father side) and other relatives... as normal... haiz... just heard abit bad things about daughter-in-law thingy... as close one ear and one eye... i dunno anything... haiz... does females always like gossipping? i dunno... if I dun like that person, I will straight away show it, I won't put on a fake smile... just because I'm a straightforward person, I like means I like, I don't like I would say it I won't say "oh, it is nice."when the fact is that it is terribly horrible... I know people will bu shuang me, but do I care? I don't. People say I have to change my attitude, but I don't find anything wrong with it. I don't understand why people like fake things so much? Isn't it the truth is better? is it because the truth is always ugly de?

See so many things I wanted to buy... but what is the use? like the accesseries, haiz... so ex... they say me spending money like water... do I?maybe... because I bought another bag again... my desired bag... hee... yap, get scolding from mum... letting people seeing the spendthrift of me... I dun understand... haiz... I normally not the materialistic girl, when did I like to spend money so much? haiz... dunno how to earn money, then spend so much money already. that is really bad. being poor is not a sine, but being poor and spending lots of money is a sine... haiz... man, I have to save up my university fees... and my 1st year still not there lor... and no hope in getting a car liscense already... so ex... why everything is so expensive... people see me the way I spend money, must be thinking, I need a partner who knows how to earn lots of money for me to spend and must know how to be thrifty... haha... why girls like to be on diet? I really don't understand as well. When there is food. you eat, maybe eat sufficient so that you won't get gastric. I'm pretty fortunate as I have food to eat, clothes to wear... why people don't eat when there is food and when there people out there seeking for food source... is it being skinny is good? Is being skinny is all beauty? I think having the right figure can already... have the what is that call? BMI... yap, right BMI can already... even you are above the number, just eat less and exercise more, there is no need to diet, oh please. and in the mean time, just hide the part that you want to hide. thanks auntie for the noodles, really nice... haha... =) she is a real cook man, she is the 1st great cook, my mum is second... oppss... haha... if I have money, I can invest in her lor... she had really great brain but simply lack of the opportunity and the right people and many other factors...

next week school reopen. and I don't want that day to come... so many things to do within this week... there is homework to be done and I merely quarter finish... I'm in died meat... still have math, econ, GP, physics.... I didn't touch my homework as you can see... nvm about that... I'm already half dead... I simply didn't learn my lesson... who do I blame in the end? All is my own fault... I dunno why I changed so much in terms of my character and attitude... is it good or bad?

I always want freedom... I also dunno why I have choosen the path to JC... do I made the right choice? I always ponder on this qns... but what is the use now? I already on my way to second year and is going to take my "A" level soon and very soon... To tell the truth, I don't know what is coming for me and I simply don't feel right about it... All I know is that, I wanted to go University. That is my goal since I was young... Maybe that is why I have choosen JC instead of poly. Why am I keep thinking about unnecessary stuffs? sian... going to temple then go shop... gotta control these time... because these time is in orchard, the stuffs are way to ex... haiz... still got my debts and fees... and all the best to my hwk as well... haha... see ya then! =)

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

photos from Vivo Cty

Photos from Vivo City


Vivo City

Haha... had a great day yesterday... another long and happy day without homework... and it still a mount everest... haiz... okay... will send my day today for hwk k... haha... 1st week of school got GP test... Omt( oh my tian)... haha...

I woke up feeling happy maybe because thinking about all the happpy stuffs when fingers and wonders meet... =) cheerful... haha... I prepared all the cards for my friends... to the friends I didn't prepare cards for, not that I didn't rmb you, just that not enough cards liao... haha... see I got too many friends liao... I dídn't send to my classmates because I got not enough cards sia... even I want to send to the girls also not enough cards... maybe next year ba... this year dídn't buy much x'mas cards or else I get scoldings from my mum again...

we (louisa- I declare my husband- cos she bought me chocolates... haha..., shang, Hui yi, pauline, mad, raja n daphne) went to Vivo City... haha... okay, tell you I forget to take Hui Yi's bd present, is like omt... I went to take... some more rainning... sian... I got really fed up, but surprisingly I was able to control my emotions and have fun... dunno why also... blur pauline took the wrong train again... haiz...

