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Hello I'm back!

Been wanting to go back to blogging so that my English can be maintain or improve and also to journal down my thoughts.

It has been 5 years since I last blogged.

Time passes quickly.

A quick update:
1. I got my ChFC after 5 years of studying. Yay!
All my 9 modules are 90% SDF Grants. Really thank you for the grant, so the whole course maybe cost around $3000. Although I failed 3 papers in between but I still manage to pass in the end for the retake. So proud of myself.

2. I got proposed last year on my birthday 13 March 2017 in Malacca or should I say I finally say yes! Haha! ;)

3. Our house at Marsiling is coming in the 3rd quarter. Excited. Waited for 4 years already.
4. We will have our ROM first on 28 July 2018.
As it is a weekend/Saturday, the venue needs to be outside. Oh gosh! Headache. Lots of things need to settle.
5. Our Chinese Banquet most slightly (if any) would be on 28 July 2019.

Been into losing weight these 2 weeks.
Oh ya, I signed up London Weight Management Program like 5 years ago. 5 years ago when I joined the program, I was 56kg. I went for like 2 to 3 sessions then I stopped going as everytime I go, the consultant would ask me to purchase something. A couple of thousands dollars went into this already. Also my heart was not into losing weight.

Finally after 4 years of disappearance, my consultant, Gina, I think she was the 3rd and the longest who has contacted me. I went for treatment last year. My weight was 60kg. Omg! You know weight for a woman is very personal, but since I'm willing to share. I wish I can get support from my losing weight journey. Again, Gina tried to sell me something, this time is the London Weight Coffee. She said since I seldom go for the treatment, the coffee can help in my metabolism and weight management. After much persuasion from her, I gave in and got 6 boxes of coffee. I brought home 2 boxes. I didn't go for any treatment after that last year. She did contact me after that to set appointment but I don't really have the heart and time to do so. I faithfully drank my 30 sachets of coffee daily.

Finally 2 weeks ago on the 18 March 2018, I went for the treatment again after a year.
This time round, I am determined to lose weight, become healthy.

Being in this industry, heard of many cases of deaths & illnesses. Just recently, my colleague shared with us about her client in her late 20s diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer. Is around my age. When I heard the story, I was shocked. And there is no sign or symptoms for this illness, she was just feeling bloated and thought is just stomachache or something. So went to see a doctor. When diagnosed, it was already stage 4. I imagined myself that I would have that possibility of having such illness as well. How scary!

3 years ago, my paternal grandfather passed away at the age of 86. He was undergoing kidney dialysis for the last 6 years. Years before he needed kidney dialysis, he had undergo a heart bypass surgery. Is quite a major surgery for his age. He still looked healthy and robust. However, at age 80, he got heart attack again. And because of his strong medications, it affects the kidneys leading him needing kidney dialysis. He went on for kidney dialysis for 6 years before he passed on.

Just last year, a couple weeks after the Chinese New Year, a relative of ours passed on due to heart attack. It came as a shock to us. As during Chinese New Year, he was there playing mahjong happily. Then a couple weeks after Chinese New Year, heard he had a heart attack and not long after, passed away.

This year, also a couple of weeks after Chinese New Year, a great auntie passed away. During CNY, she was already on wheel chair. She was weak, but still able to eat on her own and look fine. But shortly after the CNY, heard the new she passed away. We attended the wake in Johor.

A couple of weeks later, my dad's youngest brother passed away in Australia. He was in Australia most of his life. Even before I was born, he was already there. I didn't seen him before. My mum said he only seen him once. He was only 58 and he had skin cancer stage 4. Many said he was too young.

I have another uncle, he also had skin cancer but thankfully, he had recovered from it.

So life is unpredictable, stay healthy and live life to the fullest daily.
So back to the London Weight Management Treatment.

I book this treatment via Gina. However, on that day, I was assigned to another consultant, Stephanie. So what happened to Gina? Maybe she quit or change to another branch, I didn't ask. My weight is still 60kg. Thank God, it didn't go beyond 60kg. But it didn't go down either. I was asked to do the machine first to stimulate my lymph nodes. So one of the lymph nodes is near my groin area,  I was having cramps for the past few days, think my menses is coming. So that area is stimulated so is kind of painful. But it is still bearable for me. After that, was the stream bath, something like sauna. As there were a couple of other customers, so the other doors were open and close many times during the time I was doing the stream bath, so the hot air escaped. Still manage to sweat quite a bit I guess. Finally I was bought to another room, I was rubbed with lavender salt and then wrapped in a device that sort of generate heat. More sweating there and my heart rates increased. My face reddened. This sort of simulate doing exercises just that you need not physically move your body.