1st shop we went to the candy empire( spelling correct? dunno the name of the shop correct or not)... this is the time louisa bought me chocolates... thanks thanks... so sweet of you... haha... =) Christmas = chocolates... we went for dinner at Banquet... Fingers except Hui Yi had Japanese Food, I should have taken photos of the food we ate but I was too hungry le... only eat breakfast, of course hungry le...surprisingly, I didn't call for ice milo... everytime, i call for drink, I will call ice milo without thinking... this time round is because ah meh tea attracts me more... but I got cheated, it tasted like milk tea and cost me $1.80 for such a small cup, didn't even quench( is it this word ar?) my thrist, I go "coop" lou's drink but it was peach... oh man, I dun like the taste of peach... forget it, drink my plain water, more healthy... no wonder now, after drinking the tea, I can't sleep... that was the time when pauline and me "pa ga" together to talk against shang yi... and that was the time when my voice turned "sexy"... man, I got sore throat... punishment for talking too much... haiz... I gave the x'mas cards to everyone, except Hui Yi... cos she got my present le ma, so I didn't make her a x'mas card, then I dunno how to say, and she thought I got send her x'mas card... now I have to send her a x'mas card... the problem is I have to go and buy stamps at the post office, so ma fan... haiz... heard from the provision shop uncle that the price of stamp going to rise or risen... I dunno... nice one... haiz...

after dinner, we went shop shop... got Dasio ( dunno spelling correct or not), is a $2 shop... all selling Japan stuffs... quite cool... thinking of buying my bro's present here but nth to buy leh... as in not his taste... after $2 shop Shang's so anxious of going home, so she paul and hui went home... leaving behind me lf mad raja n daphne... poor us... haha... we shop again... hey hey hey, vivo city is so big but the stuffs there too ex... tell u the accessories there really nice.... I really want to have them all! haha... until now, I know the power of accessories...

let me tell you what happened... when I was dressing up for the gathering, I only wore the dress. then my brother says not nice... only after I wore my earrings, my necklace then he says nice... so you see, accessories are important... it spied up the way you look... I believe the chinese saying, "there is no ugly women, only got lazy women."

the thing I want now is a bag...a bag that carries on one side, normally only females carry such bag...i got two such bag, but my mum ka po one, the navy blue one, some more branded one... forget what brand... forget it lor, since I dun use it often... I dun mind sharing... another one is pink, the hello kitty one, given by my grandma, she bought it when she was in HK... she says it costs over $80... I was like... wow, she is so generous, so unlike her... opps... not that I dun like the bag, just that it was way too pinky and none my clothes goes with the bag and it was so not my character to use pink... not that I dun like pink... just that, too girly, and I'm totally not that type of girl, and I dun want people to have that impression of me as well... hence, I only used it when I went swimming... it was like omt, a 80 bucks bag only used for swimming bag, you rich ar u joker man... to saveguard from my bag, not my stufffs inside my bag, from being stolen, my mum will always tell me to use locker... sometimes, she will tell me to use other bag... but there is no other bag I can used le, cos this bag is waterproof... when I go out shopping or what so ever, I will use the black billabong bag... I saw this bag when I was shopping in Malaysia... haha... fallen in love with this bag in 1st sight... but the quality not very good, I used it for 5 times, got torn liao...but with my mum's brillant hands, it was all fixed again... now, I'm still using it, cos v useful... can carry umbrella, water bottle, books, wallet, cell phone, spect etc... now I know why my bag always so heavy...

I bought three bags these holidays... yc says those whose hands got alot of holes spend alot, not true de... my hands no holes still spent alot... haiz... two bags I spent during my work time... one of them my mum says not nice, so I dun intend to use it, unless necessary... another bag is way too big for school bag, hence intend to use it for camp and or other stuffs that need to carry a lot of thngs one or during a few days travelling, so I had only used it once when I was in the camp ideapolis 2006... so since my school bag getting in bad condiition, so I bought one... I think is pretty useful, I used it when I went to Calina's house... haiz... 1st time use kanna caught in the rain... poor bag... haiz...

wow, I dunno I'm so into bag... haha... that is what pauline says recently to me... well, my interest for now is bag... haha.. anyway, really had a great day ytd... thanks madeline for the x'as gift... once again, really touched for the gift... muhaha... =) love it so much... it's blue!!! haha... =)

another than looking for the bag that I want, I also wanted a new phone... my target phone is N73... but I also like N80... there is pros and cons to it... let me analyse them to you... anyway, nobody will read, so I don't mind talking crap... haha... N73 the camera is better, it is 3.2 megapixels will N80 is 3.0 mp... N73 is longer and slimmer while N80 is shorter and fatter... N73 is a normal phone while N80 is a slide phone... N73, the buttons seem to be easily spoil while N80 the buttons seem better than N73... N73 is cheaper than N80... both phones come in black and sliver... another phone I also interested is the sony ericsson ( did I spell correctly? )... got black pink and blue ones... but camera is 2.0 mp... is the blue color and the phone is really nice that interest me... but all these too ex... dun want to talk further liao... haiz... even if you ask, I also dunno how to tell you, cos jia jia you ben nan nian de jing... haiz...

got one time, we were separated... i think is b4 we went to the $2 shop... saw a guy at a chocolate stall... quite good looking... he caught me looking at him... omt... haiz... then I looked away... pauline says she wants to go in and see while lou and mad waited for the rest... we went to this guy stall, we looked at the chocolates, he asked, " did you want anyting?" I said in my head, "pauline, stop looking at the chocolates, answer him leh... " but she didn't ans him... dunno what is wrong with me, I smiled and shake my head and walk away... then pauline shouted behind me, "why you go so fast." in mandarin... I was too embarrassed to stay there liao... haiz... walked into a handbag shop... tell you, the bags there damn ex... the 1st bag I took is more than $500... omt... haiz... nvm, at least I have it once, and I carry it once, and I saw it once... haha... satisified? dunno... maybe thinking this way makes me happier, so why not? when next time I have the money then I buy it lor...

went to a clothes shop... pauline and me saw a dress... similar to the one I was wearing at time I think... and we think is really nice... it costs over 200 bucks... pauline thinking of trying... but I dun wan... cos pai seh... haha... the dress I bought for over 50 bucks at cbase at Junction 8...

haha... suprised that I wore dress huh? not that I dun like to wear dress or what so ever, just that is too ma fan... when I was young, I remember I wore dress everytime I went out. It was only during or after puberty that I started to change... that I think dress is too ma fan... cos always worry might "chou guang"... then later got wind blow, need to cover ur dress, cos ur dress might blow up... thus, only on special occassions then I wear or maybe a jean skirt, since jean is heavier... but dunno why recently wanted to try all the things... haha... now, when I see clothes, I not only see shorts, long pants, I even see skirts... no kidding... I bought a skirt for CNY even... big surprise huh? I think mum was also surprised... but when I tried that skirt, I had an immediate liking for it... and I receive compliments that I looked good on that skirt so I bought it... =) haha...

everywhere we went, we saw chocolates... x'mas trees chocolates, santas one, deers once, come in all shapes and sizes... all so beautiful and ex too... you dun even bear to eat them because they are way too beautiful already...

dunno why, I felt pretty cheerful and happy these days... is it because of the holidays? or is it because the way I think changes? or is it because people around me are happy so I'm happy as well? most people around me are happy but not all... or is it because I have let him go, so I felt lighter and happier? whatever the reason, just glad that I'm happy... haha... =)

wow... talk so much... kk... really have to sleep... tml devote my time solely to homework... =) so late alr... haiz... no wonder I'm tired... go go go! =)

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Tampines

Yesterday was a really long day for me... uncle said he wanted to teach me how to make the moulds and all that... so we ( Li Ming, Sham n her cousin) went to Cheshire Home... a lot of stuffs happened... well, got pleasant and unpleasant ones... the pleasant one is that I really had fun making the cartoon characters and painting them... although it was erm... kind of not good for sight... haha... unpleasant things, well, don't want to talk about it, anyway, sham alr gets over it... haha...

we left at around 1pm plus i think... because sham had to bring her cousin back home which is at parsir ris and li ming got a date... opps... haha... I followed sham to parsir ris... duunno why the rain came and go... sian... mood swing... after we sent sham's cousin home, we left the home... we walked... we passed by the downtown east, brings me back memories about class chalet... then I talked about it to sham... then in the bus, talk about our crushes... haiz... my ever 1st crush... 10 years liao... haiz... opps... I said I wanted to forget him right? haiz.. but today I talked about him to Sham, this is the ever 1st time I say about him to someone( as in my friend)... my brother long time already know I like him, but tt is long time, think he forgot alr... he got tease me about him b4... nvm... it is the past... the thing that i talk about him to my friend, is it because i'm totally over with him? I don't know... haiz...

we went tampines mall to shop... got pasa malam also... we bought cheese hotdog... we shop and shop... so many things... accessories that i love to have them all... bags.... toys.. shoess... wow... no time to finish them all... haiz... i bought my dad's christmas present... haha... now left my brother... dunno what to get for him... I once promised desmond to get him a x'mas, dunno what to get for him... hope he forgets... haha... opps...

really happy day... today after got fingers gathering... haha... go go go ... hope is happy as well... hee... =)

Sunday, December 17, 2006

testing

testing testing 1 2 3

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Uncle

Just went to litespeed... got new notes and tutorial... physics.... seriously i don't understand what mrs heng is talking, but just know that I have t download and read the notes and do the tutorial... sian... nice one...

GP...what doing the last compre... I haven't even touch them lor... nice one..the newspaper articles do till I nearly vomit blood liao... still got 26 more to go ba i think...

went to Cheshire Home again... uncle ah peng gave me a mould he made it himself... a scenary of the sea... I always love the sea... dun ask me why... whenever I went to the sea, I feel so calm and great... i gave card to uncle ming and uncle ah peng... uncle ah peng promised me to teach me how to do the mould and colour... haha... =) so what if I really like ice milo... haiz... uncle ah peng kept nagging, don't find boyfriend la... still so young... you know guys v naughty... they cheat girls' feelings... you are too young to identify which one is true one... den he always say he saw guys two timing... haiz... i know... but not now what... I say when I'm in university... haiz...

sian... so tired... didn't touch hwk... sian... being really restless... I think people are mugging now... and yet you are so slack... nice one... come on... didn't you learn your lesson? but dunno why whenever I see or going to start on hwk I fell asleep... haha... nice one.... so cool huh? bored.... jia u ba...