After that, I went for a shower. Weigh myself and my weight is 59.2kg. Lose 800g from this treatment. Again, this new consultant, Stephanie, tried to sign me another program which is detox my lymph nodes. She is not very pushy also because she got other customers to attend to. I understand they need to keep selling and I kind of tempted but I don't wish to spend more money on this. She shared with me what should I eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner and what time should I eat. So basically, eat light and soupy meals, don't drink the soup as most have high salt content. Dinner should not have carbohydrates and should be taken before 8pm. I brought home one box of 15 sachets coffee.

My next schedule treatment by right should be the following week but I was having my menses.

So my next treatment is on 1 April 2018. During these two weeks, I again faithfully drink the coffee daily. Tried to eat light. I tried intermittent fasting also. Like I planned to eat my 3 meals within 8 hours and fast for 16 hours. Research showed that fats are burned in your body when you fast, the longer you fast, the more fats you burn. You can drink water when you fast. But I think I ended eating more as I worried I might be hungry during the fast and also can't last for 16 hours. So I think I gave up at the 2nd or 3rd day. Oops. I also tried to do some workouts, climb stairs and jog.

On my next treatment on 1 April 2018. My weight was 58.8kg. I lost 400g these 2 weeks. After the treatment my weight was 58.2kg. Lost 600g. Again I brought home one box of 15 sachets of coffee. My next treatment is on 15 April which is 2 weeks later.

One week has passed after my treatment. I think I ate lesser, probably one to two meals a day. Sometimes heavy meal, sometimes light meals. Drank coffee at the start of the day. Realized our body doesn't require much food.

Youtube has lots of workout videos which you can follow and do at the same time. This is the one I'm following now and do them once in while. You can do it at home. It is so easy.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lQkD1b5HOPY&list=PLGj6tJC_x-77TbD-5XI0aA6plurMHg0ni&index=10

Okay until next time! :)

March

It is March already!
And I'm turning 24 in like less than 2 weeks time and guess what I don't feel like I'm 24 when I already spent a quarter of my life...

Still childish, innocent, immature...

If someone is to ask me for my age, I seriously forgot or can't remember how old I am. Anyone got there face this problem?

A recap of my 2012. There were up and downs in my life. Be it good or bad. Is a journey. My career has been picking up I guess but not to my satiation and expectation. I think I could do more or better if not for my laziness and complacency. Keep trying & never give up! Of course there were down times where getting scolded and stressed by boss and family members. But all in all manage to pull through and survived. So keep trying and never give up!!!

I have a boyfriend. Ya, is uncle Law. I don't call him uncle anymore as he doesn't like it. We have been dating for coming 8 months coming march 13 on my birthday. Well, just feel kind of strange of how we met and how things seemed to work out. I think most of my close friends know how I met this person. But I want to say it anyway.

We met in a social web which I can't even remember the name like seriously. How I get to know this social web is through Pauline. I remember that time I said I wanted to have a boyfriend, want to get marry and have kids. Well, I think differently now I guess but that's another story. So she invited me to this social web. I was pretty relunctant at first. Then I thought maybe I could make some friends or they can become my business clients. So I talked via msn to many difficult guys. Some are like brothers, some are really desperate some just totally wanted to avoid. But there is this one guy, it feels like we knew each others for years, we could talk anything under the sun and he is just different from the rest. It is like you met a lot of insurance agents and they feel like they are trying to squeeze your money but there is just this person who is concern for your welfare and cares for you.

He said that our first conversation is when I said hi and he saw the msn when he got back from his jog. And we talk about Panadol  He said he still have the saved conversations on his desktop. I remember we have this conversation but I don't remember it is our first conversation. Maybe I mixed him up with some other people. Haha!

And we talked for quite some time on msn and he asked me out. And I agreed. Pauline said he posted on his fb stating he is happy. Maybe it was just coincidental. We met on the train, we went to watch a movie followed by Japanese food. Nothing spectacular happens, just feel super awkward as we could talk freely over msn but face to face, we always have this awkward silence in the air. My first impression of him was he is a shy and nice guy.

Never would I imagine he would or could be my boyfriend. Because he is not my type.

We met weekly or fortnightly after that and we talk almost everyday via MSN.

There were times he stepped the line of friend zone. So I asked around my friends and I concluded that wait and see. 顺其自然. Time passed and my feelings become confused. I consulted my close friends again and they said that he definitely likes me but me? I'm not sure. He is a nice guy and all but... I'm confused... One of my close friends said to me if one day, he says he likes me what would be my reply. She shared about her experience and all. So I thought through...

 After much thoughts, I know what would be my reply.

Then one fine night, he sent me home and said if we could go to the rooftop garden at my block. I smelt something fishy already. He seemed usually weird and nervous. I distracted him by asking him to play angry bird on my phone. Time passed fast and it was like 11 p.m. already. He finally said he likes me. You know in movies or dramas, it would be pretty romantic but in my case I don't really have the romantic. I think my reaction is super dull. After his much digging for my reply, we went up the highest floor in the building where Singapore Flyer could be seen from afar. I knew what would be my reply but I don't know why I just don't want to tell him right there and right then. After much, we concluded to have my reply another day.