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Stupid

Stop all this at once!!! Stop lying to me... stop stop stop... I dunno why I began to worry about my money problems.... not that I dun worry in the past.. but this problem getting more and more closer to me and it is not getting out of my brain... I really tired... is it because of all the walking and going out that I was exhausted... or the money that made me exhausted...

I need money.... money for my monthly stupid thingy... money for my future... my university fees... I'm thinking of getting of scholarhip but looking at my result... you think I can get it... fat hope... money for the house... I don't want to say it... but my parents say they have money for the house... ya rite... as if... as to calm me down, just to make me less worry... not working... I'm not a small kid anymore... stop lying to me... I know from your worried and stressed expression, I know the truth right away... stop saying it is the adult business... Am I even part of the family? Am I? I know you don't want to make me worry, I know. but I don't know... I really don't know what to do sometimes...

the only thing I feel calm now and easy is uncle ah peng... I dunno... I can feel easy and calm with him... I can really be myself... I don't need to hide myself... I don't know why... don't ask me... he treats me like his granddaughter...

I don't why I recently feel a strong repulsion towards my homework... It had became mount everest already... and I'm still have no mood in clearng it... when work has to be done, it has to be done... you can do it! jia u! go go go! =)

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

photos taken during ecube training

Photos taken during ecube training...





Sick in the head

I really think I'm sick in the head... who the hell where got people play games late at night and till 5am some more... so late! what the hell! really sick in the head... no wonder... games can addict... Is it the same as drug addiction? or maybe much worst...

woke up 9am this morning... 4hours of sleep... really made me a zombie... you know why I woke up so early? you may ask 9am is early ar? haha... on monday, which is yesterday, I still till 12pm because nobody woke me up. today my mum woke me up because my grandma's leg pain... so I gotta bring my cousin,boy boy, to school... gotta rush man... haiz... didn't even have time to wear my contact lens... nvm about that...

when we reached the community centre, boy boy cried... I have no tissue... what the hell... I was scared... haiz... maybe h worried about popo...haiz... An old uncle, if I'm not wrong, I think he is mad's grandpa... mad, if you are reading this, do give me a reply if I'm right if he is your grandpa... he gave me a tissue... haha... thanks! =) thanks to those who console him... thanks the teacher who can calm him down... i left to buy myself breakfast... and some sweet for him... the way back home was a rather calm one... he was happy... maybe he enjoyed the lesson. or maybe of the sweet i bought him... he drew a christmas tree as well... haha... he is way too aborable already...

the fear inside me appeared when I hear no response in popo's house. We knocked and shouted... I really fear... I was screaming inside... I tried not to think of it... I don't want it to happen... not at this point... I really don't want it to happen... I really don't... I was scared... what if... I called the house... finally got response... that was the point, I felt safe... maybe for a while, that I know popo is safe... =) I asked her to go and see a doctor... but she insisted that she was okay already... so stubborn... grandpa came back home... he asked me to leave since boy boy wanted to take afternoon nap liao... I was tired too... I fell asleep on the sofa...

On my way home, the bag I like still there... shall I buy it... maybe they are waiting for me to buy.... maybe next time... I don't know... I passed by S&K... Saw a pretty fair guy, average height, wearing nike shoe... wore a white spect... maybe that is the guy that yc saw... my taste not that bad one... not one of the 3 guys i saw that day.. haha... =)

A boy approahed me for donation... selling a pen(50cent can buy alr) for $5... i was like huh? Not that I don't want to help but how much of this donation really goes to the needy... I went to such a company to work before... and I really hate it... We were given like 10percent comission or more... if we sold more, we get to celebrate and party... what kind of joke... If we want to help people, we do it voluntery and not like this... I think it is better to approach the needy ourselves than through someone esle... you never know how much of the money donated really goes to them or goes to the pocket of the company... knowing that it was a pit... I still went in... I don't know why? Maybe I just don't know how to say no to people... haiz... I have to learn to say no... even if I know it is a pit I still went in... just to make the person guilty, just to make the person came to sense in the nick of time... but I was too silly to believe that... even till now... I was way too silly... that is my weakness... I don't know how to say no to the ones who approached me for help... is it good or bad? I don't know... people say I'm kind... but sometimes, I think I'm too silly... because like this people will take advantages of your weaknesses... but maybe that is my character... I rather give than to accept... haiz... I don't know why... I think I really sick in the head already...

sick in the head... real tired... My homework still didn't touch... I can't find the concentration to do hwk at home... I will sleep when I opened my notes or book... haha... sleepy head...