I didn't sleep well or didn't sleep the whole night. I needed to think it through again I guess though I knew what was going to be my reply to him.

I text him the next day and told him my reply. There, that's how we came together.

I once asked him if he did attempt to pop out the question. He said didn't. But many a times, I feel he wanted to. But all in all, we are together now.

Been 8 months, not very long but I guess is not that short too. We didn't quarrel did we? But we have unhappy or upset moments at times I guess. But still, we are together. I guess we love each other too much already. Haha! I believe we could pass through thin and thick! Ganbatte!

He is away from sailing and would be away for a week. So used to having him around. Without him feels kind of weird. I miss you! :)

These mark the end of my 2012 and 2013 came and two months have passed.

March is the month of my birthday and March also marks my 2 years in my career in the financial industry also marks the end of my contract.

This is a tough business. Quitting has always been on my mind. But what holds on to me these 2 years is my clients, how could I let my clients down. My 2 years contract. Myself, how could I quit? Winners never quit and quitters never win.

Now 2 years... What holds on would be the light to see the brighter future, I wish to buy car, house, have kids and my kids have proper education... my hundred over clients, how could I let them down when they put their trust on me to manage their finances... my family... I want to allow my parents to retire as early as possible... My lifestyle... wish to travel around the world...

So all in all... Want to thank you each and every one of you who have supported or encouraged me in any way. And hope you could support me more in anyway you can. Ha ha!

2013 would be a much eventful, joyful and meaningful to me and each and everyone of you!

Love,
Sam
:)

Random

Feeling kind of emotional...

New Year!

Happy Chinese New Year!

Some thoughts

It has been a long time since I updated. I can see that my blog is filled with spider webs and dust.

But anyway, today seemed like an up and down moments for me.

I had some thoughts and I guess I wish to share them here.

I was having my lunch time at Newton Circus Food Centre. I ordered avocado and it costs $3. It was pretty expensive for a non air-conditioned place or hawker centre. It is the price from the shopping centre. Okay, the cup is slightly bigger. But I bought similar size from AMK hawker centre, the one near to the market, near to the KBOX, at $2.50. And the avocado is superb! Those who like fruit juice can go patronize that shop. The shop name is CEBREAKER. The boss is also very friendly. They actually have another branch at Clementi. They got this card, buy how many cups of fruit juice got one free cup that kind of stuff. But anyway, I love avocado. That was one of the best I have drank so far. ( The best is homemade by myself! :] )

Other than avocado fruit juice, I order sliced fish with Mee Sua. It costs $5. I was pretty shocked to be that expensive. So it costed me $8 for a meal. That was rather expensive. Imagine I can have a Mc Donald's meal at $4.50 with a burger, fries and drink with air-con. Or even my favourite Subway for a $5 meal if they still having this promotion for a sub and a drink.

So the bottom line is that:
Is the cost of food in hawker centres rising? Or it is just Newton Food Centre is expensive?

While I was eating, there was this family of threes sitting beside my next table. I can sense from the tone of the wife, I can feel her anger and frustration but she was trying to control it. After ordering the food and came, the wife was eating some soup meal and the husband was talking to her some other stuffs. She lost her patient and accidentally spilled some soup onto the daughter (age around 4)'s hand. She tried to put some ice on the daughter's hand as the daughter was having ice at that moment and in the meantime quarreling with her husband. She also apologized to her daughter many times. The daughter started crying.

You guess what I'm thinking. Would you if you are single or married with kids or whatsoever, would you quarrel with your partner in front of your kids? I think is a very bad childhood memories for them.

You know what is my second thoughts? Why would you marry this person in the first person if you are so pissed with this person?

Someone told me that in courtships, the other person would always shows his or her best self. And we are blinded as always. But as time goes, you would realize the bits and pieces you feel pissed about him or her.

I'm not very experienced. So ya, but just wondered what if such things happened to me if I ever find a boyfriend, get married and have kids, what would I response?

Anyway, just some thoughts.

I was angry and disappointed as well.
I feel betrayed. I think I told two of my close friends regarding this. I don't wish to share it here because it made me feel like I bad mouthed someone. But anyway, probably I need to do some reflections on myself as well.

And thanks for the advises given by my two friends. And I love this code: The only difference between a good day and a bad day is your attitude! 

It is not someone else or something else that spoiled your mood, is how you want to look at it. 

If someone angered you, and you are angry, eh-huh! You fell for it! 

So think positively and smile brightly everyday! You don't know which prince charming would fall for that smile. Ha ha! 

On a brighter note.

I opened a new big case. And tomorrow is the first appointment. Pray hard for me that I can get and close the case. Pray for me!

Okay, shall end off!

Take care & cheers!

Sam :)
  

Advice

Advice for the day:
It is a brand new day!

Ya, I will try to stay as much positive as possible.
Thanks for the advice! :)

:)

I have a great day today! Thank you! :)

Confused!

Can I trust you?